Hang on Bianca. Let's not get ahead of ourselves. Chris might be bisexual, or pansexual. He doesn't have to be gay, he wouldn't date us if he was gay. Right? No Bianca, do not overthink this. He's not gay. Oh, but what if he was? But he, no Bianca. Do not go there. He loved you. He did, he definitely did. Or he would have broken up with us. Calm the fuck down Bianca. It's fine. He's not even part of our life anymore. So we don't need to get involved. Let's leave these two be. Let's leave them be in their happy little gay, no, their homosexual love. Let him be happy, he deserves that at least. And who am I to judge anyway? People will be people.

It's alright Bianca. Just drink the hot chocolate. That's all that matters right now, the hot chocolate. Damn it, this hot chocolate was good, it was just like how he made it all those years ago. This stupid hot chocolate is making me feel all those feelings again. God, I miss him. Those long evenings with him, just sitting there talking. Or staring at the sunset, or even just lying there in bed together. We didn't need to talk, our body language was enough. That first date was perfect. That first date with him, on that autumn evening. When was it? I can't remember. Oh well, I still remember the most important bits. The restaurant we went to, the seat we sat at, the fun we had together. It was a fairy-tale date, and afterwards, how he said 'I love you' for the first time. That was so magical. 

But now, he's here. Kissing another guy. So what if it's a guy, he's kissing another person right in front of me? Doesn't he feel even the slightest bit of remorse? The slightest bit of shame. Heck, the best days of my life were spent with him. He saw me at my most vulnerable. I can't just forget all of that just because he's moved on. Why can't I move on? Why am I still hung up on the same old guy? The same guy who cheated. On me. With my sister. But, that was just a mistake, right? Surely he didn't mean to, right? I mean what if there was just a huge misunderstanding? Yes, that must be it. A massive misunderstanding. He must have thought we had broken up. We weren't exactly clear on our relationship status right at the end. Yes, it must have just been a misunderstanding, he thought we broke up, he was sad, got drunk, and hooked up with my sister. Yes, it all makes sense now. He's not that heartless and look at him. Look at that happy face. That's not the face of a cheater. Well, for once overthinking had been good for me. Yay, overthinking.

All past feelings aside, I guess I'm happy for him. He moved on. No regrets. Well, none that I know of, but then I don't need to know everything. Hey, Bianca, you know what would be great right now? Stop interfering with your ex's life. He's happy. He's gay, no, well actually. No Bianca. I wish I could be like that someday. A partner just waltzing in, not wanting anything, just a kiss. Sometimes a kiss is enough. They look happy together. In all honesty, Chris looks happier than he ever was with me. Why couldn't I give that to him? Was I not enough? Oh my god, I've been so stupid. I've been denying it the whole time. I guess I knew it was true deep down. Chris never truly loved me. Not like he could love this man. Oh well, the past is in the past now. What's been done can't be undone. But does that mean those were wasted years? All those happy memories, meaningless? No, we still had a good time together. We still got along. Just more like friends, yeah. Friends is the most descriptively accurate description of what we had. Sure we kissed all the time but that was all they were. Just kisses, they didn't mean anything. At least, not to him. Loads of people even doubted that we were actually dating. It just seemed absurd to them. I suppose, when push comes to shove, I really should move on. But damn, is his boyfriend hot. No, Bianca. Do not fall for your ex's new boyfriend. Ok, just get up and leave. You've intruded long enough. 

The outside air is so refreshing. It was nice inside the cafe, but it's nice out here too. Ok, let's check on the bike now. Surely it would be done by now. Oh my god, it's only been 10 minutes. Wow, time really does slow down in your head.

This new revelation was sending Bianca's head spinning. It was almost as if everything Bianca knew was fake. At least she had some things that would stay the same, forever.