Ch.1.2
Theo's pov
It's been a week since the kiss incident at Pamela's party and well things have been pretty awkward between us. Well, let's just say Nathan has been ignoring me. I found it strange but I can understand.
Which straight dude is okay with kissing another guy? Well, not him obviously. I thought he would annoy me for it. I'm pretty sure he heard some sort of rumour by now that was my first kiss. Well, it was but still the whole world shouldn't know about that.
I have to admit that I keep thinking back to that night, back to that kiss. I hate to think about it but I guess I liked the kiss. Is it possible to like kissing your enemy? No, no, no I'm overreacting I'm sure of it. It was my first kiss after all.
How can I know if that was a good kiss or not? All I know is that he seems to be a good kisser, I'll admit but I definitely don't have enough experience to confirm that. How can I even like kissing him of all people anyway? The one that I hate. It must be impossible.
I have to get rid of those thoughts. I don't want to think about this. I don't want to start questioning myself. Anyways I'll forget about it soon.
I hate Nathan Hames that's it. Yeah, that's it. He has been nothing but bad news. Why should I think about Nathan in a good way when he has proven to me over the years how bad he actually is?
Yeah, it surely wouldn't make sense.
Brrrrr...it's cold. I'm currently outside. It's already the beginning of December and it's beginning to snow. I admit I like that it's snowing but oh geez it's cold. F**k winter. I hope I won't die of hypothermia before even reaching home.
I've been waiting for the bus for the past last five minutes since it's snowing too much and I don't want to walk home. Argh, where is the bus? Oh! I think I can see the bus far away. It was about damn time.
I can't wait to go back to my home sweet home where I won't need to curse because of the fact it's cold. I don't know why but I kinda wish someone would have to take the bus too then maybe I would have company. It would be nice because the bus is very lonely.
I'm pretty sure someone would have given me their jacket or wait am I an idiot? They would freeze to death because of me and I'm pretty sure I'm not ready to see someone die this soon in my life.
I enter the bus and chose a place to sit. I might as well take a little nap. I don't think it'll hurt.
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Huh, what is going on?
"Um, you have to wake up, I think you missed your bus stop..." What? Omg, I did not just do that, right?
"I'm sorry but I don't think I know you. What's your name?''
"Oh uh, I'm Bennett but you can call me Ben.'' He smiles as he says it. Huh, Ben huh? Well, he seems nice but I still need to get out of here.
"Nice name, I'm Theo. If you don't mind me asking, how long have I been sleeping?'' He nervously chuckles.
"Oh, sorry well you've been sleeping for over 30 minutes. I didn't want to wake you up so yeah.''
I notice that he seems to be nervous but wait...30 minutes? Omg! I was supposed to get out almost 20 minutes ago! Oh well, I guess I gotta wait till it goes to my stop again. At least, I have some company.
"Oh, where is your stop?''
"It's next to the famous store Xmart.'' He smiles.
"Oh cool, where are you going if you don't mind me asking?''
"Oh uh, I'm going to my friend's house because I have to babysit my friend's siblings.''
"Oh cool..." Cool.
He seemed like a nice guy at first glance and it's even cooler that he babysits children instead of his friend.
Hmm, now that I take a good look at him, he has golden hair with hmm, blue, green eyes? It's not really clear but what's for sure is the most important thing that stands out about him is his smile.
His smile is kinda cute even if he's visibly shy like me but it still has a bit of sweetness to it.
Not gonna lie he is attractive with his shyness but he's not my type, blond is a turn off I think, eh, it's not like I'm looking into dating someone either. I think he is a bit taller than me which is unfair but hey, who am I to talk? Everyone is taller than me anyways.
He seems like someone that I can trust. Maybe then just maybe he might become my friend.
We wait and chat together for a bit. Since we get along great we decide to give each other phone numbers. He told me that he wanted to keep in contact with me because I seem like a nice guy. Also because he feels we get along just great.
I share the same thought. I'd like to hang out with him as well. Having a guy friend wouldn't hurt. He seems my age too so that's a plus. Eventually, he has to get off and I wave him goodbye.
Aww...I preferred having company. It's all lonely being alone on this fine cold December day.
I have to wait for a bit more before I finally get home. Hopefully, my mom won't ask me questions about where I was.
I hope I'll get to see him again he seemed quite nice. Maybe if we do we might because friends but I might be getting too much ahead of myself.
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Argh I still can't believe I missed my bus stop yesterday. Well, at least I had some company.
Since we gave each other's numbers, we can actually text each other. Sure I know I can text him but I don't want to bother him. I'm pretty sure he is busy.
