"Mph~"... 

As I felt someone's lips pressing against mine while lying down on my bed, I opened my eyes in an instant.

I was totally panicked when I saw Lily sitting on top of me, kissing me passionately...

I grabbed her arms and shoved her back, "What are you doing?!" 

She stared at me, her eyes filled with desire. "I want you! Let's make love, Diane~" she said and leaned closer to kiss me again. Lily's kiss was intense, passionate, and full of longing. Her lips were soft and warm, and as they moved against mine, I felt a wave of emotion wash over me. 

I ran my hands through her shirt, caressing her smooth skin as I was getting more excited. Then I flipped her down and got on top. 

"This is so wrong!" I muttered, and Lily looked at me for a few seconds, giving me a warm smile. She then said, "You can do whatever you want with me~" 

I kissed her neck, collarbones, and breasts. I felt her body trembling beneath me as I explored her curves. 

"What are you doing to her?!" A similar voice to mine tingled my ears. I turned my head towards the sound and saw myself standing next to the bed, observing us with a disappointed expression... 

I got chills all over my body and looked back at Lily as I was completely confused, crying under me out of the blue, "YOU HURT ME!"

"No! ... I~... " My heart was beating so fast since I freaked out to death. I couldn't even talk as if someone was choking me hard. 

Lily kept repeating, "YOU WANNA HURT ME!!!"

I gathered all my energy to shout...

"NOOOOOO~" 

I jumped up from the bed like a cat does when it's scared and fell on the floor. "Ow!"

"What's wrong with you, Dee?!" I heard Faith's voice coming from behind.

I quickly turned around and saw Faith standing in the room with a toothbrush in her mouth and a towel on her shoulder. Then I checked the bed, which was empty... 

I asked, confused, "Where's Lily?" 

Faith stared at me blankly and said, "How should I know that?" 

Damn it...

I dreamed about her again... 

I sighed deeply and rubbed my face frustratingly. "Faith, I think I'm going insane!" 

"Have you just noticed that? You are already insane, darling~..." she answered mischievously and walked back to the bathroom... 

+"F.U... Faith..."

-"Hm~ I love you too!" 

~

It's been a month since I started having these weird dreams about Lily mixed with terror. In fact, it has exhausted me so badly, and the more I want them to stop, the more I see!

I don't understand what's wrong with me or why this is happening!

As Faith came out of the bathroom, I got up in frustration and stared at Faith, wondering.

"What's up with you seriously today?" She asked.

Observing Faith's body, I stepped closer to her and cornered her against the wall by resting my hands beside her. I then continued to question myself about the situation.

Faith frowned and said annoyingly, "Don't dare make a move on me!"

"Don't make me laugh, Faith! Just wait a moment and let me check something!" I grumbled.

I slipped my hand on her shoulder and lowered it to her waist, mumbling, "You two have similar shapes." 

"Why~? Are you~ acting~ like a serial killer?!!!~..." Faith snarled. 

I ignored what she said and made her turn around by grabbing her shoulders and pushing her against the wall.

 "Even their butts are similar, so why hasn't Faith ever turned me on, but Lily has?" I wondered in my thoughts.

"Heyyyy!!!" She yelled this time and pushed me back. 

I smirked and said, "Don't be a drama queen, I couldn't feel anything anyway." And walked to the bathroom as she grumbled, "Freaking bastard."

I turned on the shower and let the hot water cascade down my body. I let out a huff, " This is bad~ So bad~..."

~

Afterward, Faith and I had breakfast and started working nonstop. As the hours passed by one after another one, my stress level increased more since Lily was supposed to come to my house after her shift. 

~

[18:25]

I turned my head in Faith's direction, staring at her as she was sitting behind her desk next to me, focusing on work.

"Gosh!!! Diane! Can you stop being a creep?!" She groaned.

+"Faith, I hate to talk, but I really need to."

-"Say it then! It's better than staring at me!"

+"Em~ Don't think I'm a pervert, okay?"

Faith gave me bombastic side eyes, "Spit it out!"

+"I recently kept having dreams about~... em~... Lily... " 

-"What kinda dream?"

+"Those steamy ones~... Like when you 'beeeep' and then she 'beeeep'... " 

-"Woah! Woah! Wait! Stop!... " Faith's eyes widened completely as her jaw dropped dramatically, then she said, " Why?! You told me you had nothing to do with her!"

+"That's exactly what I'm saying!!! I thought I was sexually frustrated at first. 

However if that was the case, I would have been okay with anyone!... 

But I couldn't do it with Ethan for a whole month, no matter how many times I tried!... 

And now he's angry at me... Doesn't answer my calls... He thinks I'm mocking him... and~... 

Lily keeps coming here with this excuse that she wants to study at my house since she can't do it at hers!... 

But, funny enough, the only thing that she doesn't do is study!... She'll just talk to me nonstop!... 

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?! ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT THEN IS THAT I WANT TO DO IT WITH HER SINCE SHE'S CUTE WHEN SHE TALKS!..."

Faith stared at me for a few minutes, then she said after a sigh, "Diane, you're really stupid!... And obviously a pervert! But that's not the problem now."

"What?!" I asked as I raised an eyebrow. 

"YOU LIKE LILY!!! GOD DAMN IT! HOW CAN YOU NOT REALISED THAT!" Faith grumbled. 

