When I found out that I lived in Wren Klauzen world, I feel like I can see my future as a successful orchard owner, fell in love with some random farmer and live the live of a simple farming world while becoming Wren Klauzen fan. 

I also found out that the drama <My Happy Life> was a drama released 7 years ago and Wren is now 10 years old. 

As soon as we hit the end of episode 10, nanny force the tv to shut off and drag me to bed, saying that a 5 years old should have a on time sleep schedule. She promised that we will continued watching the drama tomorrow. And before the left me on my own, she confiscated my phone and waited until I am really asleep.

This old women already knows how to treat me.

Then, as promised after breakfast, nanny and me as well as Sammy which was trying so hard to pull me into his tutoring class, sat on sofa and watched the remaining 6 episodes of <My happy Life>.

It felt so surreal. The character that I read and loved is in front of my eyes, not as someone who I have to interact with but as someone who I can support as a fan watch his journey as an actor. It felt so different than the usual conflict and drama everytime I got roped into.

This time, its a slow life and waiting for Wren Klauzen next work.

Obviously, nanny has all of Wren's work including his recent movie. Apparently, nanny is Wren's fan and she said that Wren remind her of her grandchild living in overseas. 

Sammy on other hand, even with his firmness of wanting to be in his class the next day, whenever nanny and I sat in front of tv on the days where there is no class, Sammy still sat at sofa and watched with us.

After the broadcast of <My Happy Life>, Wren's popularity as child actor soared and when he hit 5 years old, he came out with a family movie called <Moments>.

It sounds harmless but believe me tears will flood just as much as flooded the city the family of four went too. 

Now that I think about it, I know every Wren's filmography. Since he first started until the end of the story. Because the story center around not just the around the character growth but also the character choices in works. So naturally, the writer wrote the dramas, movies and plays that Wren involved creatively. 

Yet, reading the story and actually living and watching his work in front of my eyes is entirely different. 

I am able to see the subtle fear when the character he played realized they were separated with his family. That he has to protect his older sister as much as his older sister protects him.

Not to mention the realness of flood the editing team brought on the table, the cinematographer that capture the panics when the city started to flood and the chosen song for that very moment where they were stuck with strangers and no way of finding their parents. With no clean water and food. No way to understand the locals language, open to dangers and the long list of missing names and nameless dead body.

It's not just Wren himself that shines in the story, his co-star also breath life to the character they played. 

At the end of the story, even though the sister broke her arm and the father injured his head, the family reunited at the embassy and was brought home to their home country. It was a happy ending. The story also able to convert Sammy as Wren believer. Believe it or not.

Next few days, we continue to watch Wren works. This time it was a drama when Wren was 7 years old. Mystery thriller with Wren as the younger version of the male lead. 

Nanny was not a big fan of such genre but she still sits through out the drama. The title was <When Spring Turns Red>, a story about the male lead who witness the murder of an infamous serial killer that later was found out that the one the police caught was an innocent person. The real culprit is still mysteriously at large and someone that the male lead close too. 

The drama really shines when the screenplay writer knows how to pull viewers and invest in not only the male lead narrative but the serial killer narrative. The plot twist was so shocking that nanny is the one that feels frustrated and depressed for days. 

Even though Wren shows up in few minutes for certain number of episodes, his acting ability still can be seen as he was able to synchronize with the male lead that you don't feel heterogeneity at all.  

Since the story was heavy, it took us another few days to get back to Wren's next work. A story of <Passerby>. 

I remembered reading while Wren was searching for his next work, he says, "I want something light and fun!"

Thus, last year, his light and fun movie came out with everyone bawling their eyes out. It was quite controversial too as the story revolves around a war incited by a child implemanted in certain organizations. They look like they are harmless and lowly, but their innocence was merely just a masked. They trade operation secrets and use as bait to incite war.

Light and fun he said.

Maybe because he was discovered by the female leads and tried to save him together with the male leads. 

One thing for sure, I almost unrecognized Wren's face. He totally erased his present of sun shine and rainbows and he totally look dark and sullen. As if world has turned against him. 

Looking at Wren's movie <Passerby> reminds me of few other dreams I've been where war torn countries are involved. Marching into battlefield fighting bad monsters sounds noble but fighting human who was forced to serve their ruler greed and made the soil turned red for centuries. 

Either the world with no magic or the world was enchanted by such wondrous use of magic, the level of grieve and guilt that plague my heart never leave. 

