“SAUL, LET ME GO.” 

No response, as I look around I claw my nails into his arm as I try and pry it open but he just holds me tighter. Now I could barely move my arms.
Getting frustrated I closed my eyes. My stomach curled as I started feeling sick. Swallowing down my nauseousness I took quick breaths in and out. Moving my mana slowly to my arms as I try my best to keep calm. Opening my eyes I look to his arms again as I grab them. Then I pulled them away from me but I didn’t think too far ahead. I’m falling now.

The breeze felt nice but my stomach sank even more as I looked at saul. He was falling too, pushing himself through the air to catch me. Staring at him I reach my arm out to him, as he quickly pulls me as he floats slowly to the ground again. Reaching the ground I felt relieved as I held my chest and took a deep breath. Turning to him he looked confused and sad as he grasped his nail marked arm. 

What is up with this guy even I can tell his personality is fake. Most of the time he looks uncomfortable and lost, even someone with his type of ‘personality.’

Glanced at me he quickly looked away as he saw me already looking at him.

“What is your issue like stop being a jackass.” Covering my mouth quickly I look away not knowing what to do. He glanced at me with a sorrowful expression as my heart felt heavy. I have to apologize. I’ve never said that to someone before. 

Sweating, I started talking, “I'm so sorry I don't usually sa-” A chill ran down my spine as I saw Saul already look in the direction of the chill.. He felt this too. Someone was with us. A cold dark air started to break around us as I turned quickly to the source. A dark ghostly cloud was coming from the forest. My eyes widened as I began moving my mana to my heart. I can't fight, I can't. Sweat dripped from my face as the dark cloud grew closer. Slowly taking a step then another and another. Each step got louder as my heart beated faster. As I heard Saul shuffling behind me. What was he doing?

Then… 

“YOOOO, SAUL MY MAN IS THAT YOU.”  

The voice cut the cloud open as a tall muscular demon stood. With horns of a buffalo, as smaller horns appeared around those horns. This has to be one of the most muscular people I've ever seen but looking at him he looked at me and smiled. His eyes were gray? Is he blind? 

Walking past me raising his arm he gave Saul a hand shake as he shook Saul’s entire body. Laughing to himself he walks up to me leaving Saul to help himself. Reaching out his hand he shook my hand as he introduced himself, “Good evening young lady! My name is Nocco. I work for Saul as a commander!” 

Staring at him I felt a little scared but swallowing my fear I introduced myself.

“Hello Nocco, I'm Pime. I got revived after my first death and work for Saul.” Smiling to him his mouth was wide open in disbelief. Quickly turning to Saul he yells, “There is NO WAY you are making someone as nice as her to work for you.” turning back to me he holds my hands in comfort as he says in a kind tone, “Is he blackmailing you?” nodding his head in concern I can help but laugh. I’ve never seen someone look this scary be the nicest person I've ever met . Trying to catch my breath from laughing I recollect myself as I wipe a tear from my eye. Looking at the two of them I saw two very different reactions: one of a sense of happiness and joy and one of sadness and confusion. 

Giggling out I say, “Haha wow I've never seen reactions like you two in one place.”

As I smiled at them I could see both grow a smile as Saul relaxed a little bit.  

With the air lightened up we stand around idle. 

Looking at each other we smile then look away into the air. With this back and forth the first one to leave is Nocco.

“YO, so I do have to go cause I was patrolling the area and can't make my group worried too much.” laughing he turns around as the dark cloud forms around him again.

Leaving me and Saul alone I look to the floor before looking at him. “Saul bring me back to the estate and never EVER do that again. I feel like you could also understand that.” 

Giving Saul a forced smile he looks pained, nodding his head we head back to the estate.

Queity, even the forest was louder than us.

I have to learn how to use my mana. I can't stand idle anymore. 

I have to change or at least try but I feel horrible. I can't play the villain. I’m not meant for it and how would I be able to kill someone I still love? I feel like crying but I can't. I HAVE to keep my head up in order to live. I can’t let my mind kill me. I’ll die trying to play out this ‘revenge’ even if I kill no one. On the plus side for me I already know or killed me and figured out that he wasn’t under any control. None. Just. His. Own. Accord.

Thinking about it I finally realized why I even thought I could do this. 

I'm going to kill him. If it’s the last thing I do.

After this thought I smile, chuckling to myself as I feel lighter, happier. 

I can’t wait to be this happy when the storm clears…