TW: Violence, nonsentual intimacy/sexual abuse. Read at your own descretion. Your mental health is more important then reading my story dear readers. :)

I grabbed his hand and swam after the otters for him. I could hear their bubbly speaks echoing in the water with glee.  Reid’s eyes grew wide with wonder like small child.  While the effect lasts he should be able to speak… in theory.  Though I doubt he knows or cares.   I resisted the urge to give Reid a playful kiss. The desire to touch him was nearly overwhelming but also frustrating. Humans are more complicated than I thought. Kisses and flirtatious comments didn’t work out the way I expected.  I ended up hurting him. But he also does like it but doesn’t. How does one properly woo humans? My only “experience” was seducing my captors, sometimes male sometimes female on different occasions. My  motive  for seduction is escape.  I didn’t enjoy it but my charisma merfolk are known for served me well. They’re probably still after me after all merfolk are very pricey in that black market of theirs. 

An otter dove down and handed us both clams and gestured with a rock, a smashing movement.  The otter gave us rocks from its small pouch.   Then swam away.  After a while of watching we resurfaced.  Reid ran to the rock and tossed me the trench coat. I quickly put it on. Once in his car I opened the clam, a lovely pearl resided in it. I took it out  and scooped out the clams insides and ate it. Reid gave me a strange look.  

“If you don’t want yours I’ll eat it.” I said, smiling at him. He flushed, I gently brushed his hand deliberately as I grabbed it from his blush deepened immediately. Reid’s hands are soft and thin fingers with uneven short nails some rounded  or straight across he must pick at them a lot.  I want to grab his hand and kiss him like I did the day before.  There was a pearl in this nas well.  I quickly ate the insides.  I wonder if the otters knew pearls are a symbolism of love, loyalty, and prosperity. No, they didn’t know there were pearls in it. But this must be an auspicious omen for my love towards this human.

The drive back was uneventful. I doubt I’ll ever get used to seeing the ocean from the surface or clothes on my back. Both new and unfamiliar.  

As I ate the meal I casually looked at Reid eating.  The green oily sauce  smeared on the corners of his lips and he ate the noodles . He’s cute even when he eats. I wish I could give the bites to him  while softly caressing his face. That would be lovely. 

“Why are you staring at me Nagisa? Do you have something to say?”

“Nothing” I smirked. Reid blushed but said nothing.

That night I settled on the squishy rock and curled up.  Matcha settled right against my lower stomach . I drifted off. 

I dreamed I was swimming in the ocean.  When a net descended on me I quickly got tangled and it pulled me up and out of the water. Human men stared at me with excited looks on their faces.

“We caught one finally! We’re rich now boys!” 

A cheer Rose from the deck.   One man, a stocky brutish man rippling musclesApproached me “ Ah, the elusive merman. You're a rare beauty, aren't you?”

I narrowed my eyes. “What do you want from me?”

“Your tears, They say merman tears possess a unique power.”  He looked hungerly at me in a way that made me uncomfortable.

“Why would you want that?”  I asked.

“Well, let's just say there's a market for the extraordinary. People pay a pretty penny for the tears of exotic creatures like yourself.”

“ I won’t let you exploit me like that!” I tried lunge towards him but the net was too heavy. 

He leaned in, grinning with yellowed teeth. “Exploit? Such a harsh word. I prefer to think of it as a mutually beneficial arrangement. Besides, I have a feeling you might find the experience... enlightening.”

“I won't be part of your scheme for riches.” I spat.

He chuckled. “You're in no position to refuse, my dear merman. But if you cooperate, who knows? I might just make it worth your while. A taste of the human world, perhaps?

“What do you mean?” I said hesitantly. Tempted for a slight moment.

“Let's just say there are pleasures beyond the sea that you've yet to discover. Imagine the allure of experiencing something entirely new.” He touched the slit where my cock would come out if I felt like doing the deed stroking inside.  A shiver ran down my spine. I need to get away.

“I won't trade my dignity for your twisted desires.”  I glared at him.  Which only egged him on more. His hand searched across my body to my dread he found my other slit.  He knows merfolk are hermaphrodites? It’s no coincidence I was found there?

“Dignity?” He said while plunging his fingers in and out with horrible squelching noises while fingering me. “Such a quaint concept. You'll learn, my beautiful merman, that in this world, everyone has a price.” 

I poked my hand through and slashed him with my nails,  blood  poured down his face.   

He looked pissed but a dangerous look filled his eyes. Depraved carnal lust filled his eyes. He threw off the net and grabbed me. I slapped him with my tail .  He fell to the ground. I dragged my body closer to the edge.  I nearly hauled my body  off into water when I felt a hardy tug on my fin. 

“You’re not getting away that easily.”

I gripped the edge of the boat tight, so much that my knuckles were white. I need to get back in the water!  I thrashed my tail trying to throw him off me but I couldn’t. In desperation I tried shifting to human form, I slipped out of his grasp and I couldn't even stand for more than a second. I wobbled and crashed to the ground hard.  He grabbed one of the useless legs and grabbed my ankle . I shifted back hoping maybe he’ll let go finally but he didn’t. Something sharp was stabbed into my tail fatigue washed over my body. I passed out. 

When I woke  I laid on something soft and squishy.  The man sitting beside me.  "you're so pretty I want to tie you up and lock you away so I can have my way with you whenever I want.” 

I looked at him with disgust.  “Like hell I’d let your filthy body touch mine.”

He grabbed some cloth and proceeded to bind me. . I squirmed and struggled against him.  He finger me more. It was painful and unpleasant.  He stroked my long hair. And licked me.  Then shoved it in me. It was too hard to fry too big for me.I felt my body tear and blood dripping down. I couldn’t try my human form again. I was bound too tightly.   When he was done my body ached. I was covered in bruises and hickeys. My eyes dry  from tears. Which he collected. 

He unbound me once after nearly constant sex for days. I wearily shifted into human form  and walked to a reflective shell thing.  I stumbled and fell many times being not used to legs.  I looked haggard and thinner than  before  my skin patches of black and blue my hair tangled and matted. The human loved touching and smelling my hair. I noticed something sharp a strange thing With two blades attached with something to grip. I may not be able to escape now but I’ll cut  the precious hair he loves so much.  I looked at s picture of a good looking guy on some strange flimsy shiny book-thing  and copied his hair.  A big pile of my hair littered the ground.

I woke in cold sweat. the nightmares won't stop. Will my past ever stop haunting me? I walked to Reid's door and knocked. He's much different from my captors. He's kind,feisty and cares about the world around him. I feel safe around him.