It was dark, my eyelids felt like led as I opened them, for a moment I thought they didn't open but as I forced myself to look around I noticed it was just dark in the room, the floor below me was soft so I was probably no longer on the ground but in a bed, my bed to be exact, since the room was dead silant, I wasn't in a hospital.

I tried to move but my body felt like led, just like my eye lids they too took a bit to respond to my command and just like how the dark didn't vanish when my eyes opened, I couldn't get up from the bed, the numbness that had taken hold of my body was now gone it still felt heavy but the heaviness had a shape, it was just a blanket over me, something was next to me and was leaned over my chest as if to cover me but as the numb feeling faded I could feel that it wasn't covering much of me, it only managed to keep me stuck laying down.

I tried to lift the heavy object off my chest and that's when I noticed it was a person who was laying on top of me their head was too big to be Lucas so it must be Jack, but why was he laying on me in the dark, I couldn't help myself I started to move my hand down the nape of his neck, despite the air of someone who's faced hardship his skin was soft to the touch, so much so I found myself becoming jealous at how it felt. I started to move my hand down his neck so that I could reach and feel the rest of him, but I had to stop, this was not okay, he seemed to be asleep and if I kept going id be no better then the men who used me, even thought I let them, they should have seen my desperation, I was a kid and they were adults and ever since the ally I promised not to do that again, and that means doing it to others.

But before I could pull my hand away the body moved, not away but closer and when the weight of his head was off my chest it was soon replaced by the weight of him stradaling my wasit, I wanted to move away but he had grabbed my wristiest pinning me to the bed, allowing only for my head and chest to freely move around, squirming, I tried to slip free but the body brought itself closer the dark siloet was now terrifying, all I could see a warped face of a monstonster that wouldn't stop, no matter how much I screamed and the faces of the passerbys who glanced my way and hurried away, the calling out for help, I wanted to call out but the fear of what would happen if I ever did, I feared being hurt more then I would be if I kept my mouth shut, so I submitted, I wanted to close my eyes and just think of it as a bad dream but I needed to look into the monstoers face, I needed to see what drived them to do this to me.

But I didn't see a face of a monster, I saw those deep crimsion eyes shinning in the dark, they were looking at me with intent, they looked safe despite the hunger behind them as if he was sizing me up to eat but my fear faded, I felt safe as if the pain wouldn't come. The eyes came closer as if he was going to kiss me but instead they went past me so he could whisper "calm down" and that's when I noticed it my body had been shaking uncontrollably, as the fear faded I noticed a lot more, the pain that often came with my night terrors, that's why he had layed his head on me, he must have tried to keep me still during a night terror and then held me down thinking in was going into another, and I did but only because he hoped on top of me.

"now I'm going to slowly lt go of you" he said as if it was a question but I didn't say anything "okay" he breathed as his grip lossened around my wrist, he didn't get off me and just sat back on my waist as if he was still unsure if my next move was going to be a swing to hit him.

"thank you" I managed after an unease silance had settled between us "did I freak out in my sleep" I hoped I didn't but it would explain his reaction

"ahh yeah I tried moving you to your bed room and then you started to freak out , hit me pretty hard in the face" while he explained how threwout the night I had 3 night terrors the one just before he said seemed different, he had mentioned how my reaction was slow as if I was confused which I was but unlike the previous this one I didn't scream or thrash about, I just started shaking.

"you said you looked into my memories" I asked once he finished explaining how he had been asleep only to wake up thinking I was about to freak out "with the kiss you said you now knew a lot about me."

Despite the darkness I could feel him look away as he spoke "it wasn't anything too intrusive, it was just a quick learn to impress you, I somewhat understood why you thrashed about before because I glanced those but, when you just layed there shaking as if waiting for the innetable to happen, I didn't see any of those memories that could cause that"

"oh" so he didn't see it, my darkest moment, the regret that I almost left Lucas alone in this fucked up world "why" was all I could really manage, I throught he knew and didn't look at me the empathetic look that Lucy does, like shes worried I'm going to do it again.

"well I am not strong enough to devlp that deep into someones mind but" his eyes vanished as their low glow was pointed somewhere else before he spoke again "even though humans are pathetic its still not right to invade someones mind like that"

I felt my heart thump lightly as he said that, despite calling me pathetic he still saw me as someone worth having my own secret "well what if I allowed you to look at that memory"

His eyes appeared once again, they were closerer his face mearly a breath away from mine "you'll do it if I say you can"

"why"

"I don't know maybe I want to stop being the only person who knows the pain" it was a lie, I wanted him to go away and if he saw that'd be his reason to leave and then I can go back to how I used to be, safe and protected "you can look into that memory I give you permission"

It was but a moment his lips touched mine and I felt the tingling sensation of something passing through us as if he was reaching inside me.