14-The secrecy
Shawn's pov
It feels like I'm dreaming, I can't believe this is all happening.
I had barely realized that I like Axel but I had already accepted that it would be unrequited love. There's no way he likes me, he's straight or so I thought.
He asked me out on a date. Gosh, it feels crazy that it's happening, I can't help but think it's too good to be true but I also know that it's actually happening, I am actually going on a date with Axel.
"Hey, earth to Shawn?" I shake my head and snap my attention to the guy in front of me, the one and only Axel with his skateboard, oh...
"Oh, sorry, I was just staring off into space," I say embarrassed that he caught me red-handed yet again.
"You were thinking about what?" He asks curiousness in his tone.
"Um, it's nothing." I try to take the weight off of me and he doesn't seem to buy it but at least he lets it slide.
"You're not with the gang today, what's up with that?" My smile instantly drops but I still answer him.
"Oh, I found a way to make them not come to the lockers."
"Nice," He says and I can't help but smile right back, I'm glad that it seems I did well with my little plan of mine.
"Um...so what now? Where are we going?" I say confused, yet quite curious as to where we are going.
"Right, follow me." He ushers me to the door and I follow him but I remain confused.
Where is he taking me?? What does he have in mind? Why's he so unpredictable? I can't figure him out.
As we walk through the hallways, others are looking at us but I hope no one says anything about it.
Eventually, we head outside and I remember how chilly it is today, yeah sometimes I forget it's October after all.
We walk off the school yard and once we're on the sidewalks I get more skeptical.
"Hey, how come you're not using your skateboard?"
"Do you want me to?" He questions back half smiling and I can't help but blush. Gosh, I like how nonchalant he is but right now I really want to know where he's taking me.
"It doesn't matter, just where are you taking me exactly?" I say curious and hoping he'll say something.
"Ah, that's a surprise." He smiles dashingly and even if I'm annoyed I can't help but smile. I really must like him.
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It turns out we are in the woods, the one not far from the school and I recognize it from last time when we did the bonfire thing.
That only makes me more confused.
"Hey, why are we going to the woods?"
"You'll see why." He half smiles and I decide to stop questioning it. If he says it's a surprise I shouldn't question it, who knows what it is?
We continue to walk in the entrance of the wood surrounded by tall trees and overall nature, after a few minutes we stop at a big empty place full of half dirt and grass.
There are no trees in the center but it surrounds it in a circle. In the center, I recognize a kind of an old fire pit. Wait, this was where we did the bonfire the other day!
"Hey, why are we here?"
"Find it peaceful?" Axel smiles.
"Um...Yeah..."
Wait so...does this mean this is where are date is gonna be? I look at Axel half smiling at me and I realize this is it.
"Just to make sure, is this the surprise?" I ask unsure.
"Well, kind of but that's only the beginning." He shrugs. Through, only the beginning?
"Oh...so what do you have in mind?" He doesn't answer but instead, he takes off a blanket from his backpack and puts it on the ground.
He also puts his skateboard next to the blanket and I can only look at him confused. He suddenly sits down and I take it as a cue to sit down.
As I do so there is a wind chill and I shiver. Axel seems to notice and he surprises me by taking off his school jacket and putting it on me.
"What are you doing?" I ask confused.
"You seemed cold so I figured you might want some extra warmth." He says plainly but now I can't help but stare at him only in his white sleek shirt.
"What about you? Won't you be cold?" I say concerned.
"Oh, don't worry about me, I don't get cold easily." He smiles briefly.
"Then...thanks..." I say shyly while appreciating the extra warmth.
"Sure, it's no problem."
Then it quickly goes back to silence. We hear sounds of nature and as I'm welcomed back into my thoughts, I can't help but remember what my dad Garrett said.
When you have the opportunity to get to know him and read the room, you'll be able to tell... If he likes you, I complete the sentence in my mind.
Right! This is my chance!
"Um...do you like nature?" I say and immediately mentally slap myself for sounding so dumb. His eyebrows raise and he fixes his attention on me.
"Yeah, I guess I kinda do. I like how peaceful it is. I don't have to worry about anything and there's no drama." This immediately reminds me of the gang at school.
"Are you referring to the popular gang?" His eyes light up a bit surprised.
"Not necessarily but I guess so. They can be quite the trouble. It makes me wonder how you put up with him." That startles me.
"How do you know I don't like being with them?"
"Oh, I guess it's pretty obvious. You don't seem the type to care so much about popularity." That pinches my heart.
"Yeah...I guess you're right..." I say a bit down and he notices it.
