Little by little, she started to notice God more. She saw his light and protection. She started to have a very beautiful dream in which she knew about God since before:
Everything was in light while she was walking towards Jesus, and then suddenly out of the darkness she heard a voice:
“STOP!”– a small voice said.
Jesus turned to see everywhere, searching for the one who was calling him, until he looked down and saw a little girl!
She looked up so she could be able to see him, she saw him and he saw her then she saw from where she was coming from, so she return back to see him and then she said:
“Sorry, can I go with you?" - she said while looking directly at him.
Then he looked at her and smiled, he did a nice gesture where he put his hands on his waist and then looked down to see her. Until he bent down, touch her hair and took her with him until they arrived with God.
And then God asked her: “What is it that you want?”
Then she answered: “Oh! GOD! Let me love you for all of eternity”
AND GOD SAW THAT THE LIGHT WAS GOOD How He wished to have a daughter, so much that in an BIG BANG the world was created.
BECAUSE THAT BIG IS THE LOVE A FATHER HAS FOR HIS DAUGHTER!.
The woman was able to see Jesus again: “Welcome Back” and with open arms he received her.
He never abandoned her. At last with their encounter she found out that she was destined to go to heaven, but she lived in a cage.
As simple as that, she had forgotten who she was. Only in the light she was able to encounter salvation, a mild sense of sadness was felt in her because of liberation, only in his presence was she able to be saved.
Jesus gave her a good treatment, he tied her hair, he carried her, took her with him and they talked to each other.
Then he asked her if she wanted something:
“Someone who believes me” she answered and he laughed a little bit.
“Something else? He said, while he carried her in his back.
“A boyfriend who can take out demons”, answered the woman, he laughed a little bit more.
It was really nice for the woman to be in his presence. From the bottom of her heart, she was thankful for the time she was able to be with him.
You see, one thing the woman understood is that Jesus suffered more for her than what she had suffered for all the things that were happening to her. He tried to reach her from the very beginning, there were signs, dreams and visions, so she could be able to see him, but she didn't understand that God was looking for her.
He hugged her and told her with great pain: “This isn't over yet”.
She now didn't have any doubt that Jesus love us more than the last breath of life he gave for all of us on the cross, and she was very thankful to him, because he loved her and she was in love with him.
Time went by and some trials appeared for her: When she saw the classmate that had hurt her, caught in a black fire, her classmate couldn't handle the pain of the flames.
In honesty with herself she questioned:
“I handled this for 8 years and she wasn't even able to handle 5 seconds”.
How can she even handle an eternity in the flames? The woman questioned herself.
“I forgive her,” she responded. “I don't wish this on anyone”.
You see, the anecdote that the woman gives us today is this one:
She considers that forgiving someone means being able to share a meal with the person who hurted you and treat them with the same love and fervor you do with your loved ones.
She was her classroomare, her friend, until the day they stopped being friends, but that didn't mean that she didn't care for her. Many times she waited for her to be honest with her, because she admired her creativity, her talent and the capacity she had to be able to aim for what she wanted, she really loved her.
So the woman prayed for her, for her health, for her family's well being and for her to one day be able to give Jesus the opportunity to really enter in her life so she could be able to be saved by Christ. Yet in her honesty, this wish was mixed with the tiredness about all the things that happened.
The woman had a secret, she knew from the very beginning what was happening, but she didn't want to believe that there could be this much evil in the people, she also did not consider herself to be that important as to accept all the things that were happening. She denied reality.
What she couldn´t understand up until this day was:
“What did I do to deserve this?”.
The trials continued, one of them was finding out who fed her the thing that cause her witchcraft was her ex boyfriend. She didn't know what exactly happened. She only remembers a slice of red velvet cake that didn't taste good. Again in honesty with herself, she ask herself:
“How much pain did I cause to him to deserve this?”
But she forgave him out from respect of the love they once shared.
The woman made a prayer, so that he would be fine, for his career bore fruit, so he could be able to love with a bigger fervor than the one he once had for her. For someone to come to him to give him all the love he needs so he never has bad thoughts during the day ever again and for him to be able to give the chance for Christ to enter in his life.
You see, the woman's thinking was:
“I loved this man and for the respect of the love I once had for him, I am not goinf to love anyone else".
A little voice in her heart attempted to take responsibility for failing God, because she was no longer a virgin.
“It's my fault, please forgive me, I am no longer going to love anyone else”. Very deep in her remained this thought.
She knew how to love others but she didn't know how to love herself. She didn't know how to appreciate herself either. She punished herself because she thought she was responsible for the feelings of the other people, she considered that to be self forgiveness.
That's the reason why she disconnected herself as she was exhausted, she continued to live in a cage without any rest.
