People say life is a gift and being alive is a blessing for itself. They say it can be complex and would be filled with roses and thorns. These descriptions must have looked beautiful didn’t they? I don’t know if life is like that for other people but for me it has been more than of an everyday torture and mental torment. Being alive or not is completely worthless for me. I tried to end it all numerous times and failed every goddamn time too. I don’t want to deal with all this torture every day, I want to get rid of it all in just one go. I wish I could just simply die then bearing all these every single day. Maybe death is way more blissful then life itself.