Tw: There is a steamy make out scene at the end if that type of content bother you please turn back you've been warned.

I remained in his arms long after my tears stopped. His scent was comforting; he smelled like the ocean, the  tides and the pleasant smelling air. I just want to breathe him in all day.  I reluctantly pulled away from him a large wet spot on his shoulder.  I felt cold without his warmth.   “I need to go, I'll be late.”  

“Got it.” 

I looked back up at him  and strayed on his pretty lips. I  want to kiss him.  My face reddened and I got out quicker than ever have.  If I stayed, I might make out with Nagisa. I’m not letting that happen again. I was lonely and nearly died, that's the only reason I kissed.  Nagisa followed close behind, soon arriving at my side. Occasionally our hands brushed, my fingers flexed as if preparing to hold hands with him.  So I walked even faster.  In the lobby of the aquarium I stopped and turned.   

“Here’s my pass,  try to not go too far away from here alright I’ll see in a few hours we can eat lunch on my break.” 

He pouted only slightly. “If it were up to me we’d be together all the time but I suppose earning a living is important too. I’ll be dying to see you again. I don't think I’ll last.”

My cheeks heated up. I ran off without another word. Can that man take one minute without being unbelievably sexy?  Hopefully this attraction to him will fade out after all infatuation only is temporary, most never last it’s basic psychology.  

My boss approached me, “Reid, how’s your recovery?”

“I’m alright.” I responded.

“That’s a relief, for today you're off rescue and release permanently after displaying reckless disregard for your own safety and life.” She eyed me carefully

“What will I do then?”  It felt like a personal blow. I loved rescue and release the sheer joy of seeing the animals now  healthy go back where they belong.

“Otter fluffing, I trust you understand the tasks involved?”

I'll still be around otters but I really enjoyed the rescue and release of the otters and other creatures.  The day passed in a blur.  I could vaguely remember ruffling otter pups coats with a towel and feeding them formula but nothing else.   I walked out glancing around for Nagisa. “Nagisa time to go home!” I said, calling out his name as I walked. 

I found him shortly rubbing a crayon over a piece of paper a station meant for children . The image was of a sea otter. I poked on his shoulder. He was startled a little but relaxed when he saw me.

“I did miss you darling.”

“Quit it!” I turned away so he could see my blush.   

“What exactly did you do all day?”  Nagisa asked.

“Just ruffling sea otter pups' coats and feeding them.” 

“I see, well did you miss me?” He leaned in close within kissing distance.  

“Ehhhh…” just like that my heart accelerated and my mind short circuited. I just stood there. He laughed and pulled away.    I then practically sprinted away to my car.  I could hear him right on my heels.  Maybe my reactions are like drinking alcohol. The more exposure the more tolerance I build up  against Nagisa.  As if on cue he climbed in.  A bristling feeling travelling  like a surprised cat as he accidentally brushed against me.   He handed me the paper with the sea otter. This is strangely sweet of him.  

I put the car into drive and entered my apartment. 

“Mroow!” Followed by the  soft scurrying of Matcha’s paws.  I knelt to the ground as Matcha bounded toward me.  She bunted my hand, a silent ask for pets.  

“You’re such a pretty girl Matcha, such a pretty kitty. You're such a cutie cat. You’re such a good girl aren’t you?” I said in a childish way as I rubbed her cheeks.  She closed her eyes in satisfaction.   I flushed in embarrassment as I saw  Nagisa standing there  watching me.  He seemed jealous almost but why I couldn’t guess. Matcha  then walked over to him once she spotted him. And rubbed her face over his legs and wove herself in between them. She’s never been this affectionate with strangers. When I got her after  the end of  my relationship with Felix she hated his guts and would scratch him if he got near her or me when she was awake. I remember the day I took her home she had zoomies all around the apartment  looking curious at every nook and cranny. While I was making a matcha latte for myself I left out the powder and in the morning I saw her rolling around in the spilled matcha powder next to the container.

I could feel the fatigue from everything that happened today hit me all at once. I’m just gonna grab  a big glass of gin and go to bed.  I pulled it from the liquor cabinet and grabbed some cranberry juice.  I poured some of both in a cup then sat down.

“What’s that? Can I try some?” Nagisa asked.

“Absolutely not.”  I tipped my glass up and downed it all like a shot.  The liquid  went down my throat, a burning fiery feeling down my throat. Instantly I felt more relaxed as the heat spread through my body.  “Do you mind using the couch tonight I want to be left alone. With any luck you won’t have a night terror.” I expected him to complain or charm me into letting him share the bed. But he didn’t.  But I felt strangely alone laying in bed by myself. I stared at the piece of paper in my hand he had made.  I glanced at my trash can I should probably throw it away. I stopped just above the trash can, by my bedside  I couldn’t let it go.  When random children have handed me stuff when I tried volunteering here in college I never kept it but here I am.  Maybe I chose something too strong and I got a little tipsy and it’s affecting my mind. But I drank it every night after I ended things and moved out.

I was sitting at a dock low in the water, the ocean lightly touching my feet moving the floating dock up and down. Nagisa was there beside me, our hands intertwined. I felt peaceful and loved more than I have in years.  He looked at  me and smiled. 

“Well my love, do you wish to be inside my arms? I'd hate my lover to be cold.”

I smiled And snuggled up to him. He kissed me on the forehead.  

“Why not do some kissing,  just something sweet and calm like you.” Nagisa smiled. So we did it was slow had a quiet kind of passion. I smiled against his lips.

I exited in the morning Nagisa already awake and looking at me I could see deep dark circles under his eyes he had a dazed expression like he could hardly function. I sat on the armrest of the couch where I could see him closer. I couldn’t help but feel concerned for him.  Against my better judgement I eased myself down to go to be near my couch cushion. And hugged him.  I could feel the muscles through his  shirt.  And his warmth and musk felt so good to me. I remembered the dream, why did I dream of that? I’m not sure. I felt  special kind of feeling spread and expand  low on my body. I saw his face he’s so pretty acting on impulse I kissed him. I was surprised when he kissed me back urgently. He grabbed my back and lowered my body to be on top of his on the couch.  I can’t take it anymore I want him his touch his companionship. I want his smiles and flirty comments everything

  My own kisses grew in intensity with my hands up in his shirt while groping his muscles. He broke away to kiss my neck. I shuddered and turned it so he had better access. Then I opened his shirt and kissed his neck. He shuddered and tensed up in pleasure.  I kissed and lightly bit him  going lower. I stopped just above his waistband of his boxers. And kept kissing there.  He let out a moan. It sounded sweet to my ears. I went back up licking his body.  His tremors were a unique form of ecstasy. I somehow managed to take the lead and my tongue was first in our mouth.

 I don’t know how long it lasted but  I leaned above him coming to what I’d just done. His open shirt  exposed chest covered in hickeys, his neck had a few as well.  I’ve never been the dominant one even in my fantasies. I'd imagine if I needed to “take care of business”. I’ve never thought I would be at the top. But most importantly I just had the most steamy time in months of nothing with none other than Nagisa.  Who looked at me with a contentment. 

“Admit it Reid, you like me.” Nagisa’s expression turned smug like he  won.

“Absolutely not.” I crossed my arms and looked away.   “I need to get ready for work now”