Ch.1.1
Theo's pov
Ugh, Mondays are the worst. I have to get up for school. As much as I love being with my friends and that I take my studies seriously, weekends are still so much better.
Regardless, today's just another Monday. To get to school l, I have to walk with my sister Tamara, though she's not in high school yet.
That's what I just did thing morning but goodness it was freezing cold, I mean, it's almost Thanksgiving weekend and I'm sure snow is right around the corner but my mom can't drive me to school because she's working
Anyways, I get inside the school and as soon as I do, I notice my friends walking right towards me.
"Theo you're coming to my party, right?'' One of my friends Pamela says.
Pamela is a Latino girl with curvy hips. She has long curly dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. She's about 5.4 ft too. She really is beautiful and she's even fierce.
"Of course, I am why wouldn't I?'' I say confused.
"Oh you never know, there are some people that won't even come for the strangest reasons.'' I chuckle at her attempt at a joke.
"You're right.''
"Theo those girls are staring at you.'' Oh, Brooke, she always notices stuff like that, so she always tells me whenever others stare at me or something.
Brooke is a shy girl and she's sweet. Through she naturally has brown hair but she dyes her hair light blond. She has those heart-warming hazel eyes. She's smaller though standing at 5.2 ft and not as wide either.
Honestly, I couldn't care less but knowing how much of a kind-hearted person I am, I wave back at them. Honestly, Pamela would've talked to them for sure but I don't feel comfortable talking to them. Waving is still a nice gesture.
"Aww Theo! Why did you only wave at them? You could tell from here those girls like you!" Of course, Pamela exclaims loudly.
"Really? They were only being nice."
"Sure, sure keep telling yourself what you want."
I go to my friends and then we head to our respective lockers. I open my locker and take my math stuff. Class starts in five minutes so I kinda have to prepare if I don't want to be late like some certain kind of people.
I mean Nathan is basically never there so why bother talking about him? It's not like I care.
"Theo, what did you do during the weekend?'' Pamela says.
''Oh, I went to the movies with the guy next door." That's actually not true...
"Cool, but why didn't you invite us?'' Pamela says confused and interrogatively.
"Sorry, it was a last-minute decision and you know he lives basically across my street. If you don't remember." I hate lying but sometimes I have to or else Pamela will always probe for more and never leave the matter alone.
"Oh yeah, that guy...Yeah, it's not like I could've gone, I hung out with my boyfriend all weekend long!" She's uneasy at first and then she's ecstatic.
It's kinda annoying when Pamela talks about her boyfriend. Like I don't want to know everything about your relationship. The bell rings and we go to math class.
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Math was fine but I think I want to go to the rooftop. Normally, I rarely go there but I kinda want to go and relax. It's not that I hate my friends or anything but sometimes I need a break from Pamela. There's Brooke too but she doesn't like going on the rooftop.
I open the doors just to see Nathan smoking. Great...he's here too. Normally, he isn't at school but why is he here...? Ugh, I wanted to be alone not have to deal with him...I don't want to see him right now. Guess, I have to find a way to get him to leave even if I know he'll never listen to me.
"Why are you here? You know this is my secret place.'' I say annoyed.
"What? I can be here too besides I want to smoke and the teachers won't let me.'' He says nonchalantly but his usual smirk is still present.
"Maybe because you're not allowed?'' I try.
"Meh...don't want to deal with them today.'' He says nonchalantly and ugh, his smirk annoys me.
''Are you sure about that? I thought you loved provoking teachers or you supply don't care."
''Ok, so are you only gonna be here to ruin my moment?"
"Yeah, why not? You clearly understand this isn't your place! Anyways, why are you here?'' For a split second, he's surprised at my sudden aggressive attitude towards him but it leaves as soon as it appears.
"Cause I want to, do I need a reason to go to school? Come on, we both know that I do what I want.''
"Yeah, I know but still can you please get out?'' Ugh...why'd I say please to him...?
He stops smoking and scraps his cigarette on the ground with his shoes. I'm surprised he listened to me that fast but of course that doesn't mean this is over, it's Nathan we're talking about.
"I swear if you wouldn't be that weak, instead of saying please, you'd fight me for your place but no, you're too weak for that, you can't even fight a girl. What a pity." He laughs at his own comment.
He really thinks it's funny but I'm used to it by now. He used to be worse but he skips school so much that at this point he can't bully me all that much anymore.
