I've lost the point of me being here, I've let my new found humanity give way to temptation, I need to get my powers back but how can I do that when I am laying here with Sam on top of me, what I saw inside him, the past he keeps guarded and I was not prepared for it, I let myself fall victim to the emotional distress of his memories and I cant let it distract me from my goal. Yet why do I stay here, under him, being his a comfort to him, why do my hands rub his back everytime he stires so that he knows I am here and falls back into a deep sleep, why do I long for another kiss as I move his hair from his face.

I slowly rolled him off me and in response he curled up right next to me, I couldn't help the pull I felt towards him but I needed to go find the Dark Raven. I slipped out in the dead of night, the moon looked massive at night

"a full moon tonight" I breathed, I was lucky I just needed to look for the darkest ally and I will find this mysterious place, I had been holding off looking for it and staying by Sam's side the whole time but now I needed to returne to my old self again or else I might lose sight of my true objective.

I walked down streets upon streets, each ally I saw was lit up brightly by the moon above us, as I walked I had time to think, like why does Sam instill a type of comfort that feels familiar but I can't rember why. But once I become a reaper again I'll be rid of these useless emotions and I can finaly returne to the reaper realm and I'll never interact with the Human worlds again.

"lost?" a voice sounded behind me, I turned around to see an old man draped in rags "you look lost my boy" he continued as he approached me

"no im not lost" I replied quickly "I'm just on a walk to think about some things" the old mans eyes were hidden under his tattered brown hat but I could tell they looked at me and yet they felt to be looking through me as well.

"I don't mean Lost in that terms young man" the man now stood next to me, he nodded before walking past me, I got the feeling he wanted me to follow him and so I did, it was better then walking aimlessly around "now boy tell me your worries"

"I don't have any worries" I spat at him

"we all have worries, they are a natural part of us" the man spoke as if he knew something I didn't "even gods have worries, though they might not admit it gods have the most worry as they govern their domains"

"there are no gods" I replied, because it was true, the universe was like a machine and nothing governed it, sure Reapers protected it from that which claws its ways from outside the universe but we were a natural occurrence, a byproduct of the universe creating its own defence system, if amything the universe itself was the god.

The old man laughed lightly and deeply "boy there are gods closer than you think, they may not be the ones humans know but they are still there watching and pulling the strings" the old man spoke as if remembering something "though the strongest one of all is one to be feared they say, it's the creator but also the destroyer"

"if these gods you speak of are so unknown of then how do you know about it" this old man was full of it, like all humans he had no idea of the true workings of the world around him. I turned to look at him and the old man smiled at me, his face wrinkled by age, eyes that some how glowed despite looking void of anything "your not human"

"smart boy" he started his voice distorted as he began to fade "but can you figure out the truth before its too late" the old man faded away and, in his place, stood a mirror image of myself though why he looked like me his hair was black and eyes white "though that would be a miracle since you can't even see when a being so powerful is right in front of you"

"what are you" I raised my hands ready to summon my scythe forth but I felt my mind shift as the words to call it vanished from my memory "wha-"

"tsk tsk now that won't do" my mirror image spoke "I've found your need to avoid the deal you made with the gatekeepers quite annoying, that's not how my plan for you and Sam was meant to play out and now I am here to give you a warning before you go forward with finding that woman" the mirror image sounded like me but other voices also spoke from his mouth though my voice was lounder the others gave him a sense of unnatural ease.

"what do you mean"

"oh poor Sammy boy he wishes to be loved and cared for by another and he wishes their eyes matched the same comfort of those red eyes he saw so long ago" the mirror image began "and one night as he dreamed in his nightmares he found himself in my humble graces and made a selfish wish that he believed would only be possible in a dream but I saw fit to grant him that wish"

"what the hell are you talking about" I started to back away but the world around us fell away and in its place was a small bridge sitting in the void, the bridge lead to a small floating island with a giant cherry blosum tree that was in full blume.

"but you running away and finding another way to get your powers back is throwing off that design" the mirror image walked closer and reached for my throat and I couldn't stop him, my body wasn't my own "now go back home and get into bed with that boy and make him feel the love I promised him for I am a being of my word and the deals I make must always be fulfilled or else ill erase you and this own reality of earth so that it will no longer be a thorn in my side"

Before I could respond I was standing in front of the house, I had been taken back to the beginning and I was left with a pained realisation I wasn't in control of my fait but some creature that is able to hide and manipulate the world around it.

"Jack" I looked up and saw that Sam was standing at the front door his eyes half lidded as if he only woke up "are you going to look for the Dark Raven" his words were low as if the realisation that I was going without him meant a lot to him, a lot more then it would of to me.

"ah no I was just standing out here to look at the moon" I lied, I don't know why that was my first reaction, I walked over to him and I remembered the words of the mirror image.

'ill erase you and this whole reality of earth so that it will no longer be a thorn in my side'

Could it really do that and if so why are the reapers so igranit about something that has the ability to change reality at a whim, it wasn't just powerful enough to stop me from bringing out my scythe it eradicated my memory on how to summon it, for now I must play by its game if I wish to survive

"Jack?" Sam looked at me, I was right next to him now and his face was a light pink as he knew how close I stood to him and I kissed him, it was short but I needed to, if the thing I saw bwfore wants me to fall in love or he'll erase a whole version of earth then I will stop fighting it, I'll submit to my new found enotions in this human body.