I finally built up the guts to talk to her but I dont and I don't know why I felt so bad for not talking to her making her think i'm weirder every second she sits here beside me. After a while of sitting there the bell rings and I get up and am about to go to class then turn to the girl to offer to walk her to class just to be polite but when I look she's not there, how does she keep just disappearing? Ok nevermind I just won't question it for now I need to concentrate on school and my personal health.

After school that day I'm walking home and I have my earbuds in. As a gust of wind flew by and I realized it was a car I couldn't really make out what the car was because of the speed but it was black. After that car there were three police cars that also zoomed by right after the car and I just stopped in my tracks. Well that was weird. I wonder what happened, or was the person just speeding? Well to be honest I don't care as long as I'm not part of whatever it is.

When I get home I head straight to my room and take off my backpack and throw it into the side along with my sweater and I lay down and try to sleep but I can't seem to fall asleep at all, I might just be hungry. I haven't eaten dinner yet. As I am going to the kitchen I see something in the corner of my eye but when I look there's nothing there, I'm just seeing things I tell myself. When I'm in the kitchen I try to find something to eat but I don't find anything I want so I just get a cup of milk and go sit on the couch. I turn on the news but I’m not really paying attention until it says there was a car crash near where I am and I notice one of the people in the image they had put up and I jump to my feet “Mom!?” I yell seeing her covered in blood then it hits me it was my family in the crash and they're dead.

I run out of the house all the way to the hospital and when I get there I go in and ask the woman at the front desk if my family is there and she apologizes and tells me that they died in the accident. I feel tears start to stream down my face as I go outside to the front of the hospital and lean on the wall, balling my eyes out, but then I hear a rustle in the bushes and Edzis walks out of the bush. How the fuck did she get in there? And why is she there? I have so many questions for her but I can't talk as I'm crying so I just stare at her awkwardly.

“Hey Quil are you ok? What happened?” She wrapped one arm around my shoulder and held me close and I started to calm down at her touch but I can't get over the fact that my parents are dead as well as my sister.

“My family they-they.” I pause not wanting to say it but I do anyway “they are dead.” I say and look down at my shoes watching tears hit them as I cry. Edzis holds me close like trying to sooth me.

After a few minutes of silence she finally speaks again. “Will you be ok without your parents? Do you need money or a place to live? I can help if you need.” She rambles on showing that she is willing to help with anything I need but all I need right now is to sleep. I feel like I might pass out right now, but I keep myself awake.

“I’ll be ok. I just need some sleep, that's all.” I say to her not wanting to worry her more than I already have. I already had to deal with being the “loner” back at my school back in China. It's hard to have that title. 

“I can take you home if you would like.” she said with a smile that says you don't actually get a choice if I do or not at this point. I didn’t really know what to say but the idea of her taking me home made my heart flutter. I just nod and say nothing as I do. Then a question fills my head: why was she at the hospital and why did she come over to me? It could have been anyone but it was her. Why? I didn't think anything of it but I think I'll get the answer to my question later on in the future.

“Hey my cars over here if you follow me.” She starts walking to the hospital parking lot and I follow. She stops at a white Cadillac. It looked like a nice car. I got into the passenger's seat and it was really comfortable. 

Most of the car ride was silent, a few questions here and there but nothing really important. I felt the tears on my face start to dry up, her voice was so soothing it was actually calming me down but the fact of my family being gone was still swirling around in my head. It hurt so bad knowing that the people I have loved my whole life are now gone because of a dumb car crash just trying to get home. Why did this happen to me, why couldn't it be anyone else why me, What did I do wrong to deserve this or did they do something, no they have never done anything wrong. Right? All these questions flood my head with a new question every second. I just want to sleep, that's all I wanna do at this point. My head hurts so bad. We should have just stayed in China then this would have never happened. This all could have been avoided, but then another thought came to my head. If I never came here I would have never met Edzis and have a new start at ife and friends, I don't know what I want anymore.

“Hey you ok over there?” Edzis askes and I snap out of my trans we are outside of my house now and she is still in her seat on her phone as she asks.

“Yea im ok!” I accidentally shouted that. “Sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you.” I apologize with my head down looking at my shoes in embarrassment.

“Hey it's ok you don't need to apologize you're going through alot right now and I know it's hard, but I'm here just remember if you need anything I am here and I always will be.” Her voice was so genuine and sweet. That's the last thing I remember from that night.