Camilla's pov
This is it, my first day at my new school Rochester High.
I know it's strange that I'm transferring to a new high school on a Tuesday and in Mid-March but I had no choice.
I had to transfer from the other high school in town Lewis High because how I was treated there was awful.
I was bullied verbally, physically and in any way possible. You name it. It's been going on for years but in the past few months, it has been unbearable.
The last straw was when I got pushed from the roof just because I'm...trans.
Yes, I'm Camilla Lunez the trans girl that has gone viral for falling from a roof at Lewis High
weeks ago.
I'm so lucky I didn't get badly injured. I got a concussion and broke my right leg, that's it. It was horrible and I had to be hospitalized for it. It could've been worse and I'm aware of that.
So for the last few weeks, I hadn't gone to school and today I'm back at school but I'm starting at Rochester High instead.
I really wish I could go to another high school but my parents can't move for my sake, they've done so much for me.
My parents weren't aware of what was going on as I didn't have the heart to tell them nor the courage. Once that event happened, they were furious at my school but couldn't do anything much more. At least the guy that pushed me, got expelled but what scares me is that I heard he's in this school now. I really hope I won't see him and he won't see me.
So, as of today, I am now finally ok to go back to school.
Through, when I mean my parents did a lot for me, they really did.
I'm not only trans and my parents weren't aware of it. They always knew. I have known since I was young but wasn't aware of the term. In my heart, body and soul I have always been a girl despite being born and trapped in a boy's body.
So I have been trans for years. Yes, I've been bullied before for being too girly but now it's because I am trans.
At first, my parents didn't accept it and didn't understand it but they let me go on hormone blockers at age 12.
Obviously, I wish I could get the hormones to begin my transformation medically to a woman but they deem me too young and my accident didn't help either.
Regardless, I started acting like a girl, I dress up like a girl would, I put makeup on, do what girls do. Basically, I live as a girl. Sometimes, I wish I could go through what other girls go through but I know it'll never be possible.
Even if it's that, I make sure to look the closest to a girl even if I haven't gone to puberty, yeah I put fake boobs thanks to pads on my bras.
Anyways, my parents made sure that my accident will not happen again. They managed to make the teachers and the principal use my new name, not my dead name, use the pronouns she/her/hers and treat me as if I were a female student.
Luckily for us, the principal surprisingly agreed even if they are uncomfortable with that.
That way people won't automatically assume I'm trans and I'll feel more comfortable.
Despite my gender, I have another condition that makes the bullying worse that I have no control over. I have dyspraxia. Yeah, I suck at tying my shoes laces, throwing balls and so much more. I hate the teasing and it's not fun especially knowing others blamed it for the next I was acting like a girl. It has nothing to do with that.
Most guys are seen as athletic so it's rare to have guys have dyspraxia but then again I am a girl, not a guy.
Other than that bad stuff, I have something to
cope with and that I did often during my recovery. I like to cook and bake. Yeah, nothing thing I got bullied for but I made sure I wouldn't let that get past me.
Baking and cooling help me calm down and be happy. I feel safe and carefree in a kitchen. Sadly, no one shares my passion like me.
Anyways, I have to get back to reality because the history teacher just introduced me as a transfer student.
I get in and I see everyone look at me interested. This is nerve-wracking. I don't like being the center of attention...
"Hi...um I'm Camilla Lunez," I say shyly.
"Good, you can do sit down."
I walk around and notice the very guy that pushed me. I avoid his gaze as he ignores me. Then, I notice an empty sit next to a girl with short blue dyed hair. She smiles brightly at me and I stare at her nervous. I'm not used to that and I'm so nervous!
"Hey, I'm Dakota." Dakota? That doesn't seem like a girl's name.
"Dakota...?" Her smile drops. Oh...I made a mistake, didn't I?
"Yeah, it's not my real name but I prefer that name." Huh?
"Oh ok...." I chuckle nervously.
"It's time you know." She has a... European accent. Where is she from?
"Where are you from?"
"Ukraine." Ukraine?
"Wow, ok..."
The teacher starts his class and we stop talking. Through, I notice two other guys not too far, they seem nice. Maybe I could be friends with them?
Eventually, the teacher tells us to start working on the assignment.
"Want to work together?" That girl Dakota suddenly says.
"Ok..." I say nervously.
"Hey...why'd you transfer?" Oh...Why is she asking me such a hurtful thing?
"Oh...sorry I asked. Too straightforward." Oh, she noticed...
"Yeah...um...I was wondering something." Is it a bad thing if I ask her about the two brown-haired guys?
"What is it?"
"Um, who are those two guys...?" I say shyly and I point to those two guys. She frowns.
