“A- alex?”

I found myself stuck like back then, every bone in my body frozen by the pure shock of him standing there. If you would have told me that Kevin would be standing here in front of me I would not have believed you in a million years. Drake sure, but Kevin? All the memories come flooding back to me, ones I have tried so hard to forget. Ones that I thought were erased from my mind forever, but seemed to have just been buried deep within this mind that spirals within a spiral. 

A- “H- how have you been?”

My words shaking, breathing ragged, I hear myself and shutter, I had absolutely no right to know how he's been, or anything about his life for that matter. What gave me the right to ask that question? The audacity to know if hes been well, I want him to curse me, wanting him to tell me it's none of my goddamn business and walk away 

K- “I've been good you know,  just going through life as intended.”

But that was never Kevin, Kevin wasn't the type to curse anyone out. He was always timid, soft spoken, nice and kind, which made me feel even worse just thinking about it, thinking about how I hurt this kind soul of a kid… well not a kid anymore he looked like i remember just grown, adulting is treating him well.. I hope so. 

K- “How have you been Al? “

Part of me wishes i was hoping he didn't ask me that, and al? Only 2 people have ever called me that and I don't like either of them, but the way he says it makes me feel like.. crying .

A- I- i've been…. Been.

K- Chin up everyone loves a happy face 

A- Charlotte's web?

K- You know Charlotte's web? 

A- Yeah… it was a childhood favorite of mine.

K- Mine too. 

Heh 

Silence so loud yet so quiet. He can't even look me in the eyes for too long. I wouldn't be able to either, I wanted to apologize to him and beg him to forgive me, tell him that i was a troubled kid  even though that's no excuse that if I had a time machine I would go back and I would protect him. SO many letters that would make words to just squash it all so that maybe he could find peace from that tragic time 

A- Kevin look…

“Alex, you don't need to say anything i see it all over your face and don't worry we were just kids and i forgive you, i just hope you forgive yourself… Oh shit i'm late i have to go”

As he runs away a tear sneaks down my cheek.. And then silence, 

Huh.

And just like that it seems that the rain 

……..went away.