The bell rings and I'm relieved because I don't want to deal with him any longer. It's a shame that he might be there at the party because I wanted to enjoy the party without him. Kissing is fun right? Better than dealing with him, I'm pretty sure about that.
"You're lucky the bell rang 'cause this isn't over." He says harshly.
''Yeah, I know..."
Ugh, was there ever a time when he was nice? Yeah, like never. Okay maybe when he was younger but that person who he was nice to, was definitely not me. He has always been a jerk towards me.
Indeed, he skips often probably because he doesn't care about school or about anything too. As much as I hate it, it isn't uncommon to find him all alone. He doesn't have any friends, girls that want to god knows what and that's it. Makes sense because who wants to be friends with a guy like him? Not me for sure.
Oh well...as much as he always gets on my nerve, he doesn't rule my life. No, I have a life of my own. Anyways, I think I'm looking forward to Pamela's party. I mean it's about time I get loose but not too loose. I don't want to deal with what Brooke went through.
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A few days went by but as usual, nothing has changed much. I glare at Nathan whenever I see him but he only dares to smirk at me which throws me off everything single time. It's far from new. Oh well, I guess this time it was too obvious because Pamela just noticed that.
"Ok seriously explain to me what it is with you and that Nathan guy. You two keep glaring at each other. I can tell you that you have bad blood but why is that, you basically get along with everyone in the school."
"Well, I guess he's an exception. We are basically enemies since we've been 8."
"Don't you think that's a bit dumb? Keeping on a pity fight? What did you two do to put yourself in that situation? Did he steal something from you? He said something mean to you when you were younger. You gotta grow up Theo." Pamela says quite harshly.
"But...you can't understand Pamela...You weren't there when he did some stuff..."
"Weren't there for what? The way he acts towards you?! Come on, it's normal that you have an enemy! You can't have everyone liking you damnit! Stop doing this childish thing I'm tired of it." She lashes out.
"You don't understand..."
"I saw it all Pamela and I can tell you, that Theo is right. He didn't only hurt Theo but he hurt me too." Brooke suddenly dares to open up.
"By doing what?!"
Brooke ends up telling her what happened to her in the past and I tell Pamela the story Nathan and I share. As much as I'm friends with Pamela there are things I don't tell her. In other ways, Brooke is my best friend and I trust her with everything. We went through it all together.
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It's already time to get to the party, this week went by fast. Except for the tormenting from Nathan, I had a mostly good week but now I have to go to Pamela's house.
Brooke is driving us there. She has a car already sense I think her parents spoil her a tiny bit too much. But there's no doubt that when I get out outside on my front porch, I can see Brooke.
She is stunning. If I wasn't gay I would probably be dating her. She is gorgeous and my best friend. Well too bad, I'm gay.
It's not that I hate being gay but it's tough being in the closet, not being able to live my life freely. It sucks but I manage. Only Nathan knows...
I wonder if he is here. He might have been invited but that doesn't mean he would come. Enough of him, now it's time to go party.
We arrive 5 minutes later. We can hear the music outside and a lot of cars are parked. Well, she surely succeeded in making sure people would come. I hope I'll have fun tonight.
We knock on the door and we are met with Pamela's face. Well...she seems to be having fun. I think she already drank.
"Oh hey! We're gonna play spin the bottle like I said the other day." She laughs in a drunken laugh.
"We will have some action today. Come in. Oh if you want to know where is everyone you can go in my living room."
I'm kinda getting nervous as we walk toward the living room. Wow, there are a lot of people like I thought. I check if I know anyone so at least I know who I might kiss tonight but wait...Nathan??!!!
What is he doing here? I thought he didn't want to come. I chuckle awkwardly in my mind at least. It's not like I'll have to kiss him right? We are 50 people in here so I'm sure I won't have to kiss him and besides I don't think they will let two guys kiss because I don't know.. they might be homophobic for all I care.
Of course, mister bad boy is gonna enjoy this. The guy takes every chance he's got to hook up with girls so tonight isn't so different for him but for me it is.
I wonder how it feels to kiss someone. I hope it's gonna be a good girl. I mean I don't really want to but I have to follow the rules of this game. It is still my first kiss after all, I don't want it to be some random girl.
We sit down and the game starts. There is plenty of people that kiss here and there but now it's Nathan's turn. I don't know why but I have a nagging feeling it's gonna stop on me. Please don't be me...