"Why are you asking about them?" She says in a weird interested tone.
"They seem nice..."
"Their names are Charlie and Kilian if that's what you're wondering. They are best friends but they don't become friends with others." That's disappointing.
"Oh..."
"Don't worry! I'm sure if you try talking especially to that Charlie boy, he'll talk to you."
"Ok..."
The class goes on and the bell rings.
"Um...do you think I can talk to them...?"
I might seem desperate but they seem nice. I just want to make brand-new friends. The girls don't seem to like me other than that Dakota girl that is a bit...weird...
"Yeah, you can. Go for it!"
She pushes me and I land in front of the guy, I believe called Charlie. I instantly get embarrassed and a blushy mess. The both of them look at me confused.
"Um...hi, I saw you two and you seem nice..." Charlie smiles and the Kilian guy stares at me coldly. Oh, Charlie has braces, cute.
"I'm glad to hear that, well, I'm Charlie and that's Kilian."
"Hey..." Kilian says coldly and that gets me nervous.
"I...I'm Camilla if you didn't hear."
"You seem nice too." Charlie smiles with his braced teeth.
It's silent for a few seconds until the Kilian actually talks.
"We should go now, Charlie." Charlie looks at Kilian unimpressed.
"That's not nice Kilian. She was talking to us." She! He used the right pronouns!
"Yeah, yeah sorry, I didn't want to be mean or whatever but we kinda need to leave, so what do you want?" That's still mean...
"I...I was wondering if...I could hang out with you two...?" Kilian looks at Charlie for what feels like forever.
"Yeah, you can, though before you do, you need to know that Charlie likes Maverick Campbell, a guy and I'm non-binary. If that bothers you then you're not welcome." Kilian says harshly, Charlie blushes despite being disappointed in Kilian.
Charlie is gay. What does non-binary mean?
"Non-binary what is that?" I say confused.
"It means I identify as neither a guy nor a girl."
"Huh?"
"Kilian goes by the pronouns they/them/theirs instead of he/him/his." What kind of pronouns is that?
"I don't quite understand..."
"It's fine Charlie. You don't need to explain. I didn't expect her to actually understand..."
"No! I want to understand."
"Just...don't call me a boy and oh, it means I struggle with my gender identity. I'm just a person, that's it." That's confusing.
"Ok...but Charlie...you're gay?"
"Well, I'm pansexual."
"What is that?"
"It means I can be attracted to anyone regardless of gender." He says a bit awkwardly. Pansexual? That seems cool.
"It seems nice."
"Yeah...."
It's silent again.
"Can you students leave? I have another class."
"Sorry, Mr. Washington."
We get out of the History classroom.
"You're welcome to hang out with us. We can show you around." Charlie says politely.
"No, it's fine," I say flattered.
"Ok then."
I stick with them for the short break. It was nice. Kilian didn't talk to me all that much but it's ok. I decided to ask Charlie who were the popular students in school and he told me all about it. Kilian was right, Charlie really likes this basketball guy Maverick Campbell.
Through, weirdly enough I remember the most the name Ethan White. Apparently, he's the school's bad boy. Rumour has it, he sells drugs. That's bad.
Anyways, it's time for the next period, I believe Maths with Mr Anderson.
I take my things and get to the number of the classroom mentioned on my timetable.
I get in and instantly notice the ones Charlie mentioned to me. Emery Blackwell the best soccer player in the school is in this class, Maverick Campbell the basketball captain is in this class, Makayaka his girlfriend who's the top cheerleader is there too, the school's president Alexis Jones is in the class and...oh gosh the school's bad boy Ethan White is actually physically present in this class.
Immediately, my eyes set on him. I'm not used to seeing this. Actually, he's so good-looking. He has dark chocolate brown hair, some hair that falls close to his eyes, a half-shaved beard, beautiful blue eyes and some piercings. Unfortunately, he had this cold expression on which is sad.
He's wearing some cool-designed jeans jacket and oh...holes in his jeans.
Body wise he isn't that muscled but he has a shaped torso he's got a good physique. He is taller than me which is not surprising. Actually, that's perfect! Huh? What do I mean perfect? Do I have a crush on him?! Oh no! Not so fast!
Before I can sit down a girl called Alexis comes towards me.
"Hey, you're the new girl, right? I'm the school's president."
She's in our grade and the school's president. That's incredible!
"Yes, I'm Camilla Lunez."
"Alexis Jones. I'll give you a tour."
"Oh, uh ok," I say shyly.
"No need to be shy with me."
"Ok"
"I'll give you a tour after class. You need to know everything about Rochester High. It's also my job to make you welcome." She smiles brightly despite her frightening dominating aura.