I thought about it last night and actually, I'm pretty sure he seemed to be at least 17 like me. He said he babysits and he has a job so surely he's 17 right? He seems like a high schooler. Well, that depends if he is in his senior year or junior year somehow.
I forgot to ask him which school he goes to so I'm afraid I lost the chance to be friends with him. I won't get to see him again...
Anyways, there is another problem bothering me right now. I don't know why but I keep thinking back to the night I kissed Nathan... My first kiss. Argh, why did it have to be him? My enemy too?
I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have minded kissing a girl even though I'm gay but kissing him...It was surreal for the most part. I didn't know I liked kissing him. Yeah...I enjoyed it...I can't believe that I liked kissing Nathan Hames of all people.
At least it didn't go as far as a kiss but now that I'm thinking about it, he did try to do more than just a peck. He tried exploring more than just my lips but why?
Was that some kind of joke? Isn't he straight? Do straight people like to experiment like that? I mean considering it's Nathan, it's possible but I doubt so. He wouldn't want to do that in his own free will.
I'm pretty surprised that he even accepted kissing me. He hates me, I thought he was grossed out by me. He knows I'm gay but he doesn't know it was my first kiss.
I didn't think he would accept that considering we hate each other too. Who kisses their enemy? I know it was spin the bottle but I'll admit it means a lot more to me than it should.
Unfortunately, I'll always remember that kiss no matter what because it's my first kiss and I know for a fact people don't forget such a big thing. At least I won't...
Anyways, I don't plan on telling him because it'll give him more chances to taunt me. I learned my lesson.
Speaking of bullying, where is he? I know he skips school often but not an entire week. It's Tuesday and I haven't seen him at all last week. I know it should be a relief but still, I can't help and say I'm used to his constant taunting and his annoying presence.
Where is he? Did the kiss make him want to ignore me? Even to the point of going M.I.A.?I'm pretty sure he is ignoring me or else he would have already bothered me with what happened last week. I knew it wasn't a good idea.
Never in 9 years, has he ignored me. If any he would dare to use this opportunity to taunt me even more. It's kinda strange but I shouldn't interrogate him since I don't want to face him.
It's already bad enough I keep thinking about him kissing me, I don't want to imagine what happens if I see him. I'm not ready to see that annoying smirking face.
Ugh, again? Why doesn't this image go away from my head? Can I please forget about this and move on? Honestly, I'm starting to think there is a reason why I keep thinking about him. Never has this happened before. Like seriously, the moment I kiss a boy for the first time, I can't stop thinking about it. It sounds like I was desperate to finally have my first kiss and on a guy too.
I wonder if he is thinking about it too. No, no, he's not, he's straight, straight! Ugh, I'm starting to think that I might go insane at this point.
"Earth to Theo!" I instantly get out of my tormented thoughts and look at Pamela and Brooke.
"Oh sorry, I spaced out for a bit."
"Yeah, I can tell. As I was saying my boyfriend bought me concert tickets to go see my favorite this Friday!" She says annoyed at me then goes all excited.
Seriously she interrupted my thoughts just for that. I'm glad to see I'm not the only one that thinks that. Brooke thinks the same too.
"That's cool Pamela. Your boyfriend must be awesome." Damn, why do I always have to lie whenever I'm around Pamela?
"You think so too?! That's what I thought so too! He really is the best!"
"Nice" Brooke and I both smile faintly.
"That makes me think about you guys! When are you two gonna have a boyfriend and girlfriend?" Brooke and I immediately freeze at the question.
"Um..."
"What's with that reaction?! I can't be the only one that has a boyfriend! Theo, there are lots of girls that like you! Make a move!" Well, that's the issue. I don't like them back like that.
"What about you Brooke?" Pamela says curtly.
"I don't wish to have a boyfriend right now...It must be nice to have a boyfriend like you but...I'm not ready for that yet." Brooke says uneasily.
"Oh, is that about the story of the other day?" That cuts off guard Brooke. She wasn't expecting that.
"Well, kinda."
"Oh get over that. You can't block yourself from getting a boyfriend forever just because of that." Immediately, Brooke's feelings are hurt but mine too. We don't say anything.
It doesn't matter either way, I don't want to listen to Pamela anymore especially not when she talks about her boyfriend. Speaking of boyfriend, without wanting to a name pops up in my head. Why him though? He's far from boyfriend material.
As I search desperately for a distraction from my thoughts, I notice a familiar figure...Wait is this...Ben? Omg, it is actually him! He's really in my school right now. No way he's literally is there! I can't lose the chance to talk to him!
