I lay on, it is last day, It felt like a fraction of a second. I sleep and wake up only to eat and use the toilet and sleep. That is all I do. The day is gonna come soon I have to do something...but

I just don't want to...It is fine here. I will ask him to extend the stay further. The caretakers here are not responsive as him, I don't even know his name, but I trust him.

Goulen who doesn't come to visit me despite all the calls he tried. I just realize after ten days that I am worthless, I should have realized it sooner. My eyes get watery, and I get too emotional these days, crying in front of others. Then words came in front of me.

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User: Fenri

Age: 39

HP: 35

AP: 5

INT: 9

SKL: None

LVL:3

RNK:-

EXP:10/25

Currency:43

Quest:

Basic Training (20 push up, 10 situps, 10 crunches)

Reward:

Ap+2;15 EXP

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The System's 'alarm' to do exercise, I know I will feel good but I have to the exercise...I just can't.

It is the same feeling I get when I try to think about my past...

The emptiness....I...I... don't want to feel it again. The tears fall from my eyes.

I don't want to go anywhere. I will just die here.

Caretaker: "Sir I brought you Lunch."

Some random caretaker again.

"Why did enter WITHOUT my permission, atleast he wouldn't do that. -"

Caretaker: "Sorry sir , I heard you talking I thought-"

"I don't need your excuse, I don't need your food, I don't want ANYBODY coming even near this room.". He is not here for work today too. Of course. It is been three days since he came. Where the hell is he?

I need to take a breath. I buried my head into the pillow as I saw the painting.

I should have known, no one in the world loves me, and no one even wants to look If I don't have the money.

Why only now do I know,

"WHY" am I "SO FUCKING STUPID"

uhh, I feel like my my my head would burst. I scratch it as if it will heal me. "Ahh!!!!"

I just...want to... fuckin die. Suddenly I felt the emptiness. Not again. I will-

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I woke up, my bedsheets all are torn off, and my pillow is wet. I was crying at night but I did not remember it. I only felt emptiness. It is already evening. It is fine I will just sleep, It will be fine, if they want money they will ask...

NO! I will just keep it on the table just so if they want they will take it. There is food kept on a table long ago, but I am going to not eat it.

It is fine, I would rather die in this comfy bed rather to die on some street.

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I want to go bathroom...It is almost the only thing I do when I wake up.

These torn bedsheets started to feel heavier as days goes by. Whenever I felt hot, I want to take it...it is hard to describe but without it, I just can't close my eyes.

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User: Fenri

Age: 39

HP: 28

AP: 1

INT: 6

SKL: None

LVL:3

RNK:-

EXP:10/25

Currency:43

Quest:

Basic Training (20 push up, 10 situps, 10 crunches)

Reward:

Ap+2;15 EXP

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The system again, is the only thing that needs me, I have to do it for that reason itself. I took off the bedsheet from my upper body, I can't get up, my back pains. I can't do that exercise. I have to eat the food on the table.

I took the plate from the table and there were two cockroaches on that. I threw that. I will not eat that. I will just drink the water. That was fine.

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I don't know how many days have passed but I have to stop it but I can't do it. At least they give food and water from time to time. I have to stay here. But then how I can do that? I kept the money on the table. I feel weak I will just close my eyes-

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What is that something moved something...The money on the table is gone. te te I should have known Just now the time got over.

Expected. At least they gave food. I took the food and shake the food under the bed and kept the empty plate. No one cares!

If I woke up then Why would I? I buried my head in the pillow as I looked at the shepherd taking the goat by its horns. No one needs to come. "no one."