I feel a whole lot better this week. And I do what I said. I journaled though not every day. It has been a long time since I journaled, but it feels perfect and almost too good to be true to write things out and make sense of them outside of spiraling in your head. That was very helpful. But I know I'll forget this sometimes so remember: Writing it out does make a difference (even if your brain tells you it won't. It's lying to ya).

I did reach my exercise goal! Even though the bar is very low, I managed to do that. I went out for a walk with my roommate I think... on Wednesday. and on Sunday, I managed to go swimming all by myself. That was good taking yourself out on dates and exercising. I missed swimming so much. Would highly recommend and it does help with weight loss I think.

I bought myself a sketchbook and a box of colored pencils. The colored pencils were amazing~ but the sketchbook sucks. The color was... bad toilet paper colored (it's dark white... I'm not sure how to best describe it but it's like that) and it tears easily making contact with water. But the colored pencils were very good so I guess they cancel each other out. Let me give you a sneak peek of some of the things I've been drawing: 

It makes me feel like I could go back to making comics. Maybe. 

There was a bad time in the week too but as I try to be more conscious of the feeling of being dependent and trying to be (okay with) just being on my own, everything feels like they are in control and it's nice. I'm still a bit (maybe more than just a bit) behind in school, but I feel like making a comeback. Anyway, I want to be okay with making small progress every day and not get to hang up on not making as much progress as everyone else. 

Yep.

Well, there are things I hope you'll do for this week:

- I'm feeling a bit sick. It doesn't feel like something serious but it'd be nice if you (me in the future) can take the time to go check it out. I know it'll take time but just in case you know.

- If I can get 2 school projects done to a new phase that'll be nice.

- Do not spend more than 2 hours a day cooking. 

- Exercise at least 2 times a week.

- And continue with your journal.

It gets easier but you got to do it every day. That's the hard part.

(It's a quote from Bojack Horseman I think).

Anyway, have a good day. Write soon.

P/S: Last week was really long. Like, longer than usual. It's kinda weird how time works.