"Well, let's forget about that for now. For now, let's forget they exist." I look straight at him, staring at intense brown eyes. Already startled, that startles me even more.
"Yeah..." I agree a bit off-put by his intense staring at me.
Everything goes back into silence only this time we are staring at each other. It feels odd, yet I can't help but find this closeness so memorizing.
This closeness affects me so much that I oddly yearn to get even closer to him.
I start moving a little sitting closer to him,
and he doesn't react, keeping his stare on me. It makes me shiver, yet I can't help but like how he looks at me.
Then I suddenly feel an urge to kiss him. Though I'm unsure if I should, the only time I initiated was when I was drunk but now I'm sober.
I continue to look in his pool of brown eyes and I can't help but find it odd he's not saying anything.
Then suddenly a hand reaches my chin and leans me forward. I don't have time to react as I suddenly feel his warm breath as our lips connect.
Unsure of what to do, I close my eyes and decide to let Axel guide me.
What starts with a little feather kiss slowly intensifies.
I slowly get the hang of it by following Axel's movements but still not perfect.
Eventually, I sense Axel's tongue on mine and that freaks me out, so I pull away to breathe.
Axel stares back at me a bit confused.
"Um...sorry I'm not used to it..." I say a bit ashamed and Axel stares back at me.
"Right, one of your first kisses?"
"Yeah...I'm sorry I'm not as experienced as you..." I say self-cautious.
"It's fine, no one is good at kissing on their first time anyways." He says and that reassures me, making me half smile.
"Thanks..." He doesn't say anything but still acknowledges it.
As the silence returns we realize we are still sitting right in front of each other, so I awkwardly move next to him instead.
"Hey, the other day I meant it when I said you're good at piano." I look at him startled, yet it warms my heart.
"Thanks...but I'm not that good," I say awkwardly.
"Nonsense, I can tell how much you're in your element when you play piano."
"You think so?" I say a bit surprised.
"Yeah, you should play it more often."
"I always saw it as a hobby but maybe," I say startled by his compliment.
"Who thought you how to play that good?"
"Oh, it was my dad Garrett who had the brilliant idea to enroll me in piano classes and I guess I ended up liking it a bit too much." I smile remembering those classes.
"Cool,"
"What about you? No one really knows you play guitar. How did you learn to play it?" His expression notably darkens and I get a bit concerned.
"It's nothing much, I got it as a Christmas gift a while back but I never really got to play it since
my dad wasn't fond of it. So, I guess it was only in rare times where I would try playing it for fun and I guess that's how I learned how to play the guitar." He says a bit low and I realize that's the first time he mentioned his dad.
"Oh, that sucks. What about your mom?" I say uneasy and it proves to be a mistake.
"My mom died in an accident when I was younger." He says plainly and I immediately regret asking.
"Oh...sorry I didn't know..."
"It's fine, it doesn't matter anyway." He shrugs it off as if it's nothing and I want to say something but he beats me to it.
"Actually, I just realized I forgot something." He stands up and walks to a tree and picks up something.
He comes back with a huge black thing on his shoulder, it seems heavy and it doesn't take long to realize what it is.
He gets rid of the black object and puts it in the blanket, he opens it and it reveals a guitar.
"A guitar? Wait, how'd you get that?" I say quite confused.
"Oh, that's a surprise." He shrugs and that only leaves me with more questions.
He takes the guitar and puts it on his legs as he sits down.
"Wait...you planned to bring your guitar?" I say visibly confused.
"Yeah, I guess I kinda did. I figured it would be nice to bring it here." He gives me a knowing look and I raise my eyebrow confused.
"Yeah, I agree, it's a good place to play the guitar." He stares at me and I look at his guitar and then back at him.
"Um hey...about that...I know it's stupid but can you play me a song..." I say shyly and he smiles.
"Sure"
He takes his guitar and positions it, then he starts playing a song he knows.
He plays it and I observe as he pays close attention to the notes. I also enjoy listening to him, overall making it a good time.
This goes on for quite some time even to the point where it starts getting a bit dark.
Axel finishes another song but doesn't start another.
"Why did you stop?" I say confused but he only gazes at me intensely, creating more questions.
"Hey, I really like you, want to be my boyfriend?" I freeze totally cut off guard by his words.
He stares at me intently and I can't help but feel pressured to say something.
"Um...yes?" I say unsure but suddenly he slightly turns around and surprises me by crashing his lips on mine.
This time around I try to calm my nerves and slowly surrender to the kiss.
