Read I shouldn't love her :: Confusing emotions

After the locker room complications we somehow managed to survive P.E. Wendy didn't participate this time, because she has a ballet competition tomorrow and she can't risk injury. We are used to it by now, she even had to leave from literatur to be on time for main reharsal once. Luckily the school is fairly understanding and it doesn't affect Wendy's grades either. I think she is as passionet about ballet as I am about ice, she always practices when she has time and she isn't too tired, she moves gracefully and pays attention to her weigt. Maybe her passion and love for hockey is the reason why I had the courage to talk to her and befriend her years ago. Aelita on the othaer hand is very different. She likes to make sarcastic comments, because of the black clothes and the fact that she rarely smiles people used to look at her as 'the weird emo girl'. Only us and her family knew she was nice in her own way and had an interessting view on life. She likes acrobatic diving, but we only found that out last year.

We changed and headed to the next class. Mack as she said went to find the normal girls so she wasn't paying attantion to us, maybe she never will, afterall I'm the one who told her not to. Perhaps we were just a quick chat to eachother, maybe she will ignore me too like the others, she might hurt me if she founds out the true, she would have to get to know me for that tho. I guess it is better this way, yes it will be better, I don't have to worry about her that way, we could just be classmates who will forget eachoter eventually. Yes that is the solution, all I have to do is not attract attantion, just live my weird little life like I did before. My friends are with me, no problem, even if I have no clue how I feel about the new student. I sit down in the noisy classroom and just space out. I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder, which makes me flinch.

"Hey, are you okay?" My blond friend asked "You've benn acting strange since P.E" She said in a concerned voice.

"I-i'm fine, I'm just a bit confused" I answered in a strange voice, I can barley belive is mine.

"Did the locker room thing mess with your head?" Asked Aelita, whil she sat on the desk.

"Yes" I said with a small nod.

"What did I miss?" Wendy asked confused.

"Nothing important" Said the girl on the desk, looking at her nails with a bored expression.

"Hey, tell me!" The ballerina took her arm.

"Someone bullied me again, she hit me this time and..." I stopped here, for some reason a glump grew in my throat.

"And?"

"We talked to M-mack" I don't know why I said her name like that, somehow I just couldn't say it correctly.

"You want as to make friends with her?" Aelita asked.

"N-no, she'll find out I was a figureskater"

"You know what? What if you two slept at mine tonight and we talked about your feelings?" Said Wendy.

"Okay"

"Fine"

The bell rang soon. I spent the rest of the day waiting for the sleepover. I talked with the girls after fourth period about the time and we talked to our parents. I'm lucky my mother allawed me to go. I was so excited, I really wanted to understand the confusion I had about Mack, and we haven't done something like this a long time ago anyways.

After classes ended I rushed home, ate lunch, packed my stuff and went to Wendy's house. After thirty minutes I was standing in front of the always happy place. I rang the bell, Mrs.Gray opened the door and let me in with a friendly smile on her face. I took my shoes off and I went up to my friend's room where the other guest was already waiting. I haven't been in this pink and blue room, but it hasn't changed much since we were 12. I hugged the girls with a smile on my face. After dropping my bag off we sat down on the floor and started talking. We talked about first impressons the blue haird girl made on us, my fears, and we looked back on our old selvs. After we finished talking we did our homework and changed into pajamas. We watched Full Out while eating fruit jelly. We laughed and cried alot, at the end of the day we fell asleep on two mattresses pushed together.