“ Spill it, I know you did not just call me for free food...not that im complaining but I have been talking to a wall ever sinnce I sat down.” Kaylah asks me after taking a huge bite of the ribs.

I signal to the waiter to bring us a bottle of whiskey. After some minutes, the bottle is brought and I pour it to my glass and take it in one sip. I put the glass down, look at Kaylah sigh then ask, “I need you to be frank with me Kay… do you think there’s a chance I could be gay?” I ask in a very serious tone. Surprised, Kay puts down her spoon and looks at me, “ wait… what???” she jumps.

I sigh, I expected that from her, “just answer me first”

“Of course Not, dude you are the straightest guy I’ve ever met, you can’t even stand holding a guy’s hand and even got disgusted when you made out with Brandon back at the Uni, what the fuck is going on?” She sits up and looks at me puzzled.

I take another glass, I remember the feeling I got when I saw Tony and how weak I got in the knees. “Well, apparently not! I got a hard on my new employee today! Explain that!” I shout and take another shot. I feel angry and helpless.

I look at the now worried Kaylah and decides to tell her whats going on. “I'm sorry for yelling at you...it's just that today I bumped into the new hire and I reacted in a way I have never done befor. My heart was pounding in my ears, my knees suddenly became jelly and no words could come out of my mouth. I hate this feeling of how he can make me crumble when I barely even know him.” I groan as I take another sip. Kaylah chokes on her food and start coughing loudly. Suddenly, she grasps my hand and make me face her. “Start ...from.... the.... beginning. ..Talk” she takes a shot of the whiskey. I start from the talk and when I am done, no one talks for a few seconds. Afraid the news might have broken her, I signal for another bottle of whiskey. I take a shot and sigh loudly. “I must be sick...yes that’s the only explanation why I would react that way towards a person especially a man. Please tell me its the exhaustauion from the trip and my body just reacted by mistake”.I try to convince myself. A few seconds pass by and Kaylah still doesn’t say a word. I turn to her to see if she was paying attention to what I was saying only to be met by her face inches from mine. Shocked, I lean back.

“Dude, you must be blind stupid if you can’t tell what’s happening now.” She takes another shot. “that’s how the rest of the world freaking falls in love at the first sight dude! You my friend, just had your wish to be left breathless by none other than a guy!!!...I must admit, I am still wrapping my head around this but in a way I am glad it finally happened. It was about time someone knocked your high horse back to earth” She wipes imaginary tears and pats my back. Horrified at her remarks, I deny her sentiments and convince her that I am straight and still cold heart-ed but even as I continue explaining to a now less amused Kaylah, at the back of my mind I can’t help to wonder if I'm actually love struck.

“It’s not the end of the world mate, you don’t need to understand how, why and what happened, just let fate take its course. You will never get those answers. Love and emotions are not things you try to undersand rationally . Take time to understand and accept your new found feelings. It doesn’t matter what sex a person has, for you to fall in love with them. Not everyone gets to meet their soul mate on this earth and those who actually do, it might not be the one they expected. That's the beauty of it. So take your time and while you are at it, have fun along the way. Cheer up!! and yep! I ought to see this dude that can make your heart flatter like that, he must an extra ordinary man!! Introduce me to him soon, okay?” Kayla’s words keep playing on my mind again and again even when I get back home. Not everyone gets to meet their soul mate...Is Tony really my soul mate?

I go to bed thinking about Tony and wonder if he is straight or not. The next few weeks, I immerse myself in work at the office and barely manages to forget him. Its a sunny day today, I have a board meeting in a few minutes and I am all fired up on discussing some new business prospects. I grab my files and coffee and head to the board room. It’s been awhile since I bumped into Tony, I am starting to believe maybe I don’t have feelings for him and it was just confusion at the moment.

I open the door to find everyone all set and ready. After a few greetings, Tony stands up to present his presentation and immediately I’m hit with the realization that these feelings are not going anywhere anytime soon. He slowly gets up from his chair and steps to the board. I catch my breathe at the back of my throat as my eyes roam his body from top to bottom. He has curly hair and is wearing a blue suit with the front buttons unbuttoned. I can see he has some tattoo but its hard to make what it is. He has his sleeves folded and I can tell he is built from the way his shirt is hugging his chest tight. I feel my member going hard when our eyes meet and he offers a polite smile. “Focus, Goddammit!” I barely focus on his presentation. After a few minutes he goes back to his seat while another member goes to give their presentation. After a few hours, we deliberate and come up with the correct analysis and I thank everyone for their hard work and end the meeting. I gather my files and I’m about to get up from the seat when I look up and see Tony standing there smiling. My knees goes weak and I immediately sink back to the chair to steady myself. I clear my voice and try to sound and look intimidating as usual but even I am starting to doubt myself.

“Do you wish to speak to me Tony?”I ask while trying to look at anything but his chest. His fragrance envelopes me and I get the feeling that I am being hugged by the fluffiest clouds ever. How is it even possible to smell this good? I groan inwardly and try to steady my racing heart. “yes sir, I didn’t realize you are the CEO when I bumped into you on my first day here. I’ve been waiting for a chance to personally apologize to you for my behaviors ever since.” He smiles sincerely and I fight the urge to stand up and give him a hug.

“Don’t sweat it, there was no way you could have known that. If the offer still stand regardless of our positions, feel free to hit me up to show you around the city as friends.” I say in one breath and hope to the heavens that I don’t sound like I am asking him for a date. He gives me a big smile and seem to relax a bit. “Of course sir, I’ll tell the others in the department. Now, if you'll excuse me sir, I need to go do some work. Thank you for your time.”

Well he seems dense, but I guess its a good thing. Wouldn’t want to scare him on our second encounter. I go back to my office somehow feeling happy and relaxed which surprises everyone. I know it will take time for me to get used to this feeling but after talking to Kaylah, I'm a lot calmer and accepting of them.