The next few days were a blur, I often saw Kevin in the halls and during intermissions. He would always say hi first. I just couldn't bring myself to say anything, guess they call that guilt.. Or shame. I found myself drifting off into deep thought most days. Where did Kevin go, why is he now popping up and why do I find myself intrigued by him. Is it still my guilt or just curiosity. He has different courses from me so I rarely see him however he is engraved in my brain. It's like he's right in front of me. Ill just sum it up to guilt 

Just like that class is over 

Lez- Didnt get any notes down huh youve been in a daze

Saw- Here you could borrow mine 

Not going to lie even though these two knuckleheads are annoying most time theyre oay a percentage of the time 

A- thanks *looks at notes*

Well thanks for the bits i can read anyway. i take that comment about them being okay back its like im reading a foreign language but i could try to ,make out the key points of the lesson 

Lez- what were you lost in thought overr?

Saw- Yeah you've been like in a trance for 3 days now… have you been hypnotized 

Hypnotized.. I mean he's not completely wrong i don't understand why Kevin showing up and blindsiding me has been such a problem he's just a regular person like you and me trying to get an education and i'm thinking and stressing over him like he's a celebrity

A- Nothing much just family issues and whatnot 

Lies. But what could I tell them? I'm thinking of the kid that I hurt a long time ago and I don't know how to approach him at all… yeah right. 

Saw- You know what you need, a distraction. Tonight me and lez are hitting up a karaoke bar with some of the freshmen. You should join Alex.

Lez- YEAH THAT'S A GREAT IDEA!!! You never come and i feel like it could be a good thing for you to get out your basically a caveman 

I would rather do anything else first of all i don't sing and don't intend on it and two what do i have in common with anyone that would be present. Yeah exactly so i think I'll pass

A- guys i don't really..

Saw- We are not taking no for an answer, either you come or i will tell everyone were relocating to your house 

He's bluffing.

Saw- i. Dont. Bluff. Come on alex loosen up 

Lez- yeah we invited 7-10 freshmen. We don't know all their names but there's Kimya, Lenny, Josh, Kevin, Tonya…

Kevin… Kevin will be there? If that's the case i can go i can apologize i can explain and then we can let bygones be bygones. I feel like if i don't take this opportunity i'm going to go mad. 

A- sure. Why not? 

I said unconvincingly

saw and lez in unison -

WHATTTTTTTTTT?

A- yeah it'll be fun 

I know it won't but I can't let this blindsided encounter win and I won't… Watch your back