- "I can't believe he lied so blatantly," says Rilley, stunned by the situation.
- He could have told me the truth - I walk around his room - I'd understand if he told me he'd started liking another girl and that his feelings for me had changed, we'd break up and carry on as friends - I sit down on the puff - I'd be very supportive of his new relationship, but he lied about his mother being ill, then he lied about her making shrimp for dinner and he wouldn't even let me see his cell phone.
- It's an invasion of privacy for you to look at his phone Live.
- You're right, I went a bit too far with that part - I lie down - I don't even know if there really was a conversation on that cell phone, maybe he was talking to a friend and asking if there was somewhere he could give me the ring.
- I think you got carried away, call him and try to talk - she comes over and sits down on the floor next to me - you're already seventeen, you're older than us and so you should give off a more mature impression.
I hate it when people remind me of that, because of the constant changes, I ended up having to start a whole year again in the last year of primary school, so I entered high school late and became the oldest in the class.
- Do you think I should act more like an adult?
- I don't think so, I'm sure.
Rilley may be right, I'm a year older and while everyone else will be seventeen, at the end of the year I'll be eighteen. I'll be considered an adult by law.
- I'll send him a message and maybe I can sort this situation out.
I pick up my cell phone to send a message, and Rilley gets up and goes to lie on his bed while I type to someone. I type a hello to Jake and then delete it. My senses tell me I'm not wrong to have broken up, I may have gotten ahead of myself or done the right thing. I leave the room to call Jake, standing behind the door while I wait for him to answer. I don't know how much time passes, with every ring my heart races. I don't think Jake even wants to hear my voice after today. I dial so many times I lose count, send a few emojis to get his attention and nothing. He goes online and sees everything, but he doesn't answer me. I hear a laugh from Rilley coming from inside his room, I'd better go.
You could say that the solitude of an empty house all to myself has become my moment of pleasure, without the noise of pots falling over because of a certain gentleman who likes to experiment with clay and fire in the kitchen. I hate it when my father uses the pots and leaves them dirty to the point that they won't stay clean even if a meteor hits them. I ask the virtual assistant to play my yoga playlist, and as I listen to Nothing Else Matters I feel my body shiver, my mind tunes in to the music played by the band, enjoying every second of it. I sit on the floor stretching my arms back when I hear someone knocking on the door, unless it's a delivery man bringing my new magic kit for beginners, not even music will be able to make me relax. I open the door to find Jake standing there.
- May I come in? - I look at his sweaty face, or at least I think it must be sweat -
- No, I'm in my spiritual unloading session and tomorrow is going to be an important day for me, I've had my share of stress today.
- I'm sorry, but I really need to talk to you.
- Are you going to try to give me the ring again?
He's embarrassed, strange.
- The ring wasn't for you - he scratches his head - I'm really sorry, but... Live I like someone else.
Bang! A straight shot to my heart. What would he have done if I had accepted the ring?
- Then go find that person, we're not together anymore Jake.
- I don't want to break up with you, I like you and I feel affection for all the time we've spent together, but...
- But you don't feel passion for me, you don't feel what I feel for you - I hug him - Jake, I love you despite everything, but I know that love doesn't give me the right to stop you from finding your happiness, I love you enough to let you go just to see you happy - I pull away from him - go after the person you like, don't be an asshole this time, if that person has food allergies, please try to remember.
I hold back my sobs, feeling the burning in my throat rise.
- I'm sorry about the popcorn.
- If you really feel like it, turn around and run after your happiness.
- But what about you? What about you?
- Single and free to date another guy, this time a guy who treats me well.
- Was I an asshole?
- Yes.
- It's a shame you lost me, you won't find someone like me.
Did I hear a glory?
That was the end of a page in my life, Jake kissed me on the forehead and left without saying goodbye. He was an asshole until the last second. Love blinds people, puts you in a fairytale with chains that force you to stay and feel everything even if it hurts, and when I saw Jake's back I collapsed. My knees gave way and all the burning in my throat gave way to the oxygen that insisted on coming out leaving me more and more breathless, I don't need to hear the sound of something breaking to know that my heart is now in pieces. I'm not well.
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