6-Bad blood
Alex's pov
Things between Haneul and I weren't great for the first few weeks we shared our dorm but on labour weekend everything changed for the worse.
That weekend, I decided to invite my girlfriend, Madison for the first time in my dorm because I wanted her to see it. Haneul was working so it would be fine.
Things escalated between Mad and me as always but to our surprise we got caught naked by Haneul. She came home earlier than I thought.
I thought she would just ignore me like she always does but she didn't. Instead, she yelled at us.
She just started arguing with Madison and that's when all my respect for her disappeared.
Madison accused her of being homophobic and Haneul never denied it, instead, she got mad and yelled at my girlfriend to leave. I realized then that my roommate was one of those homophobes. I had entirely forgotten that she could be homophobic or that she was avoiding me because she suspected me of being gay.
Once Madison slammed the door and left, Haneul stared in a deadly cold glare at me and despite being my roommate she hasn't said a word to me since then.
It's one thing how she acted that night but knowing she's probably homophobic hurts even more. I came here to be free from my conservative town and family and also get to be out like I want to. Don't tell me I have to go back into the closet or limit myself to stuff because my roommate can't stand seeing two girls in love with each other.
I hate homophobic people a lot and close-minded people too, it's because of them I had to be closeted and couldn't live my life how I wanted for so long.
I've had so many homophobic friends in the past to know I never want to have one like that again.
I thought I could get along with Haneul before but after what she did and that I know she's homophobic, I no longer wish to get along with her. What she did was the last straw.
I can tolerate living with a homophobic roommate and besides I'm forced to but I don't want to become friends with one. I've had enough of those types of people.
So yeah, it's fair to say I have given up on talking to Haneul or even being nice to her. I don't have it in me to be nice after what she did.
Living under the same roof is tense and awkward. It already was that before but it's so much worse now.
Whenever we have to eat, we make sure to not be anywhere near each other, she makes sure to always leave whenever I'm there and the same for me. It's only when we sleep that we're in our shared dorm, then again we are in our own room.
Regardless, she does her own thing and I do the same. She buys her own food and I buy mine myself. We do nothing together.
I hate living in that tense atmosphere but if she doesn't have the guts to apologize, I won't either. I have done so much in my life and I'm fed up with it. Besides, I can't forgive her for what she did.
And I'm not the only one, Madison hates her too. She is still pissed at Haneul for having yelled at her and being homophobic.
Since then, Mad has been begging me to go sleep at hers to avoid Haneul, calling her a psycho but I refused on weekdays most of the time because it's better to be on campus. It's within walking distance!
Even if Haneul's behaviour annoys me to no end, I can't even vent to Mad because she's not having any of it every time I try to talk about Haneul. So, let's say the roommate topic is a big no.
Regardless, it's been a few weeks since University classes began and calling it easy would be a mistake. It's been so hard so far. I thought senior year would be chill but I couldn't be more wrong. I have so much coursework to do and the deadlines are so short now. There's even stuff I can't wrap my head around it.
Accounting is no joke and most classes are complicated and also boring. I'm struggling already and it's just the beginning of the semester. That's not a good thing. So yeah, this is why I wish I could've chosen my field of study.
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I just finished my management accounting class that was a three-hour long class I swear but luckily I get to have my lunch break. My next class is later in the afternoon.
Thankfully, my two best friends don't have classes right now so we plan to go eat at a restaurant not too far from here.
I walk around the accounting department hallways and eventually leave the department to get outside.
There I spot not too far outside my two friends, Chase and Carla.
"Hey!" I say
"Hey!" Carla says smiling brightly.
"Gosh, I'm so glad class is over, it was so boring. I swear!" Chase whines.
"Same"
"Yeah, same."
"I just couldn't wait to just leave and go eat."
"Yeah, me too but now I have a three-hour long homework for the class to do in less than two days," I complain.
"Ugh, you just made me realize I have one too!" Carla whines.
"Gosh, being seniors is harder than I thought," Chase says.
"Yeah, I knew it would be hard but I'm starting to think the teachers are doing it on purpose or something. We can't have any fun, all we have to do is study now." Carla says.
"Seriously, it's only been a few weeks in and they give us so much coursework," I complain.
"They don't have any mercy on us!" Chase whines again.
"Agreed!" Another student who heard us not too far from us said.
Chase looks at the girl in question and instantly they start chatting, mostly about how there's too much coursework.
There he goes talking to a girl most definitely attracted to him. She's such a pick me and he's a lady's man. I'm no longer surprised anymore.
