I don't know how we made it back to my dorm, but we did. Once that door slammed behind me, we crashed into one another, craving, longing, wanting. His body heat was ever so overwhelming and I was drunk on every touch, every breath, every tiny sensation. Is this was what it feels like to genuinely enjoy intimacy or was it the alcohol? No.. That can't be I wasn't THAT intoxicated… was I? Either way I wanted to savor this feeling, to dive in this moment and linger with his lips on mine. Alcohol or not… This is what longing feels like. 

    I need more, I want more, I crave for more. By the looks and feels of things me and him was working on the same wavelength. He reaches to unbuckle my pants, I pause and stop him.. was I really about to do this? Was this what I truly wanted? Both of us made intense eye contact.. waiting for a sign, breathing heavily, he scans my face as I slowly let go of my grip. Every inch of me shivering, the adrenaline rising. As he slides his hands my whole body jolts from his touch.

"Cold heh. Your hands are cold."

"Oh I'm sorry." He tries to pull away, when my body moves on his own to stop him.

"Don't you dare stop" He just nods and continues.

Slowly stroking, the feeling of electrical vibrations go up and down my body. Was this okay to do with him? I mean it feels okay… more than okay actually. It's amazing, However with him? Out of all people? It's not like we were friends before this? Actually I don't even know what we were? Were we enemies? Friends? Acquaintances? College mates? I have no idea. But right now I just want him. I just d- 

*SQUEEZE* 

"AH, Kevin wh-"

He leans towards my right ear and lets out a mere whisper. 

"Don't think about anything else right now. Just focus on me, just be in this moment right here right now. Let your thoughts be put to rest and relax. Understood?"

I just nod. What else could I do? Continuing he is so gentle and yet so firm. Every single stroke, every single sensation. Rising. Rising. Rising. 

"K- Kevin I'm…"

"Not Yet :⁠-⁠P" 

What does he mean not yet? I'm so close. Why did he- 

"I want to have more fun."

He sits me down on my shitty excuse for a bed, and gets on his knees.

"K- Kevin I don't think.."

"shhh. Just relax. I just want a taste if that's okay." 

Sliding my pants off, I look away. Why was I embarrassed? I've done this many times and now I feel embarrassed? 

"Mhmm. Besides it looks like you need me to take care of you Aly Al. But if you truly want me to stop, just say so."

Just like that his mouth was on me. He knew exactly what to do to me, as if I was an open book to him.

"nnnn nn- wait."

He looked up at me and I knew. I knew and he knew that he had full control of me at that very moment. I looked away with a desperate need to break that control. I was losing my mind. 

"k- Kev- Kevi- nnn" 

"k,k,k? cat's got your tongue?" 

"nnn- nnnn- I'm - I'ma - I'm -"

" You're? You're? What? Close? Oh don't worry I'm aware. Don't fight it lover boy, just let it happen."

WHO IS THIS? Is this still the sweet, kind Kevin that I've come to know? He is like a different person right now, it's driving me insane. No, I know what happened. He got abducted by aliens and they switched him out. DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT, there's no other explanation people. 

I closed my eyes and at that moment I came…. to my senses. My body felt like a vegetable and I crumbled right there. 

"Mmm, you taste good."

"DON'T SWALLOW WTF KEVIN" 

"Hehe, relax Aly Al. I'm glad to be of service. Well I guess I should get goi-"

I stop him before he gets near that door. 

"And where do you think you're going?" I didn't even get my turn yet." 

"w-w- well. I- I- I just-" 

"Wwww- what's wrong? I haven't gotten your tongue yet." 

With that I lean myself into him allowing him to drink every bit of me, until he was drowning in the same longing that I was. 

"w- Wait Alex i-" 

"If you want me to stop then say so"

I undo his belt and slide my hand in.

*gasps*

"Let me take care of you as well. 

His gasps were like fuel to the flame that has been lit up within me. I wanted to burn more. I long to spread this wildfire that I can no longer contain within my body. 

"Al- A- Nnn- Ale-"

"Shhh. It's okay baby boy. I'm here just lean on me, Hold onto me and let it happen." 

His grip tightened, He's listening, enjoying. Let's push this a little further. 

"You know this was your fault Kevin…"

I tightened my grip, feeling him trembling. 

"... coming onto me, making me lose control.." 

Increasing my speed, seeing his begging face. As if to ask me to stop but also to keep going. It fuels me.

"... and then you want to flee the scene without finishing… how cruel."

"AH- No. Al"

"Don't fight it. Just Relax."

He twitched, and tried to pull away but I was resilient. 

"Al- Pl- N- aH- I can't - PLEASE " 

Then the final curtain call arrived. Looking at him crumbling just like me and smirking made me crave but I had to control myself. I just needed to hold him.

"You okay?"

He just nodded. 

"I love when you get embarrassed"

"I AM NO-"

"Alright alright you're not."

The night came and went. The dawn will soon break and shine on the reality that is mine.

                  Damn that dawn.