"Hey girls, I'll go talk to someone is that okay?"
"It's fine besides I wanted to spend some time with my boyfriend."
"Oh, come on Pamela I thought you already spend enough time with him."
"But I love spending time with him.'' I roll my eyes but laugh right afterwards.
"Ok, see you guys later."
I think I saw him sitting at a table. Hmm, I can't believe he is in my school. Yeah, I could've texted him but I didn't want to. I didn't want to bother him. It's a relief knowing that he is at least my age. I hope he remembers me.
"Hey, do you remember me? I'm Theo."
"Oh yeah, you're the boy from the bus yesterday. Why didn't you text me yesterday?" Oh crap, he wanted me to text him...I'm kinda screwed on this one.
"I didn't want to bother you..."
"Oh, you wouldn't have bothered me but it's okay I forgive you." He smiles as he chuckles lightly.
"I'm relieved. Hey, I just noticed, you wear glasses. How come you didn't have them on yesterday?"
"Oh yesterday, I was wearing eye contact." How dumb of me to ask.
"Oh, I see.'' A black-haired guy starts approaching us.
"Hey, you're Theo right?"
"Yeah, I'm Theo, how do you know my name?''
''Dude I'm literally in your arts class and science class. I'm Kean by the way.'' He shakes my hand. Awkward...
"Oh, nice to meet you but I'm sorry I never noticed you."
I can't believe I never noticed him before. He's hard to miss, with over 6 feet more so 6.1 ft, black hair and bright green eyes. Unlike Ben, Kean is more built. Ben isn't skinny per se but he's closer to me. Yet again, Kean is outstanding and attractive but not my type.
"It's fine. You know my friend Ben here?'' He questions.
"Yeah, I met him yesterday."
So, Kean is Ben's friend. I wonder if he's the friend Ben mentioned yesterday.
We all decide to sit down because we were starting to draw attention.
"You know Theo here fell asleep on the bus yesterday. That's how I met him.'' I get a little bit flustered. Kean chuckles and so does Ben.
"I can already picture him asleep on a bus when I barely know him." Kean chuckles again.
"Yeah but I thought it was cute..." Ben admits. Omg, why is he saying this? Is he doing it on purpose?
"Oh ok, if you say so."
I don't even want to respond to this. Then they talk about something else.
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Yeah, I like Ben, it's fun being with him. His friend Kean is not that bad either.
Regardless, it's now lunch and I just got out of science class.
"Gosh, I'm so hungry, it was about damn time that class was over," Pamela complains as she gets to me. I'm surprised she's not with her boyfriend right now.
"Yeah, I was hungry too." Then, I notice Brooke coming in our direction.
"Hi,"
"Hey, we're going to the cafeteria," Pamela says.
"Ok"
Then suddenly someone talks to me and that scares me.
"Hi, I was wondering if you would like to eat at my table." Who?
I turn around and notice Ben, oh."
"I was going to eat with my friends but you can eat with us."
"Hello? Did you forget we're standing here? You're not the only one you know? Seriously, who's this guy?" Pamela says harshly and Ben looks at her guilty.
"Sorry, I didn't mean it...Then, do you all want to eat at my table?" He says nervous and uneasy.
"Sure, we can," I say and Ben smiles.
"Woah, woah, are you deciding for me? I don't even know you." Pamela says harshly and is pissed off.
"Pamela, he's my new friend Ben, short for Bennett, you don't need to be so mean for no reason," I introduce Ben and Pamela just glares at me briefly.
"Fine, I'm Pamela and this girl next to me is Brooke." Yeah, why is Pamela faking a huge smile like that?
"Hi..." Brooke says shyly.
"Nice to meet you," Ben says and instantly he looks at me, smiling.
Then after that, we head to Ben's table where they meet Kean and they all introduce each other.
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Tuesday morning, that's better than Mondays.
Though, it's really strange that Nathan hasn't come to school yet. How is he not suspended? Wait, maybe he already is?
As usual, I'm with my friends but then...I notice the very same guy, Nathan.
I just spotted him in the hallways. It was about time he made an appearance. I was starting to say he officially lost his mind.
Wait omg is it me or is he hotter than usual? Why am I noticing that out of nowhere?! Why am I noticing stuff about him that I never saw before? I can't help but be drowned by him all of a sudden but he disappears as soon as he appears. Ugh, what should I do now with this problem? What am I gonna do now? Ugh, why do you have to complicate things, Nathan Hames?
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