For that I am grateful that this dream cycle, I'm just an NPC who admired the great actor who shines best when he is on screen. 

* * * * *

When becoming a supportive fan, of course I joined his fan cafe. His sites has hosted more than 50 thousands followers. For child actor it was quite a lot. Not only that his SNS is insane. 1 million. 

Here is where I lay my soul dear Mr Klauzen.

Most of his picture taken was when he is working on set or when he is spending time with his family and friends. His favourite older brother of course Gary Lombardi always within the camera range if he happen to spend time with his fellow actors.

I used to think that it is impossible for me to actually see all of these. His picture for SNS, his activity history in fan cafe, his letters to fan for every of his birthdays, his sightings in odd places by his fans, or that when he fell face first on sports day.

I placed my hand on my mouth and my body shakes. I should not laugh. I should not laugh.

Whoever post this must be asking for hate...

What, Wren himself post it here on fancafe? He is something else, that is for sure. It was like, before you try to bring me down, I bring myself down first so you can just relax kind of feeling. Moreover he made a v-sign with his face covered with mud and his white teeth showing that he is alright.

I don't remember this part in the book. 

Obviously not all parts of main protagonist is covered in books. I have learned that back in my first dream cycle.

Once again, I'm glad that this dream cycle is where I can observe him with light hearted. 

* * * * *

Ten years passed.

At this point in life, I should rename myself Rapunzel. After so many years trapped inside this beautiful estate where every season there's fruit to taste and lakes to row boats on, I became desperate when Wren finally announced he would do his first ever fan signing.

I don't mind that I can't go to his movie premier or his fan meetings. There's always videos to buy and see. She had every bit of money to spent on upgrading her tv so that she can see Wren's acting face and best sound system so that she can hear Wren's mature and deep voice.

But nothing beats fan sign!

All this time I held myself virtuously. 

Even other fans organized birthday events and she can't follow them, she would hold a birthday celebration with nanny and Sammy on their own and post it on Wren's fan cafe. 

Even when others do travel pilgrimage of Wren's shooting location, she can only cheer them with comments and heart emoji. 

Because when Wren sold his limited edition merchandise, everytime it came, she will win it. She has his limited edition photo card edition bind in a folder which is also a limited edition one too that came in his official colour. I won copies of his script for released work with his writings of analysis of characters he played. I also won a plushies that he himself crocheted though it looked a bit funny but we all can distinguish what animal it was. 

Penguin.

Wren loves penguins so much that the reason so because it reminds him of his first ever work where he look like a penguin. 

Why are you dissing yourself my dear actor?!

And now, it's a freaking fan sign event. I have things that I want to give him. Things that I want to say to him. Things that I am so grateful for. 

"Just give up, princess. You can never leave this tower," Sammy voice was heard across the living room with his so called villainous voice acting. Everytime he wants to make my heart boil with anger he used that kind of voice tone with me.

"Shut up Sammy! Go play with your girlfriend or something. Oh wait, she left you. Burnnn," I dissed him back.

He rolled his eyes at me. His the one that asked it first.

Nanny who was standing at the kitchen sink laughed. "Can't you ask him to let her out for a moment? It has been ten years she's been in this place. We both had our chance to get out once in a while but she never see the outside world. You're his secretary-"

"I tried, nanny. And I'm not his only secretary. He has 10 secretaries in his office. The one he kicked here has no say in whatsoever decision he made," Sammy voiced out his frustration and bitterness.

"I don't care. I want to go no matter what!" I decided. In two hours his fan can sign up for raffles. Because it's limited edition, the management decided to raffles for lucky fan to go to his fan sign. 

And I am always lucky!

Every limited edition merch comes in raffles so that is why I am lucky to get my hands on those merch. This time I want to trust my luck as well.

There is 3 laptops in front of me. One for nanny, one for Sammy and one for me.

The three of as always win these things together and after spending years creating bonds over Wren's work and became familiar with each other, I sort off attached to them more than any other dreams I ever fell into.

Sammy took place beside me and nanny too.

The three of us wait for the time to come for us to sign up for Wren's first fan sign event while eating fruits that nanny brought over. 

"Is this the guava from the orchard?"

"Yes, the one young miss take care off."

"The one that she always sings her heart off? Wonder it still taste so good even when the singer sounds so bad."

'Pap!'

"Ouch!"

Nanny laughed heartily as she watches me duke out with Sammy like a real siblings.