The Soul Before: Escape to Paradise (DISCONTINUED HERE, GO TO WATTPAD FOR FULL STORY)
Chapter 10
Chapter 10
Jan 13, 2024
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I couldn't remember most of my dream last night because I was out cold, but there was one thing I remembered: I was somewhere in a small town, and then there were people in hooded wear gathering around a small pool of water. After squeezing through them, I looked in and the moon was reflected in it. The lunar-plastered puddle looked so smooth, like you could drink it like soft silk and wave your hands through it like a plane soaring through a cloud. Then I felt a hand on my back and I woke up, still feeling the touch for a moment like a phantom. We left the hotel a few hours after waking up and got on the road. For a few days, nothing happened out of the ordinary. Trine and I took turns driving, we stopped at some hotels, and Trine paid for most of the food since I was running low on cash. We even stopped by some free exhibits, stayed low profile mostly. There was this one ivory-colored car that we kept seeing over and over again each day, it was always going in our direction, it kept losing our tail though so I'm sure it wasn't following us. After days we haven't found Paradise yet. Figures, I don't know if it even exists or how far it is. Maybe it is...
A wild goose chase...
No, it's not. I know it isn't, because we believe it isn't, we hope it isn't, we pray it isn't, because we know good things are coming to us. We have good things coming. I am Exe, and I believe.
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I sat in the front passenger's seat reading a sci-fi book, looking out the window a few times. The sun was bright and inviting. Sometimes I wish the sun could be on forever. Always comforting people. But then again, it would always be scorching people as well. The last couple of days have been exciting though, Exe is good company and so kind, and Maw... he's Maw, and that's good enough for me. It was nice to have friends again, I haven't had any since the incident. I was always scared that if I went outside He would find me somehow, but I'm not afraid anymore. Exe showed me how to be braver, and all she did was show me care and compassion! I've always wanted a friend like that! I don't care what anyone thinks of me anymore, all I want is trust and goodwill. Not many people remember where they wake up when they arrive in the After, but I do. I was in a field of wheat in the pitch-black night, only the moon lit the way to a town for me. Then I was taken into Seraphix. Wheat is a symbol of resurrection, so I think everyone wakes up in some kind of wheat when they arrive, but only I remember this experience, everyone else just starts making a life for themselves and forgetting the rebirth. But for me, the rebirth was the most important part, where I met the Moon and was almost torn apart, all in one week. But I have escaped, forever. I am Trine, and I am free.
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My brain is chaotic, and I'm sure everyone knows that. I can't even keep to myself, and when I do I always have to keep myself in tune with the world. Tapping my nails, licking my teeth, grunting, anything to not get totally lost in my head. Sometimes I wish I could just stop, just stop everything and shut everything up and just lay down forever, looking up at the sky, gnawing at the inside of my cheeks and thinking, but the world isn't like that, huh? You have to do things. I woke up dead knowing that I had to find something, I didn't know what at first, but I had that longing, pinching feeling you feel when you have a fight with someone and you don't talk for a while. Everything I've gone through to try to tame this feeling has made me into what "angels" call "a bad person". I don't fricking care if you don't like how I talk, how I walk, how I dress, how I cry. I'm a person too, not a machine, not an item, not something to use. Frick the world, frick everything! I'll kick Deadlife in the arse before I'm done with it! Haw-haw-haw-haw! On this trip to the Paradise place, I've been hitching a ride with these two girls, Exe and uh… Trine! Yeh! So they both are a bit annoying, mostly Exe. She's been getting on my nerves. We're really different, but.. she did comfort me when I was.. well.. crying in the bathroom a couple days ago. As much as I hate to admit it, I appreciate that. Sometimes I catch myself gazing at her, an' sometimes I catch her staring way too much at me... with her gold-colored, lovely looking eye... W-WAIT WHAT? The hell did I just say..? You know what, n-nevermind. I didn't say anything about her, she's whatever. Everything's whatever. I am Maw, AND I SAYS: FRICK THE WORLD!
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I have been traveling for some time, forgetting so many things. Am I speaking right? Am I walking right? Will I ever be right? I have been studying these adolescents for a few days, is watching right? Sometimes it feels like watching a TV show. Is that wrong? I guess I should wait until it is the right time to meet them, I do not want scraps to be left when I try to converse with them. The vanishing revolves. I am Jinxaro, you do not know me yet, but I am the spider. The neon spider of instability.
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"Somehow it happened."
Exe has died and woke up in Nexternity, an abstract world that houses billions of reincarnated creatures from Earth. Everyone has a new body which is based on their life before, but Exe does not remember anything from her last life or even the cause of her death, which isolates her. She goes on an adventure to find the "Paradise", a glorious refuge for people like her. As she travels, she meets zany and mysterious friends and outlandish and horrifying nightmares, quickly realizing that this isn't just a journey to a new home, but a journey to free herself and her peers from the grasp of corruption.
This is a story about love, hate, hurting, healing, and most of all, acceptance.
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