"Let me jump off this stupid roof!" I shouted as I began to climb over the railings of our roof. I had my eyes all red and puffy from all the crying and I was hell bent on jumping off this rooftop today. Nothing could stop me now.

In the distance, I heard Sydney scream at Caleb to do something, he said something to her which I couldn't make out but I was just a moment away from complete freedom. I wouldn't have to live this embarrassment ever again.

I felt mom tug me towards her while I struggled to just get over the stupid railing. I looked down at the height of our house which was considerably enough to kill me in one jump and if it didn't, I'd get back up and jump off this stupid roof again. The neighbors had gathered and were busy watching with horror as I was trying to end my life. 

I could just see the headlines in tomorrow's newspapers. ' Extra, Extra. Local girl commits suicide because of eternal humiliation'. People would remember me as the most humiliated girl of the century. I would win awards for just embarrassing myself without even trying. 

"Look, Jade. Suicide is never the answer." I heard Sydney speak calmly to me as her hair flew all over the place and she tried to come close to me. Mom was holding me tightly and I had to admit. The woman was strong, I don't know when she got this strong.

"Just let me go. I can't live anymore."

"No, sweetie. Don't do this. Let’s just talk about what happened." Mom suggested as she kept her hold on me by my waist while Sydney was busy trying to make me re-think my decision.

Let’s freeze this over here. This is not the way my day started. My day had actually started on a positive note. I wasn't trying to commit suicide either, so let’s go back to the morning and just continue from there. Shall we?

5 hours earlier:

"Mom, have you seen my striped polo shirt?" I asked as I rummaged through my closet searching for it. I had my lucky jeans on and was just missing my lucky polo shirt. Today was the day, I had to present my project in front of the whole class and I was really nervous. I was never great with all the attention on me and I have a really horrible experience of presenting something in front of the whole class.

I wanted to have all the luck I could get on my side and I was going to do anything to find that damn polo shirt.

"Have you checked your boxer drawers, you always put that shirt in those drawers!?" I blushed a deep color of red as I stood up to go towards my boxer drawers. And as mom said, it was in these drawers. "Thanks mom, for telling everyone that I wear boxers!" I yelled back as I rolled my eyes afterwards getting a 'you’re welcome' from mom.

"Ha ha, you wear boxers." Caleb spoke as he passed my room and I just rolled my eyes at his immature behavior.

I quickly wore it and a satisfied smile came on my face as I examined myself in my closet mirror. "You look pretty amazing, if I must say."

"Who are you talking to?" I jumped in surprise and glared towards the doorway where Caleb stood smirking in my direction. Great, I'm back to being embarrassing again. "Shut up." He just laughed before he went back to his room, maybe to get his car keys, since he was gonna drop me off at school. My car hadn't yet come in and I was still pretty confused as to why it didn't. It had been weeks since we moved to this town and it doesn't take weeks to get a stupid car transported from one place to another.

I grabbed my backpack from beside my bed and made my way downstairs where I could perfectly smell the cooked eggs. Walking into the kitchen, I smiled towards mom who was setting the eggs and toast on the dining table. I sat down in one of the chairs and began to eat as Caleb came back down again.

"Hurry up, I need to get to work." Caleb whined as he sat down in front of me doing something on his phone. I guess, he already had breakfast. Mom poured some coffee into a mug before passing it to him with a peck to the forehead. 

"And don't forget, I'm gonna be late to pick you up today so just wait for me." Caleb spoke without looking in my direction, making me roll my eyes at him. "Sure thing." 

"Mom, can Sydney stay over tonight?" Mom looked at Caleb with an eyebrow raised before she nodded her head. "But make sure that door stays open. And I don't want to hear anything from your room." Caleb turned a deep red as he nodded his head quickly. I laughed at him with my fork pointed in his direction making him glare at me.

"I hope you choke on that." He got up and went to wear his suit jacket before grabbing his files from the living room. Pecking my mom's cheek after I finished my breakfast, I made my way towards the front door, being followed by Caleb.

"Bye mom." I spoke waving at her and she smiled back at me with her coffee mug. I am feeling that today is gonna be a great day. I can just feel it because I feel lucky. 

***

"Wait for me, yeah?" I nodded my head before opening the passenger side door to get out. "See ya later, big bro." He waved at me before zooming away. I turned around and smiled at the school building. People would've totally thought that I was some type of mentally deranged person that is smiling at a school building on a Monday morning. Oh well, let them think what they want. Nothing can change my great mood today.

"Yo, homie." I face palmed just as I heard Tim call out to me from the front of the entrance of the school waving his arm excitedly as if he was on drugs. "I told you never to say that again." I hissed at him with a smile as I made my way towards him. He pouted before he hugged the life out of me. 

"Are you on drugs?" I asked as I looked at him with my eyes squinted. He just giggled at me before he hiccupped. "Nope, I'm drunk." Great, who the hell got him drunk in the freaking morning? 

"And how did that happen?" 

"You see, this girl. She gave me her water bottle and I drank every last drop of it and then everything began to look so much better." He hiccupped again as I rolled my eyes. Great, just damn great. I feel bad or the girl whose alcohol he drank up.

"Come on, you mess. We have history class." I had no idea how he's gonna represent his project but I just can't let him skip class. I wouldn't be a good friend if I just let him get an 'F' in history. 

I grabbed his arm and rested it on my shoulder as I began to walk inside the school building, with my locker as the destination in mind. I had to get my history book out which was in my locker. I was nervous and having to look at a drunk Tim wasn't exactly how I had imagined my morning to be.