"Thanks."
She sits down next to me. She has short ginger hair, with a fringe, freckles and cat eye classes and she has a tick Irish accent, I believe?
Despite her being next to me, it's not her that interest me, it's the guy in the back. Gosh, Ethan is gorgeous. Should I talk to him after class? Would that be a bad thing? He doesn't know I'm trans. It should be fine, right?
Regardless, I decide to look around some more. That Makayla girl is sitting next to that Emery girl. Are they friends? Through, why isn't she sitting next to her boyfriend, Maverick?
Oh well, the class starts and eventually to my luck the teacher lets us do our math assessments in teams. Yes! It's my opportunity to go talk to that Ethan guy. Though, I'm a bit too shy to go talk to him.
"Do you think Ethan would mind if I ask him to work on the assignment together?" I ask Alexis. Her smile completely disappears.
"No, no! Camilla! You can't go talk to him."
"Why not?"
"He's the school's bad boy. No one wants to work with him." She's the president and she's telling me that?
"How bad is he?"
"Bad enough to warrant not getting too close to him. I had to put him into detention a lot but I gave up."
"He doesn't seem that bad..."
"Camilla! Don't tell me you have a crush on him?!" She says in a scary furious way and I feel frightened. The others in class turn around and look at us confused, even the teacher.
"Ms Jones. Why would our president yell in my class?" Mr Anderson says.
"I was just disciplining her."
"If you say so."!
Everyone goes back to what they were doing.
"I'm sorry, I was a bit mean there. As your president I strongly suggest not falling in love with Ethan. He's handsome I get that but you can't forget his status. He'll target you because you're new." Now that sounds scary.
"Ok...if you say so."
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After that class, Alexis indeed gives me a school tour and afterwards I hangout with Charlie and Kilian. They were mostly talking about Charlie's crush so I talked about my possible crush on Ethan. I didn't expect to get badly lectured by Kilian nonetheless about how bad of an influence Ethan can be.
Why does everyone not want me to talk to him? I get that he's a bad boy but they're not giving him a chance. I found it sad.
Lunchtime passed and it's P.E. One of the things I suck at the most. Due to my dyspraxia, it makes P.E. difficult and not fun at all.
Through, thanks to Kilian's lecture to me about Ethan's bad influence, I managed to find out he's in my P.E. class but I have no idea if he'll be there. I hope he won't skip it.
Call me crazy but I really want to talk to him. I
think I'm getting a crush on him and I need to know myself if he really is a bad guy for me.
I get in the changing room for girls but I lock myself in a changing cabin. Girls can't see my fake bra.
I dress up and get out. I get into the gymnasium and sure enough, he's there but he's actually talking to a guy. Oh no...he's talking to that guy...No...it doesn't matter, everything will be fine.
The girl from earlier Dakota is in this class too.
Everyone gets there and the P.E. teacher Mr. Richardson blows his whistle.
"Ok, gang, today we'll all be playing badminton. So, pair up into teams."
The Dakota girl comes towards me but I can't help but look at Ethan in his gym clothes. Am I crazy to want to play with him?
"Hey, want to play together?"
"Actually...I was wondering and hoping to team up with Ethan...." I blush embarrassed and she looks at me surprised.
"Ethan White? You're interested in playing with him? Usually, no one wants to play with him but I won't mind making a team of four." She doesn't mind?
"You really don't mind?"
"No" I start fidgeting nervously as I look at Ethan. I hope he won't play with that other guy.
"Um...actually...it might seem dumb but can you...ask him to join us?" She winks at me. Huh?
"Sure, I totally don't mind helping a girl in need."
She goes across the gym and goes talk to Ethan. While she does ask him. A random Asian guy comes in my direction.
"Is your team full...?" He says awkwardly.
"Actually, only one person is missing. We are three we need four players."
"Can I join?"
"Yes, what's your name?" I say shyly.
"Parker"
"Camilla"
Dakota actually comes back with Ethan and he looks at Parker and me.
"So, we are a team of four I suppose?" He says.
"Yes"
"Ok, I'll play with..." Ethan looks at Parker.
"Parker," Parker says.
"Yeah, Parker."
"Actually no, let's make it even. You go with Camilla and I go with Parket." Dakota says.
"Sure" Omg! He agreed! This is so nerve wreaking.
I start doing the service but fail multiple times not to my surprise.
To my surprise, Ethan comes closer to me.
"That's not how you do it." He places his hands on mine to help position my racket. Gosh, he's so close...!
"Now try it." I try to do it but fail. I know it'll never work due to my condition.
He gets frustrated and does the service instead.
Omg! I definitely have a crush on him and it's only the first day!
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