I- I- I have... I... What have I done...

 I didn't mean to... I swear... Promise...

Oh Shit! What have I done...

 It wasn't my fault. He-He came to KILL ME! I simply defended myself. I never meant to... Fuck, fuck FUCK!

What have I done... It was an accident I swear...

 He attacked me... I simply PUSHED him. I didn't think-

 NO, he wanted to rob me! I have done no wrong!

 The man was going through my stuff. He had an ax! He would have killed me! I know it! Given the chance, he'd... He definitely would have...

Right?

 Or maybe... He was simply hungry. He never attacked. Showed no aggression. I... I panicked...

 Twas an accident is all... I never wanted to-

 How could I have known? I never thought... With my lack of skill... Lackluster prowess...

How was I supposed to know! How could I have imagined it?

 What had changed me so... Raised me, for a simple Kinetic push to turn so lethal???

 Never before... It has always been so... Puny.

 The sneers and mockeries... All true- Incredibly so! There is no way I could've done... this.

NO NO, I would have never known! He might have meant to kill me afterward! There is no proof... Of either-

STOP THIS INSOLENCE! This is justified! I only defended myself! Only defended what's mine! This was for survival! The winter cold pushes us all. To commit an act as this... is... Surely, it is-

 By the Gods! What have I done! How did I...

 The University was right... No better than lowborn- I'm no better than the swine they raise. No more than mud behind a nail.

 By the Prophet, I beg You! Forgive Me! For I have broken the Vow of Peace! Please... Forgive...

I knew it... This is what it is. For all that I've done. The cold winds, biting my clasped palms- A punishment! To be born as ''this.'' To exist as I am. For forsaking them, years ago...

 They are right to purge-

nonononononono No NO NO! FUCK THAT!

 Fuck them! Screw this engraved fanaticism! No prayer saved them, no plea kept them breathing, nor did it this man!

 They perish due to inability. Powerless in the face of starvation! Too fearful to oppose the purge!

 The culling of the weak, by the weak!

 The fools, who dwell within the world's ignorance, scraping together just to survive. Idiots, all of them! None should exist.

 Yet, I still exist. I have what it takes. I was born to have POWER! I was born to LEARN! I AM POWER- I POSSESS THE VERY RIGHT TO WIELD SUCH POWER!

 Because I already do...

 He... The man never saw me, only heard me at his last moments. His own stupidity failed him. I was smarter. It was his fault for being unable to avoid the force. His powerlessness killed him! Just like the rest of them.

 I did this justly! To survive! To learn! To prove my very existence! Such an act is only the ''Evil'' necessary for survival.

 SO FUCK THE PROPHET AND HIS nonexistent GOD!

 The crack of his spine proved it! It was a JUSTIFIED MURDER!

 I have the right to exist! I have the power which gives me such a right! And I may as well pull their Prophet from the Heavens to prove it!

 Perhaps a purge of my own...

So why! If I am right. IF this is my rite of power, then why!? WHY!?

With those frozen, dilapidated eyes...

The whispers from the shadows, snickering at me... Dancing with the dry flames...

Why-

WHY IS HE STARING AT ME LIKE THAT!