"Well, it seems like we lost Chase, you think we'll get him back in time for lunch?" Carla asks sarcastically.
"Ah, I'm not too sure, he seems to be stuck in the tiger's grasp," I answer back sarcastically.
We both end up laughing. Gosh, we always make those types of jokes.
Then, suddenly I stop laughing as soon as I see Haneul leaving the campus alongside I believe her friend Jonathan.
"Woah, why'd you stop laughing? Wait, what's with the cold stare all of a sudden?" She looks around everywhere to try to pinpoint what I'm looking at and she sees Haneul.
"Wait, isn't that your roommate?"
"Yeah"
"She's with a guy, she didn't seem to be the type of girl to pull off guys." She chuckles.
"Carla! It's her friend dumbass!" I yell all of a sudden, it's so surprising, it even surprises me.
"Woah, what's with you girl? Why'd you so aggressive all of a sudden? You never know you know?"
"It's nothing, you already met the guy at the welcome party, remember?" This attitude is so unlike me...
"Oh yeah! Johnny! He's Chase's roommate! That guy is a killer." If I didn't know Carla well, I would've thought she really meant it that way.
"Yeah, he is."
"Anyways, what's the deal with you? Did something happen with your roommate?"
"Actually yes."
"Woah, for real? Is it good tea or bad tea?" She smiles all ecstatic.
Oh, I know how much she likes gossip but she's actually starting to piss me off and that's rare coming from me.
"Carla, this isn't a laughing matter," I say annoyed and she loses her non-serious smile.
"So, something happened? If it's rattling you like that, it must be bad. Nothing ruins your mood, only your parents do."
Speaking of them, I bet they'll call me any day from now on to check up on me. It's annoying when they do.
"Well, yeah, Haneul and I aren't on good terms."
"What'd she do again?" Carla says deadpan seriously.
"Normally, she just ignores me like she always does but last week...she walked in on Madison and I hooking up and she just..."
"Tell me what she did, now!" Carla demands furious.
I told Carla everything that happened that night.
"Oh, that f**king homophobic b*tch!" Carla yells and everyone around looks at her confused, including Chase.
Speaking of him, he stopped his conversation and joined us again.
"Woah, Carla what got you so pissed like that?" Chase says shocked and utterly confused.
"You should hear what Alex's roommate did."
"What'd she do?" Chase says perplexed and slightly concerned. Chase takes those kinds of things more lightly.
"How about we just go eat now and I'll tell you all about it there?" I ended up being annoyed at the topic of the discussion.
"Yeah, let's just go now," Chase says smiling lightly.
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We've been eating at our favourite restaurant for a while. Earlier, it was filled with University students. Some were resting and some were working on their project on their computer. That's something I need to do but I don't want to right now.
Luckily, they never tried to talk about what Haneul did but if I thought I could get away with it, I would be dead wrong.
"So, what'd your roommate do? Is it bad 'cause I haven't heard anything from Johnny?" Chase asks.
Well, that's surprising or not. Those two seem both stuck-ups.
"Let's just say she's one of those homophobes."
"Oh no! Homophobe, you say? That's horrible! What makes you think that?" Chase says dramatically.
I explained to him everything that happened that night.
"Wow, that's a bold move coming from her but yeah, she didn't need to be so mean to you and your girlfriend," Chase says.
"I just want to know why you never told us!"
"Because it's not that big of a deal," I say slightly getting fed up talking about this.
"Not that big of a deal? Of course, it is! You're roommates! You have to cohabitate with her!" Carla yells agitated and once again others look at her as if she's crazy.
"Geez, chill out Carla. We'll be kicked out of the restaurant if you continue." Chase says concerned.
"Sure we will, has she apologized at least?"
"She didn't and besides Carla for the record you never apologize either so..." I finally cracked a smile.
"Hey! Don't you dare change the topic!" Carla says accusingly.
"So, does this mean you're no longer on talking terms?" Chase asks calmly as he brings back the topic of what happened on labour weekend.
"I don't think I can forgive her for that."
"Through, I must admit it's not like you to be so affected by such a thing." Carla pinpoints.
"Yeah, why's Haneul so mean to you anyway? I'd literally take you as my roommate, platonically of course. Chase says confidently and I force a smile.
"I'll pass thanks but I don't know why she hates me so much but now I think it's because she's against gay people."
"Rude much." Chase side comments with his usual dramatic self.
