Unexpected visit
Ch.1.5
Theo's pov
The Holidays are already over. Ugh, why, why, just why? I was enjoying the Holiday break.
I spend most of my time with Ben and his friend Kean. I got the chance to go to Ben's house and meet his family. That was cool and once he told me where he worked, I always went to see him.
He was always shy every time he saw me. Cute. Anyways, we got to know one another too.
I don't know how this happened but he's like my best friend now. Yeah, Brooke technically is but he's like my best guy friend. You get what I mean.
I never thought having a new friend would be nice. I was used to only two friends and they are both girls but having a guy friend is fun too. He understands some of my struggles that as much as Brooke tries or even Pamela, they can't relate to it.
Though I did spend most of my time with Ben and Kean, I did at least hang out with Brooke once.
I celebrated Christmas with my family and New Year's too. I mostly celebrated with my mom and my sister Tamara but I did get to spend it with other members of my family.
To put it simply, I don't have a dad. Well, I do but that's besides it. He abandoned us when I was only 4 years old and Tamara was just a baby. I haven't seen him since nor do we have any contact with his family.
I'm thinking about that because seeing my mom's part of the family always reminds me that my family isn't complete.
Am I mad at my dad for doing so? Well, not really. My mom never told me the reason but I decided young that I wouldn't have any feelings regarding him, at all. Thus, my dad means nothing to me.
Luckily it isn't difficult to do so because I have no memory of him nor does Tamara. I had no attachment to him whatsoever. Which tells me he wasn't really there, to begin with.
My mom never remarried for the sake of her children she says. I doubt that's the reason through.
It stinks that I have my dad's last name. It always sounded strange but I got used to it. My mom told me when I was younger that he was European but I don't know where. If I do have European blood, it's not apparent to me, in my mind I'm American and sound American.
Regardless, I have a good relationship with my mom's side of the family even if we see them rarely now because they live across the country.
Regarding Brooke well, that's exactly why we couldn't see each other that much, family, family living far away.
One person I didn't spend Christmas with is Pamela. It's not that I don't like her, it's just we aren't close. I only see her out of school for parties. Besides, she must of spend it all with her boyfriend of hers so...
Even if it seemed like I had fun, there were some downsides. I was mostly busy thinking about a certain someone and that bugs me.
Ugh, Nathan why are you on my mind all the time?!
It's annoying I don't get it. Whether it was during a family dinner on Christmas, when I'm sleeping or even when I'm with my friends he was on my mind.
How on earth is he on my mind all the time? I hate him, hate him!! I don't think my body agrees, just thinking about it makes my whole body hot.
Before the kiss, I would rarely think about him as I hated his guts but now it's concerning how much I think of him, he has been on my mind more often than anyone else and I didn't see him for the entire holidays.
I thought I could get over it during the Holidays but it only got worse. It's hard trying to act like I hate him when I think about him entering his cock in my ass.
It's weird but I kinda miss him. Ugh, can someone please help me get rid of him from my mind? I think I'm officially corrupted.
Through, is it a sign I need to see him or get over what happened between us as Pamela said? Yeah, I can't ever imagine myself liking him, like friends, he hurt me too much for that and I can't forgive him.
But is it possible to be attracted to him but still hate him?
I thought having some space from him would help me cool off but no it makes me want to touch him even more!
I wonder if he feels the same too...NO, he does not!! Ugh, can this torture stop already? Is it because I never got laid? Yeah, it must be...
I'm 17 and I'm still a virgin while he has all the experience. I swear just thinking about him makes my skin curl. Through, as embarrassing as it is, I know why I've never done it yet but seriously, I find it hard to resist the temptation to lose my virginity despite the potential repercussions.
I know it's unlike me but Nathan is corrupting me, I swear! I don't want to become like him but he's influencing me and I don't know how I let him of all people. This has never happened before! He's a bad influence and I should know better, I knew better, I need to take a grip on myself!
Anyways, I swear I didn't imagine it, he really was checking me out! I know I'm attractive and all but he's not helping!! I wonder if he'll do it again during Tuesday's tutoring session.
I'm kinda confused, he's technically a lady's man but I must admit that I haven't seen him with one since that party at Pamela's where we kissed...Not that I care...
Yeah, I absolutely don't care! Ok no, I admit defeat, it does bother me. I just can't help it. It's strange not seeing him with a girl when he always hooks up with one. It's normal to care a little bit about your enemy right?
