“So, how is Euphoria?” Kylie voice brought me back. It has been a long minute that I revisited my memories with John. I swallowed my tea; it has been years since the last time I remembered Damian.
My gaze moved to Kylie’s face, her red hair in a messy bun, looking anxiously at me. I don’t have an answer to her. I haven’t written a single word since my last visit to the doctor three months ago. The same day my marriage ended. “Nothing new.” I finally spoke.
Kylie took a deep breath, trying hard to remain calm. I knew her, trying hard not to spook me. I adore her for her unbelievable patience. When I lost Damian, she was in her family summer house in Lisbon, she flew all the way to Cambridge to get to me. She knew I couldn’t stand staying in the city without him. I don’t recall everything that happened that week. I was told that she simply told my parents that she would take me to Lisbon to the summer house, my father arranged with the Dean that I would take the rest of the year off.
Kylie and John were the only two people I talked to for the first four months. If Kylie didn’t do what she did back then, I don’t think I would ever move on from Damian’s death. And here I am, broken again, in the same summer house but now she owns it.
She rested her back to the couch, holding her cup of tea and looking down. “Anna, it has been over a month since we had that talk.” She looked at me, she was trying hard to separate herself from being my childhood friend, it was my agent talking now.
“It’s too painful to write about him again.”
“I know, it will forever be hard on all of us.” Kylie grew up with me and Damian back in London. She knew how everything was beyond my control. Way beyond my control. “Writing is your way to move on, Euphoria was the best thing you ever write Anna, We can’t just keep it here and not giving it a chance to live.”
“Kylie…”
“Don’t Kylie me, I love John but for god’s sake Anna, you fell out of love for years! You’re just sad that your life with him came to an end, your vows that you made after Damian didn’t stick for too long.”
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