I like to pretend I’m okay

But I’m not

I like saying that I’m fine

But I’m not

I want to believe that nothing is wrong

But I can’t

I want to believe that everything will be okay

But I know they won’t

I like to smile

But it’s never real

I like to laugh

But  it’s never real

I don’t want to cry anymore

But I can’t

I don’t want to keep feeling this pain

But I know that will never happen

I want to be okay

I want to believe that I’m fine

I want to stop feeling this wretched pain

I want to stop crying

Will I ever feel happy?

Will I ever be okay?

Will I never stop feeling this way?