"Oh look, your crush." He hiccupped and I instantly blushed when I saw Paige coming towards Tim, well particularly towards me as she was looking at me. I let go of Tim's arm and he fell to the floor with a thud. "Damn it." I muttered under my breath as I bent down to his eye level.

"You dropped me, meanie." Tim whined as a pout was on his face making me want to coo at him and then beat him up. I leaned into him and whispered in his ear with the deadliest voice that I could muster up. "If you speak one word to Paige, I will break your phone into million pieces before shoving those pieces up your ass." 

When I backed away he had his eyes showing utter fear making me smile at the huge accomplishment. "Hi guys." I stood up to come face to face with the one and the, most beautiful, only Paige. "Ha." My lack of speech began to show its presence and I just wanted to disappear from the face of the earth.

Paige giggled before her attention came on a frightful looking Tim who was on the floor with his arms wrapped around his legs. "Hi, Tim." He looked up but didn't speak making me smirk at him. Waving his hand at Paige, he began to stand up with shaky legs.

"I'm a gonna goo." I laughed as he began to walk towards history class. "What's up with him?" I looked towards Paige who had a confused look on her face as she stared at a walking Tim. "Uh, he um ah druh." Paige turned to look at me with a confused look as well. 

"You both are so weird." She giggled again and I just smiled looking at her eyes sparkle when she giggled. I nodded my head dumbly and she shook her head at me with a smile gracing her lips.

"Well, I'll see you in class then. Good luck." She spoke before she began to walk away. I was looking at her go when she glanced back at me while tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. I stumbled on air as she giggled again. Okay, I need to get a stick or something for that.

She finally walked away from me and I sighed before taking my history book out of my locker. I closed the metal door and made my way towards class praying silently. I hadn't drunk anything this morning and I had peed before coming to school so it was all good. I just hope nothing bad happens.

When I reached the classroom, I saw Tim sitting in the back of the class with his phone out and Paige was sitting in the middle of the classroom with her two friends that followed her everywhere.

I walked towards Tim and gave him a smile but he just gave me a glare before pocketing his phone. "Meanie." He grumbled sourly as I sat down beside him and I laughed at his actions. "Okay, I'm sorry." He immediately smiled and pulled me in for a hug that was too tight as I tried to release myself from his clutches.

"Good morning, class." Everyone's attention went towards the front of the class where Mr. Frank stood with a smile and coffee in his hands. "I hope you all are ready for the project presentations." The class groaned out loud but his smile didn't go away as if it fed on misery.

"Who wants to go first?" His question was answered when a glasses girl raised her hand excitedly getting his attention immediately. "Ah, Carmen. Happy to see you as enthusiastic as ever." Carmen smiled over at him before she stood up and walked towards the front of the class.

As she began to speak, I zoned out. I don't have any interest in listening to everyone babble about the dark ages which have clearly ended. I looked over towards Tim who was giggling silently at Carmen. I rolled my eyes at him. It's still pretty hard to believe that some girl would try to get my poor best friend drunk.

"Excellent work. Be ready to get an A." Mr. Frank spoke making Carmen smile wider than she was before and the whole class groaned.

"Okay, who's next?" No one answered and began to make themselves look busy as if they were actually doing something important. I rolled my eyes when Tim began to raise his arm with a hiccup. Damn, he's still as drunk as before.

I immediately grabbed his arm glaring at him while mouthing, 'If you want to get an F and get suspended for drinking, be my guest'. I don't even know how he understood all that because he pulled his arm back down while bowing his head down with a hiccup. I smirked before my eyes went to the front of the class. Well, more like towards Mr. Frank, who was looking at me with his eyes squinted.

"Ms. Bryan, why don't you come next?" Instantly, the whole class was looking at me with their intense staring and I gulped while rising from my seat slowly. I gave Mr. Frank a small smile before walking towards the front of the class. 

'I can do this. I can do this.' I was chanting the same sentence the whole way there as if it was a magic spell. I just wished that nothing bad would happen. 

Once I was standing next to the teacher, he smiled at me before gesturing for me to begin my presentation which just consisted of some important points. I looked around the class and my eyes settled on my best friend, who was waving his arms around wildly while giving me a thumbs-up. I smiled widely as I stared at him before I began to speak.

"The dark ages also known as the middle ages were the period of time when historians didn't know as much as they did in the other eras." I looked around the classroom and this time, my eyes met greenish blue eyes which made my breath hitch in my throat as my inability to form words kicked in.

"Uh the dur ahes." I was still looking into those greenish blue eyes which were now looking at me with worry as the class began to whisper audibly among each other. Mr. Frank coughed which made me look at him. "Is this some kind of joke, Jade?" I quickly shook my head and the whole class was now snickering a little which made me immediately feel the panic and nervousness that clawed at the entrance of my heart asking to be let in.

I stood there speechless as Mr. Frank looked at me with hard eyes. The only thing I knew then was that one moment, I was in front of the class and a moment later, everyone was laughing at me. I felt the feeling you get in your throat when you're trying really hard to hold back tears. It was brutal as it urged me to cry and embarrass myself more than I had already did. 

Mr. Frank began to get the classroom to quiet down but the students were unforgiving as they pointed at me and laughed louder by the minute. The only thing I felt then, was the hot liquid streaming down my thighs and pooling at my feet. The class quieted down for a millisecond, maybe to take in what I had just did, and then the class was laughing louder than before. My vision blurred as the tears began to fall freely, not even minding who saw me like this. 

I looked down at my feet with my blurry vision and the yellow liquid was enough to make me run out of that class, out of that place where I had, yet again made myself a laughing stock.

Once again, I had managed to embarrass myself but this time it was different. This time I had peed myself in front of my crush.

***