He spins the bottle and of course, it lands on me. Omg, I have to kiss him...my first kiss to my enemy yeah I don't think so.
"Come one Theo a game is a game you have to kiss him.'' Seems like they noticed I'm hesitant but are they really letting this happen? Two guys kissing each other?
Ugh, it's not like it would count as my real first kiss. Oh screw it, I have to do it. I hope it won't be too long. Nathan approaches me and plants himself in front of me. I can see his stupid smirk. Why is he smirking? Does he think this is funny?
My process of thinking was interrupted by his lips touching mine. Omg..it feels good? The feelings of his lips on mine...I'm not used to that...Ugh, what am I saying? He kisses my lips slowly and hesitantly but then he then he grows more bold and tries to gain access to the insides of my mouth.
I give in without knowing what to do. He tries to explore the inside of my mouth a bit more and I give in. Is it me or is he enjoying this?
Suddenly I stop being dazed by the feeling of the kiss and interrupted the moment we were having. Everyone is cheering in the back but the only thing I see is Nathan's icy blue eyes staring straight towards me. Omg, what have I done!?!?
Nathan's pov
I just kissed my enemy. Wow, I really did kiss him...but I think I may have kissed him for a longer time than deemed normal for a straight guy. Not only that I did more than just a simple kiss. We were close to making out. If he hadn't pushed me away I would've fully made out with him. Even if others were there.
He knows something is not right, I can see it in his eyes. It's clear he is quite confused about it but he is still staring at me.
Come on stop looking at me like that! Don't look at me as if you enjoyed the kiss! Damnit, I just want to catch those tempting lips again.
I know I can't do that. I'm glad he pushed me away because I don't know what would've happened afterwards. Even if I wish that kiss lasted longer. Damn, that surely broke the rule...Enemies can't kiss...I know that...
Sh*t, what will I do? I spent years pretending that I'm not attracted to him but now...it's gonna be impossible. How will I face him after that? I already know that I'm gonna be stuck dreaming about him, thinking about that kiss. It's wrong, I know but I won't be able to stop myself.
He hates me and he has every right to but argh, I want to kiss him again but I can't. I have to get a grip on myself we are in front of everybody at a party playing Spin the Bottle.
I swear even though it was kinda quick it was one of the best kisses I had in my entire life, no jokes. Maybe it's because I have a questionable thing for him but I can't deny it, I loved every part of the kiss.
I can see that he's looking straight back at me and well he regretted it...Of course, he did...I knew those eyes were lying to me a second ago. He couldn't have possibly liked the kiss. I almost forget to go back where I was until he told me.
"Um...you have to go back to your place the game isn't over.''
That's when I realized I was spacing out. I couldn't help it...I'm pretty sure I never saw his eyes that close before.
Sadly a part of me would have loved to see that my feelings were reciprocated but I have to get rid of that thought. It's never gonna happen. What should I do now? Damn, I need to get out of here! I need a cig!
I'm about to head out outside to do just that but I'm stopped by no other than Pamela. I believe Theo's friend.
"Heading out that early? Don't you want to continue playing spin the bottle and get the chance to kiss many other people?"
"Nah, I'm gonna take a breath outside."
"Take a breath outside? Come on, you smoke, don't you? Everyone knows." Of course, she knows who I am.
"Yeah I do so now will you shut up and let me go smoke my cigarette?"
"Sure go on. I won't let you. Did it bother you that much that you kissed a guy and not only a guy but Theo?" Yes, it bothers me because I know I'll dream about this in a naughty way.
"Nah, it's not that. It's just a game after all."
"Sure if you say so. Coming back or are you just smoking a cigarette?"
"Nah, I think I'll leave. I had enough."
"Ok do what you want. Night." I roll my eyes.
"Yeah, night."
I put on a coat and head out outside as it is pretty freezing. Then I lit up a smoke.
Anyways I'm in deep sh*t that's for sure. Now I can't face Theo like I always did because I'm afraid that he'll see past my bluff. I don't think he will notice it. He is after all completely oblivious to the fact I have some sort of attraction or is it more, towards him.
I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm not gay because how could I suddenly be?
How oblivious is he? Would he even notice if I started acting differently?
Argh damnit, I surely have a long night ahead of me. A night I fear will make me feel sensations and things I don't want to think about. F**k, this kiss surely made everything worse right? If only you knew what you make me feel Theo Kerlerg.
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