A week past, nothing much happened, the news still talked of the monster attack on the city and the governments of the world called for action and some even accused Atlantis of creating illegal experiments on humans and animals which could explain for the sudden appearance of these monsters and then their sudden disappearance. Jack on the other hand was quite content with how things had been, lately he's been keeping me company in my room since that night, making sure to watch over me till I fell asleep.

He was kind in these moments, tender even, it made me long for his touch again, like he did when we kissed as he looked into the darkest depths of me, but he didn't touch me, not without proper reason, and it made me sad that he didn't, I had spent so much time removing myself from any aspects of my past I never allowed for myself to naturally express myself with those I should of, I never even dated anyone or told someone I loved them, but with Jack it felt like I cold do that, but he wouldn't want to, he'd prefer to get his powers back and his lack of making a move now must show that, if he felt anything towards me in that way, surly his straightforwardness that has caused him to but heads with just about everyone he's met, he would of said it.

"why don't you touch me" the question wasn't meant to leave my lips but as I layed there and he looked out towards the night sky, looking at the moon which had reached about half its luminosity "ever since that night you've refrained from touching me" he still didn't look at me, was he ignoring me or thinking, I wanted some kind of reaction.

"I didn't want to make you uncomftable" he finaly said in the silance "before I didn't understand it, what Lucy had told me, but since looking into your memory and feeling what you felt, the fear and the disgust you had with yourself and the rest of the world around, specially with how the very feeling of being touched"

Oh that's right, he wasn't always human with the ability to feel, the first real negative emotion he ever felt was mine and it was sill fresh in his mind, unlike me who had years to come to terms with it and even though I might not be ready, I don't think I'd ever be fully ready, I was still willing to try, with him. He's made me feel safe for the first time in a long time and he didn't run when de discovered how damaged I am, maybe he can make all of me better.

"you don't make me feel that way" I blurted out, he looked at me for a moment before I continued "even when Lucas touches me my skin crawls and I can barely handle it, hes my brother but my body doesn't care, it fears the touch of another human, but you, you don't make me feel that way"

Jack moves closer to me, his face only centermeters from my own, he seemed to hesitate as if waiting for me to tell him he can "Jack" I said his name softly and as if that was all he was waiting for he pressed his lips to mine, and it felt magical, unlike the other times where it felt cold and forced, now it felt as if he kissed me with the same tender care he used when holding me down during a night terror, he pulled away but I was hungry for another so I followed his mouth as he drew back and kissed him back, for a moment he seemed startled but he also kissed back this time more hungrily.

Without our lips parting I moved to straddle Jack, his lower half was responsive and I wanted more than a kiss, I wanted to experience it again, as much as I was violated I had a craving for sex, now that it was within my grasps it pulsed through my vains and my body wanted it, it remembered and it wanted to experience it, the next hit was craved but as I began to grind myself on him, Jack pulled me away from his lips, a small cry left my lips as Jack held me apart from him

3"um I think we shouldn't rush into it" his pale skin was now tinted the same crimson red as his eyes "I saw what happened to you and I don't want you to push yourself"

He was sweet, but it was only because he saw it, if I hadn't of let him he might have not stopped me from going further, but his concern was still sweet and despite my raging hormones driving me to go further, I couldn't force him to do something he still felt weird doing, I wont be like that man, not that he could do anything to anyone again.

I breathed out a small sigh as I leaned into him, he let me, though his grip on my arms didn't lesion at all, not till he probably felt I wouldn't try and jump him, but I didn't want to, the raging urge had been flushed from my body as quickly as it came and now I was left feeling disgusted with myself, I hated my body and the way it reacted, I hated that any small amount of kindness was enough to have me get in that state

"are you okay?" Jack's voice vibrated through his neck as I nuzlled my face into the crook of his neck

"yeah I'm fine" it felt nice just being held by him, its been so long since someone held be that, the only solid memory I have is the one that I hate the most "lets just sit like this for a while" and we did, Jack didn't move or complain he just let me rest my head till I fell asleep, I wasn't sure when I did but when I awoke the next morning I wasn't alone in my room like the last few time when Jack waited till I slept, this time I layed on his chest and his low breathing so soothing I drifted back to sleep.