She looked at the maid who entered and it was different from the one who came earlier. Though dressing up in such a dress took her a while, it was excellent. She dressed exactly as she designed the personalities of Selena Solen Alvadiz. 

The design she wore is more of a spring type fashion, so it's not too heavy, nor too light. It's more casual than luxurious, and it's something that can be worn through spring time. Not to mention the less decorations of this outfit, so she didn't think she needed to wear attractive jewels for something.

She peered at the maid, whose head was looking down from the carpet floor. "Call my secretary," she said, and the maid nodded before she left. 

There was something she needed to ask. Since she's the empress, she’s worried that there are works pending under her name. She didn't want to do so much for a day, since she had not got a chance to adapt in this world. 

Complaining doesn't get her no good as well. Besides, is there someone in her previous world that she didn't want to leave behind? Maybe there are still people waiting for her or grieving for her to wake up. 

Maybe, perhaps, she's even stuck in her apartment, but that won't happen. Before she came here, she was talking to her editor. He must have heard her from falling to the ground and he might have gotten to check her well-being.

Not just her editor. A lot of people still hate to see her dead. So even if she didn't leave any family behind, she considered her team and fans as her beloved family. So, she couldn't help but to be desperate to find a way to go back. 

Besides, this is the year Selena lost her daughter from premature labor. Selena took that child during her early birth, and she sent that child away when she was an infant. That has happened this year, but she looked a little embarrassed, as she was the one who made Selena throw at a baby. 

'How could she make her do that!?' She asked herself as she carefully looked at the white silver ceiling in her chamber. The reason she did that was because of her husband. Despite being able to give birth to an heir, she was pushed by the empire itself. 

They wished for a male, a man as the heir. The birth of a female was a taboo, and that taboo made even the emperor look at her indifferently. She went crazy after she gave birth, and the emperor never visited her palace. 

Maids had rumors about the emperor looking for a wife, because he said that he'd want to divorce her. In that case, the empress loses her mind, and she throws her child away upon birth. 

For an entire year, she had been said to have gone wild as to slap the servants faces, and fire anyone she didn't like. She didn't even hesitate to kill someone or even herself. So, the empress dowager didn't like her because of the trouble and immoral acts she had done to embarrass the Imperial Family. 

Despite Selena's evil doing, the emperor didn't punish her. He turned a blind eye, either ignoring her pleading, or even her cry for his affection. That man remained cold, even after his wife's death.

At that moment, before she went mad, Selena is known to be workaholic and she spent almost her entire time studying and working to insure the empire’s remaining prosperity. 

The one year delay must have caused a lot of rockets. 'She had no choice but to act like one despite those circumstances,' she can't believe that Selena had to go through such thoughts.

After a while, her door opened and a man and another maid carefully entered the room. The man looked down as he followed the maid through the empress balcony where she decided to have a quick tea rest. 

The man came in as the maid gave a signal and he bowed. "Greetings to the empress, moon to the empire, I am Derrick Henry, and also your secretary, it has been awhile."

Selena looked at the man before she nodded. "Thank you for coming despite the duties I have left, please have a seat," she said as she pointed at the empty chair in front of her. 

The secretary, Derrick, didn't know what was happening. Instead of asking, he chose to approach the empress with caution since her rumors about going crazy had spread across the empire. 

A wrong move can end his career as a secretary. He sat on the empty chair even though he kept his head as low as possible. When the empress sighed, he didn't bother to look. 

Selena nodded. She understands her circumstances where even common people were afraid of her, or the things she can do. 

"Do the duties remain under my position?" She asked. 

The man carefully shifted. He didn't understand her, he wasn't even aware that she's interested. Usually, he will tell the maids of her schedule yet he never bothered or sometimes it was better for him to avoid the empress.

Now, 'she's asking him?' and it's quite overwhelming.

He swallowed. "Your schedule for today is fairly long, your majesty, you personally have to hear reports from all of the councilors and the trivial problem that is accustomed to your part of work as the empress of the empire."

She looked at him and she discreetly shifted. While her hand was holding the tea cup that was an inch from her lips. She’s supposed to be the one responsible for the ledgers, and affairs internally inside and out but her absence had caused massive setbacks. 

Her schedule today is the real one. She remembers that the schedule that the former Selena was receiving are all Tea Party invitations, and anything that is worthy of her convenience activities. Some crucial schedules had been attended by a representative in the empress favor. 

That was the only way he could subdue the empress from her overwhelming schedules. 

"Reschedule them, and empty my schedule from this time to a few hours in the afternoon. I will be visiting the church right now, so put my schedule from the morning that is trivial to work in the afternoon while the schedule that is important will be rescheduled tomorrow."

The instructions were clear and loud. He didn't miss anything amiss, but he couldn't help at all as he carefully looked at the empress who's rumored to have gone mad. Her tune, and even her behavior had suddenly changed.

It is something he didn't understand. The empress sounded more sane, and she's not even angry at him. There is something wrong, and he could tell it. The radiant of the empress' face had touched his eyes, and when he looked, he was lost at her images. 

"Derrick?" She murmured but the secretary was dazed by her beauty.

She coughed. "I... Are my instructions clear?" She utterly sought it. 

Derrick who was captivated looked away, he started blushing which made Selena confused. "If I asked so much, please tell me, I will try to change my ways from now on," realizing that maybe she demanded so much that Derrick couldn't do it. 

"Ah, please no, your majesty, I was just in a daze for a while, I have heard the instructions and I will soon do it," he said as he marched from his seat. 

Selena smiles and she bows. "I apologize for the immediate request, so I do appreciate the understanding."

Derrick tilted, he is aware that she's not even born cruel, or mad. Before she lost herself, the empress was the most hard working person in the entire empire, she was polite and kind but after the loss of her daughter, madness might have killed her inside. 

Now, she looked so unusual. It's not the same empress she had seen a few months ago. She looked strange, or back to herself. 

"Your majesty, I am just a mere secretary and I am to assist you with the best as I can. We haven't seen each other since but I believe the empress wasn't mad, she just lost her child from a cruel and unexpected incident."

Selena froze, her body couldn't move. 'It's not true, Selena threw her away, she was afraid,' she wanted to tell him that but her lips wouldn't open. She didn't want to reveal the real truth, that she tried to kill her child.

Yet, this man knew how much Selena had felt. Is it guilt that made her want to go back to her own world? Did she not want to modify the story she herself had written? Or perhaps she wanted to amend her destiny? 

At first she just wanted an answer. Now she didn't know how to even live within this reality. 

She hated it, she hated this world, herself as an author, Selena and everyone in it. Despite that, she had chosen her priority and that is to seek her answer, then can she correct her destiny?

She carefully nodded. "I'll be doing the work starting tomorrow, so you must rest assured!" 

Her determination had reached Derrick's heart and he nodded happily. The empress is not mad, he always believes in her ability to seek solidity and reform to what she is rightfully. It's always been his wish for the empress to see the truth again, so that she can lead the empire as she had always done.

"Let me eternally guide you!"