Within the sanctuary of my thoughts, a tempest of emotions raged, each feeling a tumultuous wave crashing against the shores of my consciousness. The clandestine affair with Freddy was a tangled web of desire, guilt, and an insatiable longing for a love that defied societal norms. I cannot sit back and allow my brother to be taken by another woman , when I have known him since I was a little girl, a man of peace , a man who knows how to talk to a woman , he is empathetic and he listen , he knows how to sexual satisfy , he goes down on me and he licks me , sucks my boobs and he brings out the woman in me.

As the pen traces these words, it's as if I am unearthing the labyrinth of emotions that have ensnared my heart. Love, that intoxicating elixir, flowed freely between Freddy and me, transcending boundaries set by society, and yet, it was shackled by the heavy chains of guilt and fear.

The love we shared, though forbidden, was an ember that refused to be extinguished. In Ghana , Accra where we live , it’s the strongest survive , let me tell you something about Accra . Nowadays men are scarce and you happen to find a good man , you are good to go but if you get this Circle boys , Madina boys and Tema boys , they will chop you and leave you because now women are every where on social media , facebook and instagram and what is the assurance I am going to equally compete with this women for my brother . I am thick , I have big boobs and that’s all my brother wants. He tells me everyday he enjoys sucking my nipples , kissing me and I have a tight pussy, this is all a man needs to be good in life .

   It ignited within me a fervor, a longing that eclipsed the rationality of societal norms. Our moments together were infused with a raw, unbridled passion, a silent rebellion against the world that deemed our love unacceptable. Imagine waking up to the one you love everyday in the same environment and you can do the fuck you want when your parents are away.

Let me tell a bit about my family.

The Yankys is a family of 6 but 4 of us kids are Abroad , My Dad owns a Media Empire , he into all kinds of media related jobs , such as artiste management , music production , video production and he spends most of his time in the US. So that means me and my brother have the whole house to ourselves because mum wont like to see Dad go and start fucking other people while he is away. My Dad is a polygamous man and my mum is not in support of it. Bassically I can say I am  from a rich family.

Yet, in the quiet moments when the echoes of our forbidden trysts faded, I found myself ensnared in the suffocating grip of guilt. Guilt, not for the depth of my affection for Freddy, but for the turmoil our love had wrought upon our family, for the impending storm that loomed over our heads, threatening to unravel the fabric of our lives. The point here is the gateman which is our security guard caught us kissing oneday and we all fear oneday he is going to talk and that will brings chaos in this family.

The fear of discovery clawed at the edges of my consciousness like a relentless predator. The thought of our clandestine affair exposed to the harsh scrutiny of society sent shivers down my spine, a chilling reminder of the precariousness of our existence within the confines of our home.

I, Asantewaa, grappled with an emotional labyrinth, torn between the ecstasy of our forbidden love and the anguish of its potential consequences. It was a battle waged silently within the recesses of my soul, a relentless tug-of-war between the allure of our affection and the weight of societal condemnation.

In the tapestry of my emotions, threads of desire and apprehension wove an intricate pattern, leaving me suspended in a perpetual state of emotional turmoil. And as I continued to chronicle our story, I yearned for a semblance of peace, a respite from the ceaseless storm that raged within me. Yoofi our security guard has been placed on salary by us to keep his mouth shut on our relationship but for how long will this continue , this is what gives me sleepless nights.