"Maybe but why are you so affected by this actually?" Carla says.
"You know how much I hate homophobes. They ruined my life. Haneul might be my roommate but she hasn't proven herself to not be one of them.
"I mean, when I first saw her she was so cold. She doesn't seem approachable so I get you." Chase says in sympathy.
"Thanks. So for now, we aren't on talking terms. I'll talk to her once she apologizes to me which I doubt she'll do now."
"Oh well, you do what you want," Carla says.
"Now, can we please change the topic?" Chase begs.
"Definitely"
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It's been a few days and nothing has changed between Haneul and me and I couldn't be more surprised.
Regardless, the call I've been dreading from my parents those past few days is happening now.
Alex's mom: Hi, sweetheart.
Alex: Hi
Alex's mom: I haven't heard from you for a while. I'm assuming you're immersed in your studies?
No Mom, I'm already failing some classes and I have a homophobic roommate. Though I can't tell her that.
Alex: Yeah, senior year is definitely challenging.
Alex's mom: I hope you're not struggling with your studies but who am I kidding, you're in Yale. You're one of the top students in the country, you'll graduate for sure.
I wouldn't be too sure about that, Mom.
Alex: No, everything's fine.
Alex's mom: Anything else? I'm sure you're busy with your studies but what about your roommate? Oh! You haven't told me about her yet! How is she?
Oh, she's just like you. Close-minded and homophobic.
Alex: Well, she's fine. She's getting used to University life. She wants to become a neurosurgeon.
Why am I talking about Haneul to my mom?
Alex's mom: That's great! You should definitely become friends with such a girl like her! I'll benefit you!
Oh, that won't happen shortly, she hates me and I do too.
Alex: Yeah, she's something else.
Then suddenly I heard my mom give the phone to my dad.
Alex's dad: Alexandra, we haven't heard from you in a while. I hope that's a good thing.
I'm not too sure Dad...
Alex: Oh, trust me it is.
Alex's dad: You're only focusing on your studies right? No boyfriends until you graduate.
Oh, Dad, you're far from the truth but if only you knew I have a girlfriend...
Alex: Don't worry, I'm not letting any guy distract me from my studies.
Alex's dad: Farewell, we won't distract you in your studies any longer but you better call us to give us updates more often.
Alex: I will, bye.
There...Gosh, I hate talking to my parents...I always have to lie to them. My life is such a lie...I wish I didn't have to please them all the time...
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I just found out something that is somehow surprising. According to Chase, tomorrow, September 18th, it's Haneul's 18th birthday. I don't know how he found out but still...
I don't know what to make of it. I have to be a good roommate but we haven't been on talking terms lately...Tomorrow, it's Friday and I don't know if I should still do something for her despite the circumstances.
Regardless, I just got off from an afternoon shift after my morning classes and as per usual, my girlfriend came to pick me up.
"Hey," She smirks once she sees me.
"I haven't seen you lately." Oh yeah, I was busier than usual with my overwhelming coursework but she's exaggerating.
"Don't exaggerate, you saw me two days ago."
"Still, they're crazy for giving you so much coursework, can't they let you live your life at least a little bit?" Yeah...she's not a fan of that...
"Yeah, they're insane but did you forget I'm a Yale student? That's not just any University."
"And I still can't believe you're from that crazy place."
She continues to rant about how much Yale is cruel to their students.
But I stopped listening to her after a few moments. Through, should I tell her about Haneul's birthday?
"Hey, I heard that it's my roommate's birthday tomorrow, do you think I should still do something for her?"
"Your roommate? Oh hell nah! You didn't see what she did last time?! She's a psycho! Why would you want to celebrate her?!"
"I'm still her roommate."
"And she doesn't give two f**ks about you and did you forget she's a homophobic sh*t?"
"I know but it's her 18th birthday."
"What do you care so much about her, huh?! She treated you like sh*t! People like that don't deserve to be treated with respect!" She yells furious.
"Hey! What's wrong with you?! Haneul never hurt you in any way!" I yell back.
"What? Wow, so you prefer to take your roommate's side over mine?" Madison says harshly.
"I'm not taking her side! It's you that sounds jealous! She's just homophobic and that's all!" I yell furiously.
"Jealous? Wow, why would I be jealous of that girl? Look, do what you want because I'm out of here." She chuckles evilly and then glares at me coldly.
"No! Mad! I'm sorry!"
She points her middle finger at me and leaves.
F**k...I didn't want to argue with Madison...I hope Madison and I can make up...
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