Ugh, but seriously did I have to tell him Merry Christmas that time at Pamela's Holiday party? Like that's the last thing I said to him. Did I really have to say that through?
School starts tomorrow and I'm kind of nervous. I have to see him tomorrow, Nathan...Even if he didn't talk all that much which is not like him by the way...just the way he looks at me makes me horny.
Ugh, forget about it! FORGET ABOUT IT!! I guess I'll never will since I'm already hard by just the mere thought of him.
Nathan's pov
It's 3 pm and no one's home so I decided to take a shower, I really need it.
The Holidays were fun and all but thinking about Theo all the time wasn't cool at all. He's haunting my thoughts.
Sure, I did the classics family dinner despite my very disappointing family but yeah it is that. I'm not even close to them. Not even my brother...
As I'm not close to them, it allowed me to do whatever I wanted.
So I took the matter at hand regarding Theo and I tried to make myself change ideas by hooking up with a chick. It didn't work out, it only made it worse. I was only thinking about Theo as if he were under me instead.
It's not like it's the first time. I already said it before, my feelings towards him were getting more intense. Not just those feelings but my dirty desires towards him. Desires to do more than imaginable.
What makes it worse is that I had to be forced to kiss him at Spin the Bottle 1 month ago! It's been worse since then because I got a taste of what I wanted.
Tutoring was nice since he teaches quite well... ugh, yet again I have to face how perfect he is.
I don't know why but I kept checking him out. His body...is so perfect...I wonder how it is without clothes on. It's not like I did it on purpose. Though, I don't think he feels the same...
I'm the weird one. Jerking off at the mere thought of him, dreaming about him and I do it and so forth. I shouldn't be thinking about him like that anymore. I know I can't stop myself but it's unacceptable.
He's forced to help me have better grades and here I am lusting after my own enemy. Even if it's that, I can't say it has worked so far but maybe it kinda does. Ah, I don't know I thought the fact my grades got a bit better was all a joke.
What feels like a joke is that I have to face him tomorrow and in two days I have to see him for tutoring sessions.
As much as those thoughts are annoying I keep hearing my doorbell ringing. I thought they would leave after one time but that person is sure persistent. Who might be at my door at this time? No one's home.
I have to get out of the shower. I don't know what came over me but I only came out with a towel attached to my waist. It doesn't matter anyways. It probably isn't someone important.
Geez, this person is impatient. Who might it be? I open the door just to see...Theo!?
I close the door as fast as I opened it. Omg! What is he doing there?! Oh no! He saw me only with a towel on!!
"Um...Nathan, it's me you can open up..."
Why is he here? It's Sunday! Wait how does he know my address!? Why does he want to see me?! He hates my guts!
I get dressed quickly to not make him wait too much. I open the door.
"Uh...what are you doing here?"
"I wanted to talk to you..." He says awkwardly.
"Can't you wait for tomorrow?"
"No, I need to talk to you now..."
"Um...okay what is it?"
Oh gosh, he makes me nervous. What could he possibly want to discuss? He has never done that in 9 years I've known him, almost 10 now.
I run out of my room and put on some clothes really fast. Then, I let him enter my house. I then go sit on the couch in the living room.
"You know we've been tutoring and all..."
''Yeah..." What does he want to tell me? He never has done this before. He's freaking me out!
"Well, I noticed that you were quiet and all. You're not really cooperating that much. Do you still want to continue the tutoring session?" He can't possibly be here just for that, right?
"Are you sure that's the only thing you have to say?'' I say with my usual suspicious smirk.
I don't know where I got my confidence back
"I...I...I..."
I don't know why but he's suddenly coming towards me. Oh, he sitting down next to me...Wait, why is he looking at me like that?
Theo, why are you doing this? Just you licking your lips makes me want to...mmm, huh? What? He's kissing me?! What is going on?! Am I dreaming again?! He then pushes me away as fast as it goes.
"I don't know what came over me but..."
I kiss him again this time full in not just a small tentative kiss. I couldn't bring myself to stop. Why did you have to do this Theo?
We kiss till we can't breathe, by then we are breathless.
"I'm sorry...you got the wrong idea..." I shut him up.
"Stop, let me talk, why'd you kiss me?"
"Uh...I...I don't know."
"What'd you mean you don't know...?" What if...I told you I like you...?" This is dangerous...but I like danger...
"Huh, what?" He says utterly confused.
"Theo...I think it's obvious, look what'd you done." He looks down there. His face turns bright red.
