This makes me feel worse than before. It's not like I want to do it but I need to do it. Don't know why, this makes me feel secure. We can't be friends, either be lovers. There is no secret in front of me but in your vision, you are just looking at a locked chest. Is it a joker chest or a gold chest? Which one do you prefer to open? Many people will say that a gold chest is the best option. I don't see any reason for to someone open that joker's chest.

The same as me, I don't want to open the joker's chest. I don't know what happen if I get closer to Tiara and I don't want to imagine that.

After getting into my room, I locked up and pulled my desk behind the door.

Huh?

(NINANINANINANINA...) -Tiara

Just what is this? Love? Obsession? She already has an obsession though. Sigh* whatever...

I just want to sleep. Today is hard for me...

After waking up, I pull out my desk again... It's more annoying than I thought. After clearing my mind, it feels stupid to think about it. For now, let's just face it.

Why am I always like this? Feel scared while getting intimidated. It makes me weak and do something crazy while in it. I still can stand a chance in front of my sister... Maybe there are some moments that I feel scared of her but, I think that my fear is normal and the same as anybody's. Or maybe it's just this school with all different cultures and people with unique and variant traits that makes me feel shocked.

Before leaving my room, I look in the mirror and fix my bed hair. Being normal in this kind of school it's impossible! Or maybe, I am the one who is not normal among them? No! I can't be like this! I should get up, eat, and do something about this melancholy feeling.

Yes! Just as always!! I will walk around without point and just look at the starry night! Maybe... maybe it will calm me down.

"Where you will go?" Ask Nexus as always on the sofa reading some book.

"..."

Without saying anything, I leave this house. Oh! There is a Stellarium near the lighthouse.

While going there, the beach is quite beautiful at night. My white dress is flowing because of the wind. Once again, I forgot to tie my hair.

Here is it, the Stellarium. Let's see what's inside. Five telescopes and a planet simulator. It's a hologram... I don't have enough energy to compliment it. It's like, my mood is worsened the time goes on.

Sigh* Boring...

I decided to go to Lighthouse. There is a spiral stair around the building and one wooden door on the lowest floor. While walking, the wind is flowing again. At least, at the top the scene is beautiful.

It's quiet. That means there is no one around here.

Step*

I look behind. Blue hair flowing on this starry night with a light blue dress. Her glass is shining because of the light from a lighthouse. She is staring at me and gently smiles at me.

"What's wrong Nina?" Asked her with her gentle smile. She looks and cares about me.

"Just... Watching this scenery... What about you?" Said me while looking at the horizon.

She walks near me and leans her body on the fence together with me.

"This is my favorite place. Should I need your permission?" Said her while looking at me.

"No, you can do whatever you want. Hey, you seem so strong right?"

I remember that she got slapped with her classmate back then. She still keeps her calm and tries to protect her instead of being angry. She is used to thinking about all of her actions but now she is quiet as a snail.

"You can't read it, right? Why don't you use your true ability?" Asked her.

It surprised me but not until it looked at my face.

"My true ability? Am I have some kind of hidden power that could destroy the world you think?" Asked me joking around.

"Yes." Said her while looking at me with a serious face.

Huh? Does she know something about this ability, more than me? Don't be joking to me.

"So what? What is my true ability then?" Asked me curious about her answer.

"You said that you are reading our mind but have not heard it. Yulia asked us the fifth most talented people to discuss about you. And they agree to my theory that you can see our memory." Said her smiling proudly at me.

Not quite right... I can't see your memory. But... I can predict it. The same as the bullied girl before. At the maximum, I can read all of the gestures, motions, actions, scars outside, body looks, and all outside appearances and the person's reaction.

"My answer is false." Said me after looking at her.

She stopped smiling and looked at me seriously.

"So, care to explain it to your cheating material?" Asked her while smiling wickedly.

For some reason, my heart pushes me to tell the truth. Because it was tiresome to do something about it, I just answered it genuinely. But not this time...

I look at her with a serious face while one of my hands holds the fence. "I refuse."

She continues to look at the sky. "You make us hard to get you." Said her disappointed.

"Sigh* Just ask me the yes-no question... I will answer it because you helped me a lot with the exam." Said me figuring that it's cruel for me to leave her alone like this.

She looks at me surprised. Why she should surprised like that?

"So, are you part of some experiment?" Asked her with a serious voice while leaning her back to the fence.

That sounds stupid. Sigh* I just need to answer it.

"No"

I know that someday someone will be asked that question but not this fast.

"Do you inherit that ability?" 

"No"

My family is normal and I am proud of them.

"Your father, is he passed away?"

"Yes"

I still remember it clearly that day. When I get terrified by this ability and choose to pull myself out of society. I don't want it to happen again. Even I have a secret to protect too.

"Is your father genius?"

Wait... Is he a genius? He is a doctor and quite well-known. And that's normal, right?

"I don't know."

"Huh?" She was confused by my half-answer.

"You said that you would answer with yes and no but look at this." Said her getting disappointed again.

"Listen, I don't know, I've never seen his score." Said me getting annoyed because of misunderstanding.

"Then I will change the question. Did he give you a reason to you to not use your ability?"

"Yes"

"I see." Said her and left me alone.

Huh? Just that? What is the conclusion? Ah... Nevermind.

It's surprisingly good to me. Maybe I just need a person who can hear my thoughts so that I can't be stressed. But, I can't choose. I didn't have that option. Because having a relationship with some secrets is troublesome and tiresome for me.

The next day... (Thursday)

She is not coming huh? Whatever... I get up and look in the mirror. At that second my eyes opened up and shocked. It's like my soul has gotten back to my body in an instant.

"I didn't know that you have this kind of fetish." Said me while turning around. But, she is not there. I look in the mirror again and Nexus has disappeared. Am I wrong?

If I turned it off, surely her position would be exposed. But, let's just eat and do my daily routine.

So, Nexus is here today huh? She always eagerly read her books on the sofa. Walking into the kitchen, I see Tiara cooking alone.

I pat her shoulder. "Need help?" Asked me flat.

I hope that my relationship is still a friend but not further than that. Never mind with Alice said, I didn't have a reason to make them fall in love with me. Let's just skip this high school with normal daily life... That's what I thought.

I know that our relationship is bad because of that but... Not to this extent!! Why?! What!? And just... Argh!! Whatever is it the reason you should point this sharp knife below my head.

(cut the veggies.) -Tiara

Oh! So that's it. I take the knife and cut the vegetables.

This is awkward... Should I say something... No, I must say it.

"You know... Sorry."

She stopped cutting and looked at me.

"Say it again." Said her.

Huh? What? That's embarrassing... Fine... I'm the one who is wrong here.

"I am sorry for hurting your heart." Said me while looking down. I don't know why I should say sorry to her even after all those things she forced me to do.

Once, this happened to me back then and I quarreled with my mom. It's a stupid thing to be angry about but... My mom thinks that kids my age should not do this kind of thing.

It happened after I watched the surgery movie. I felt like wanted to do it back then. My mom scolded me because I was still underaged.

After that, she said sorry to me. I asked her why she should say sorry if I was the wrong one. She simply said... "It's not always the wrong one who should say sorry."

I said again. "No, that will make someone get cocky!"

She said. "Nina, the problem is not what you talking about in that fight... The fight itself is already wrong. So, there is no wrong or right between it."

That is one of the reasons I am tired of socializing because it will be tiresome to fight once we get to know each other better.