“I don’t think pastel pink is your color, why not try this? The color of red suits you and the design will emphasize your long legs. Look at the split, it’s perfect for you.” I said, she gives me a suspicious look before accepting the red cocktail dress. When she comes out to the fitting room, I was flabbergasted, she really looks so much better.
“So, what do you think now?” She ask flaunting her right leg through the split.
“It’s so much better than pink pastel ball gown you’ve tried. It really suits you, no hidden beauty anymore, I see.” I complimented her, she shyly smile and look at her reflection.
“Wow, Cheska is that you? I almost didn’t recognize you, Ijo is it you who choose the fit?” it was Cheska’s mother. I smile before nodding. “You have an incredible sight for fashion, can you choose for my dress as well?.
“Of course, Ma’am.” I start looking for colors and design that would match her. Even the sales lady look at me so confused.
“Ain’t it look like someone’s gay?” I heard everyone laugh as if it was the most funniest joke they heard.
I cleared my throat and look at the sales lady as well before smiling. Everyone gaze were at me and I got uncomfortable thinking they might presume I am gay. When I have all the dresses think suits Cheska’s mother, I look at her excitedly.
“Madam, what do you think?” I ask her and she look at me then nodded.
“A lot of green, the one who bleached my hair told me that green is my strong color. You know that much.” she said and smiled at me before telling me to follow her. “I like to buy all of this.” I am shook that I couldn’t react nor absurd what she just said.
“Mom! Wouldn’t you try if that really suits you?” I heard Cheska protest, I agree but some part of me felt hurt that she have doubts to my picks.
“Why? Look at how he did to your dress, it looks so natural to you, I’ll have faith to his chosen dresses for me, right, mi ijo?” I’m so glad that she trust my sense of fashion, I only nod because I might give her long speech as thanks of appreciation. “I saw how he turns you into more fashionable so I trust his sense of fashion more than you, ija.” She said then laugh.
“Don’t tell me what to wear, I know what suits me. And man up, you shouldn’t be picking what suits for a girl, man shouldn’t know about fashion of ladies. That’s why your aunts and uncles mistook you as gay.” I wonder what my mom saying, I couldn't understand why they think of me as someone who I am not. “And also don’t let your cousin see your sketches, if they do tell them it was your classmate who drew those. You shall not sketch women’s clothing, that’s odd for a guy.
“I don’t think we’re going to work this way. You’re too soft, feminine, even my friends were questioning if you really are a man. I hope you understand, it’s not that I don’t believe when you told me that you love me, it’s the way you act. It’s giving me doubts that maybe you’re using me to hide. So this is really ain’t you but I, I think this won’t work. Let’s break up, Samuel.” After she said it, she ran towards their house.
I walkout of the village thinking, was it really me acting not so normal like other guys? Almost all of my former partner said the same, I couldn’t figure out how my style, my fashion, me being feminine are questionable. That night I’ve gone to my friends house to drink, drink until passed out.
“Sam, Sam! Wake up, oh my gosh!” I heard vice coming from afar, I open my eyes let my thoughts gather before fully waking up. “Finally! Samuel Gusta, you’re hired! I was looking through your phone looking for some worthy of gossip, then a mail pop up. I know I shouldn’t look but I got curious, I said I should wait then my patience were wearing thin. Since I saw the Denila’s Clothing Line, I couldn’t help it.” no, I don’t understand what was she saying.
I look at it myself and won’t believe to what I saw, I am really accepted. With the broken heart, I just encounter last night because of my passion, now this. I feel like I chose he right path, I know that I’m a no o to date boys, yet too feminine for girls. Looking back, even my mother tried her best to hide my passion for styling and designing.
“How many times do I have to say this? A guy shouldn’t be designing and creating clothes specifically for woman, you have to understand that it wasn’t normal for the human’s eyes. Everyone would look at you with doubting and disgust eye, I don’t want you to feel that you don’t belong to anywhere because of that hobbies of yours.”
SHOW BOARD: EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH, SAMUEL GUSTA.
Denila’s Clothing Line once again declared new employee of the month. For this month a new employee set a record for the fastest employee to have an award. Samuel Gusta, only establishing his name in the company, working here for only 4 months yet flourishing with a lot of compliments to his designs. Given with a brain for new ideas to having brawn doing his examples, a gift from fashion god, prodigy with his field.
“Back then, I can’t imagine that I’ll be doing things I really want. As a guy, well, everyone doubted if I am really guy. To clear all the rumors, I’m a man and I want a family of my own, I’m not into guy as well. This kind of stereotyping, such as being feminine guy is gay, don’t be confuse, because we exist. My passion for designing clothes for girls, styling and by just having a mere sense of fashion caused a lot of criticism towards my gender identity. So giving a shot when I saw DCL was hiring, is super worth it. I can be who am I, and accepted by my co-workers without doubt or questioning. This place feels home, so I tried my best to create more clothes design not only for women but for men as well, a lot of varieties and categories.”
With DCL opening a section for new ideas welcoming the LGBTQIA+, not only Samuel, but a lot of designers create different piece for these new target costumers. We create a workplace that would bring the uniqueness and potentials of our worker, thus, we create safe place for you to focus on your passion and goals.
What lies beneath the surface are passion, passion that we’re afraid to flaunt and grow because society couldn’t accept the oddness. Do not be afraid to break the traditions, not because you’re a guy doesn’t mean you can’t be feminine and vice versa. Do what you think can bring you peace of mind, or you’ll regret not trying.
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