"But...but...I thought you were straight?"
"Trust me I stopped being straight a long time ago."
"What? What does this mean, you don't hate me?"
"Yeah..zI admit you piss me off but I don't really hate you...not that way anymore..."
"But...but why are you like this? Why are you a bad boy?"
The last bit kind of hurt. Honestly, I'm confused by that last bit too. I don't like where this is going.
"You stop right there or else I'll kick you out of my house, got it?" Why is he laughing? This isn't funny.
"It's just that it didn't sound really serious to me." I slap his arm.
"Hey! Why'd you do that?"
"You don't get to say that." I try to sound serious and pissed off.
"Sure I can." Oh wow, he's bossing me now.
"But seriously tho what now?" I decide to kiss him to shut him up. He responds by gripping my neck.
Kissing my enemy, wow...
"Ok, I think it's enough. I don't think you want this to go somewhere else right?"
"Yeah...you're right..." He says disappointed.
We stay in silence for a few seconds. Why is this so awkward? Isn't it what I always wanted?
''But Nathan...I really didn't mean for this to happen..."
"Then why didn't you back off? You're the one that initiated it."
"Yeah, I know but it was a mistake..."
If this would have happened in other circumstances I would've believed him but his face is bright red. It also seems like there is more to it. I want to get to the bottom of this.
I suddenly decide to stand up.
"Are you sure about it? Look you're flustered right now. You can't lie to me. Tell me what you want." I smirk.
"I...I...I...I want you.." Omg, that was so hot. Geez, he's so f**king perfect.
"Alright...I will grant you your wish but not today.''
Wow, we are really gonna do this. We are literally putting the past behind us. I can't believe this.
''Ok..." Omg, why is he so damn hot? I can't stand how hot he is, he makes me want to...
"So what now?" Ugh, why does he have to kill the mood again?
"Maybe...only time will tell us."
"Easy for you to say."
"Hey, who are you to say that?'' I say a little bit harsher because he's starting to piss me off for real.
"I don't like not knowing where this is going...What if you start acting like before and pretend this never existed..." He looks a bit down now...
"I promise you I won't. I don't back down from things like this, especially not a challenge."
I sit back down and hug him. It's extremely weird and awkward between us but I think he needs it.
"Nathan, I have to tell you something.." Oh no what now? Wasn't this enough?
"You know at Pamela's party we kissed at Spin the Bottle?"
"Yeah?"
"Well...that was my first kiss.." Why is he telling me such a thing?
"Oh, I was sure you at least kissed someone before."
"Nope, just you..." As much as I try to pretend I don't care, it makes me happy that I'm the only one but what doesn't make me happy is the way he said it.
"You say that like it's a bad thing."
"How could I not? I'm still mad at you for everything you did to me. We have a history of hatred you know?"
"Ok then, I apologize for bullying you and hurting you as well for being mean to you."
"It's not how it works. Years of suffering can't go away with a simple apology..."
"Yeah, I know..." It's silent for a few seconds.
''Hey, I noticed you're friends with that glasses guy.." I get cut off.
"His name is Ben, well Bennett actually. He's my best friend, what about him?"
"Are you two a thing or...?"
"Nathan how could you say that!? I wouldn't be here kissing you if I was a thing with him. I'm not a cheater you know."
"Sorry not sorry but I didn't know...I know you're not a cheater."
"Why do you say that as if you know what I act like in a relationship?"
"Um...it's not like that it's just...because it's so unlike you. You have a good heart you know that right? Anyways like you said we've always known each other."
"Yeah, I know." He's flustered. How come I never noticed him being like this towards me before?
"I like it when you're honest with me.." Oh gosh, are we doing this now? Compliments?
"Uh...thanks?"
"Um...aren't you gonna compliment me back?"
"Ah yes. I like that you're..." I hide my face with my hands out of pure embarrassment.
"Hot..."
Oh sh*t, I said it. I get rid of my hands to look at his face. He's completely red on his face and his ears, cute.
He suddenly stands up.
"I just remembered I have to go do some homework so I have to leave!!" I laugh.
He's embarrassed about how cute.
"And for the record, yes I want to continue the tutoring session."
We head towards the door. I wink at him and I notice that he smiles shyly before leaving in the cold.
Wow, it really happened. I'm not dreaming. I actually kissed him...I can't wait to have the chance to see him under me. I smile at that thought. Am I really having my dreams come true, Theo Kerlerg?
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