I slowly start to get the hang of it but we hear some noise and we quickly push each other away in alert.
"What was that?"
"Shh," He says.
We listen for a few moments but we don't hear anything again.
"It seems like it's gone. Hopefully, it was just some kind of animal, not a person." Axel says.
"Yeah, hopefully..."
Then the attention goes back to the both of us. We both smile.
"Did that clarify things?" He says smiling and I nod.
"Yeah..." I look at him realizing what this means.
Wow...Axel Schneider is my boyfriend...he's actually my boyfriend!
"Want to go for round 2?" He smirks and I instantly blush.
Then I notice the sun setting and it reminds me what time it might be.
"Hey, dinner is soon so I'll have to leave." He gets startled by that.
"Right, I didn't notice the time passing by."
"Me neither" I smile and he does too.
I take out my phone and text my dad Brandon to come pick me up. It turns out it'll be my dad Garrett who will pick me up.
"Hey, my dad will pick me up soon."
"Ok"
It remains silent and it's then it rushes back to me.
"Hey...now that we're dating, how will we make it work?" I say uncertain but luckily Axel takes it seriously too.
We then conclude that we'll have no choice but to keep this relationship mostly private due to the popular gang, this means we won't get to see each other often, although we hope to find more time for it.
It's then I get a text message telling me that my dad is here.
"Hey, my dad is here."
"Oh, ok"
We stare at each other unsure what to do but he surprises me once again by lightly kissing me.
"Bye, see you on Monday."
"Bye"
Before I forget I give him back his jacket, and then I leave his side.
I walk back out of the woods now darker.
As I do so I can't help but be overjoyed, I can't believe he's my boyfriend, it's the first time I have a boyfriend.
At the same time I feel bad that I won't be able to see him until Monday but then again...It'll be nothing. If only I wasn't forced to stay in that popular gang...
Regardless, I leave the woods and I notice my dad waiting in his car on the side road.
I get in the car and not surprisingly, I get drilled in a series of questions by my dad Garrett.
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It was only yesterday but I can't get over that date.
I can't believe I have a boyfriend! And it's actually Axel! Never in a million years did I think I could pull a guy like him!
It already was magical yesterday but just to remind me, he sent me a good morning text this morning. He couldn't be any more perfect.
Relationships is a new things for me but I'm already starting to like it.
So even if I'm usually in a happy mood on Fridays, I can't help but be on cloud nine but I'm quickly brought back to earth.
"Gosh, finally it's Friday today," Tessa says.
"Yeah, finally. Since it's Friday, what about we do something?" Grace proposes smiling.
"Good idea, though maybe it can be different this time around. Wait, we never go to Shawn's house. Maybe we could go there but seriously how come we never go there?" Zayne asks me confused and I freak out a bit.
"Oh...my parents don't like it when others come home."
"Right, your parents are buzzkills," Tessa says rolling her eyes and they all agree except me.
"Ok, so Shawn's house is ruled out, where else could we go?"
They continue talking but I pay them no mind still thinking about yesterday.
Then I notice Axel arriving and I can't help but look at him but I quickly realize that it is a mistake.
"What were you looking at?" Grace asks confused, oh no she noticed...
"Um, nothing..."
"Hmm...is it me or those days you seem happier than usual," Tessa says.
"Yeah, wait I know! Do you like someone, Shawn?" I can't help but smile and I instantly regret it.
"I knew it! You like me! See Shawn likes me!" She says overjoyed and too loudly. Everyone looks at us and Tessa is giving her a cold stare.
"No...it's not that..." I try to deny it.
"You don't have to be shy, I know you like me!" Grace says too happily and that only makes me uncomfortable.
"Oh stop it, don't go assuming he likes you, he might like me too," Tessa says completely forgetting I'm there.
And then that seems to bother Zayne too.
That sparks an argument between the three of them and unfortunately, it's about me.
It goes on for a while as I don't have the guts to say anything.
Then eventually they finally stop thanks to Zayne.
"Yeah, yeah I guess I shouldn't have assumed. Anyways, it doesn't matter. I was starting to forget but I have something to announce." Grace says and that catches my attention.
"As next week is my 16th birthday and Halloween is soon, I will be throwing a huge Halloween themed party at my house on Saturday and you're all expected to attend of course!" She looks at me specifically and I lower my gaze.
Oh no...not a party... I can't even go...I already promised my dads I wouldn't do it again... but I have no choice to go or else the girls will kill me, I don't want to know what Tessa plans to do if I don't do as they ask. Crap, how do I get myself out of this?
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