I was taken aback by what she said, "No! That's not possible! I still like som~..." I hesitated to say more, wondering.

-"I guess you moved on, girl! Don't fool yourself by denying this!" 

After that, Faith left the room to make some coffee, and I was dazed, thinking about her words...

Nah, that's not possible...

"By the way, do you know this was the first time that you've ever talked this much?! Hahahaha... " I heard Faith's voice coming from the kitchen.

"Shut up, Faith!... " I groaned. 

~

Lily's POV: 

[18:50]

It's been a month since I've started working in that bookstore and I should say that I love it so much. I feel like Alice in Wonderland, and I don't want to get out of there...

A healing feeling has surrounded my mind and body...

Recently, I've been thinking more positively about my life, despite the fact that there are still some other things that make me upset... 

The only thing that I really want is that Diana to like me back... 

I've made my mind not to give up easily!...

I'm determined to show her my potential!... 

The first thing I need to work on is graduating from high school... 

So I asked Diana to let me study at her place twice or thrice a week since I couldn't concentrate on our house's negative vibe... 

My intention, however, goes beyond that...

The only way I can etch my image in her mind is to be in her sight...

Hehe~... 

My actions may seem weird, but love always causes people to do things that don't make sense....... 

~

I rang the bell of Diana's door, and Faith opened the door. As soon as she saw me, she said, "Oh! Speak of the devil! Come on in, sweetie~..." 

I asked while smiling, "Were you guys talking about me?" 

Diana came out of her office room and stared at me blankly, and then I said hi to her. 

"Hey," She replied coldly. 

Faith noticed that I was puzzled by her reaction, so she whispered, "Ignore her. She couldn't sleep lately..."

"Why? What's wrong?" I asked. 

She laughed mischievously. "It's a secret."

I thought, "Huh?... What's that supposed to mean?..."

"What should we eat for dinner?" Diana asked as she walked into the kitchen, grabbing her coffee mug. 

I followed her excitedly and showed the paper bag in my hands, "I bought burgers with french fries to eat since I got my salary today~" 

Faith got the bag in my hands happily then took out the burgers, placed them on the table, and thanked me. 

Diana nagged, "Thank you, Lily, but don't spend your money easily! Save them for serious matters!" 

Faith slapped her back and said, "Stop acting like an ass! Just eat and be grateful!" 

She choked on her coffee and glared at Faith, "Heeey! " 

I laughed awkwardly, "Let's eat!~..." 

I wonder how they've become friends when they keep fighting together... 

~

[19:45]

After dinner, Faith returned home, and we were left alone at Diana's place. 

I don't know why, but the atmosphere felt different than usual. Diana's strange silence was screaming so loudly in my mind... 

Something must have happened to her... 

I took out my books and notes, then sat on the floor behind the coffee table in the living room... 

I glanced at Diana as she picked up a bottle of whisky from the cabinet and a glass. 

As soon as Diana walked towards me, I dropped my head anxiously and pretended I was busy studying, playing with my mechanic pencil.

She slumped down on the couch behind me, letting out a sigh.

Diana filled her glass with that whisky and then placed the bottle on the table...

I looked back and asked, "Did something happen?"

"No." That was her answer as she gulped down the alcohol. 

+"You'll get drunk if you drink that fast!" 

-"Just do your studies, Lily. This is why you're here, right?"

I flinched at what she said in that serious scary tone, and then I replied, "Right~" 

~

After an hour, I turned around to look up at Diana to check her state, and she seemed drunk. As her gaze fell on mine, she covered my eyes with her left palm and said, "Don't look at me!" 

I asked, "Diane~... Have I done something wrong? Why are~... Hmph~" 

She covered my mouth with her right palm before grumbling, "Hush! Don't talk!" 

I was bewildered by her attack and grabbed her wrists, "mhmmm~~~... hhmmm~..." trying to push her hands away and talk, but she was stronger than me. 

"Damn it~... Lily~... stop torturing me~..." she mumbled and backed away. 

"You don't like me coming here?" I wondered.

-"No, that's not the problem..."

+"Then~ Why~ would you say that?!..."

I felt a sudden rush of fear crawling into my mind, thinking about what her answer might be, but before answering me, she passed out completely. 

I rocked Diana back and forth, calling her name a few times, but there was no response.

I stood up, trying to lift her up and take her to the bed so she could rest there comfortably. As I pulled her up, she slumped on me, "Waah~ You're heavier than I'd imagined!" 

I dragged her to the bedroom with all the strength I had as I was panting hard.

As we approached the bed, Diana stumbled, causing us both to fall onto it, and I found myself on top of her. Diana opened her eyes suddenly after a groan and stared at me. Then she said, "Seriously?! You're here again?!"

I answered flusteredly, "I'm sorry~ I fell on you suddenly! I'll get up right now!" And tried to back away, but she pulled me close to herself by grasping my neck and then kissed my lips aggressively...

I felt my face flush with heat and my heart jumping out of my chest. I froze in surprise, unable to do anything but just receiving that kiss. 

There was a tenderness on her lips that smelt like the whisky she had earlier consumed. My mind raced with a million emotions and thoughts I had never experienced before...

"This feels like heaven~..." That was the only thought in my mind...

She passed out again after a few minutes and left me alone in a surprise... 

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