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The doctor increased the dose of the medication and taught her some relaxation exercises to avoid panic attacks. They consisted of counting from ten to one repeatedly imagining that the heart rate was decreasing, but Arya had long since begun to realize given up on therapeutic treatments and had even come to think that the professionals wanted their patients to never be cured that way they could charge more money and the way they did it was by saying that things took time, so more session would be required.

The hour passed and Arya said goodbye to Dr. Greyson, promising that she would send her a text the day after the party to tell her how everything had gone. By the time she left the sun was setting in the west and illuminating the waters of the River Thames. That was her favorite time.

As if it were fate, she inadvertently ended up on the same sidewalk where that boy had saved her remembering his touch made her tremble so she shook her head abruptly to drive away that thought.

The first stars were high in the sky when she got  home and found  Michael cooking dinner.

—Hello, Ary, how was the consultation?
— Well, you know how to talk and that everything takes time blah blah, do I really have to keep going? There is no progress.

—The doctor said it could take at least a year. We will wait and see what happens.

—  NO! I'm tired of trying new medications, I think they've bought me all the ones on the market and techniques that don't work. My seizures have not subsided since I started going to therapy.

—I'll talk to your mother. Now go to tell Caleb that dinner is ready.

Arya angrily runs up the stairs to her brother's room and yells for him to hear through his headphones. He can't hear. Arya disconnects the headphones while her brother plays League of Kingdoms.

—Hey! I was giving  the Blue Spears an order.

—Your team can wait, dinner is ready.

Caleb storms out of the room, something he does every time he's angry, and Arya trails after him. The smell of pizza reaches her before  enters the kitchen. Michael is a born chef, more than once Arya had told him that he had  to start his own restaurant.

—How  are the Spanish classes Caleb? Michael asks.

—Not very good, I got a five on the last test.

Michael sighs.

—You are very smart, you could have gotten a 10 if you didn't play so much. You should learn from Arya

—Arya is boring, she only goes out with her friends once a month, I wonder what she will do when she enters university and has to live with boys, she doesn't even know about sex. They'll think she's a nun or something.
—Enough Caleb!—yells michael—.Apologize to Arya.

—I'm sorry.

After finishing dinner Caleb is left washing the dishes as punishment and Michael asks Arya to come with him to the living room.

—Arya, I know your brother was hard on you, but he's right about something. You need to educate yourself on sexual issues, even if reminds you of that episode.

—I don't understand why you give it so much importance. It's enough to know that I can get pregnant and since I don't date guys it's not like you should get worried.

—Not only that, you can catch diseases. The truth is, there is a lot to say about it and it is uncomfortable for me to talk about this with a daughter, so your mother compiled this information for you and wants you to read it.

— It's a joke? You are my parents.

—Your mother works until dawn and like I said, I'm not able to talk about this. If you have doubts you can always use google.

Arya stands up in a rage.

—I'm not interested in any of this! Mark was clean, I got checked and I am not planning to date anyone so.

—Arya, calm down. There is something important I must tell you. We have arranged an appointment with the eldest son of the Thomsons so that you learn to be with boys.

— Before I jump into the River Thames. Stop trying to help me, I'm tired of wanting to overcome my fears.

Arya starts for the door, but stops when she hears Michael's voice.

—The appointment is tomorrow at two in front of the Big Ben.

The living room door closes behind Arya and she goes up the stairs to her room. She falls on her bed in tears.Arya receives a call from Claire, one of her old school friends. She is in a relationship with Arya's ex-boyfriend after she left her for not being able to have sex with him after being abused. Deep down in her heart she didn't hold a grudge against him for what he  did. After so many unsuccessful treatments it was understandable that a man would get bored with a girl without desire. Over time, Arya stopped believing in love and in herself.

Arya answers the call.

— Hello,  so long without hearing from you, how is everything going?

— Not very well, the treatments are not working.

— I am sorry to hear that. I ran into your mother the other day at the supermarket and she told me that you've been more depressed than usual so I thought I'd invite you to a new karaoke they've opened in town that will surely make you feel better.

— I'm sorry, but I have to concentrate on final exams.

— But Ary, they start in a week, sure you can take a day off to talk to your best friend right?

— Alright.

— Great, I'll see you in front of the Rock and Stone at 4. Kisses.

Arya ends the call and begins studying for her math test until she falls asleep on her desk.