And you're always my friend. His words hang in my head for weeks now, after everything we...no I went through, and he dared to ask me if I hated him. I don't feel anything. He cheated on me for years! And he dared to ask me to stay friends!

I truly don't know. I don't hate him, I couldn't. He has been my rock for years. How can I hate him, we went through a rough patch in our last couple of years, but our history is just... too much to forget.

It all started back in freshmen year.

Anna was excited to start a new chapter in life at her dream college, Harvard. Along with her high school boyfriend Damian. The real example of young deep love, passionate one filled with potential and success. Together they had a dream to go to Harvard and start their life with intelligence and ambition.

On their first days, they met John who quickly became a close friend to both of them. Anna, Damian, and John formed an inseparable trio, their friendship growing stronger with each passing day. They studied together, shared laughter and tears, and supported one another through the ups and downs of college life. John and Damian even became roommates, solidifying their bond from the very beginning.

But life had its own rules. A tragedy struck during their second year at Harvard. Damian's life was cut short in a devastating car accident, leaving Anna shattered and heartbroken. The loss of her beloved and the pain of losing her childhood friend were almost too much to bear. Almost breaking Anna's soul.

The joy of life left her shattered to tiny pieces, hard to breathe. Hard to live. In the depths of her grief, Anna found peace in John's presence. They leaned on each other for support, John became Anna's rock, helping her navigate the overwhelming waves of sorrow and slowly mending her broken heart.

Two years passed, Anna emerged from the depths of her grief, her soul stronger and her heart healing. It was during this time that something unexpected happened— Anna and John realized that their bond had transformed into something deeper. Something neither of them expected.

As they spent more time together, their friendship evolved into a love that neither of them could deny. They felt the weight of their past and the loss they had endured, but they also saw the potential for a future filled with love and passion they thought was gone with Damian passing.

Their love became a source of hope amidst the shadows of loss, and they vowed to make the most of the life they had been given. Years passed slowly, turning their love into a true one that only became stronger when John proposed one year after they graduated.

"So, how is Euphoria?" Kylie's voice brought me back. I has been a long minute that I revisited my memories with John. I swallowed my tea; it has been years since the last time I remembered Damian.

My gaze moved to Kylie's face, her red hair in a messy bun, looking anxiously at me. I don't have an answer to her. I haven't written a single word since my last visit to the doctor three months ago. The same day my marriage ended. "Nothing new." I finally spoke.

Kylie took a deep breath, trying hard to remain calm. I knew her, trying hard not to spook me. I adore her for her unbelievable patience. When I lost Damian, she was in her family summer house in Lisbon, she flew all the way to Cambridge to get to me.

She knew I couldn't stand staying in the city without him. I don't recall everything that happened that week. I was told that she simply told my parents that she would take me to Lisbon to the summer house, my father arranged with the Dean that I would take the rest of the year off.