Coach Fadel grabs them both by the arms, and pauses to scan for more trouble-makers. Ravi stays put. At a distance in front of her is the horse-meat farm across the road, fenced for what looks like acres, where a couple of ranchers are whipping a bony-looking bull over and over until it walks into the trailer, presumably to be turned into glue and "roast beef" sandwiches.
Rancher
(Whipping.) Hyaaa! Get in there, ya damn fool!
Bull
(Panicking and pained.) FRRRRUUUrrrrrr...
Ravi watches miserably as the bull finally submits to its fate, and the trailer is shut. Then Ravi looks down, and at her feet is a rabbit... but something is seriously wrong with it. Out of its mouth are twisted, gnarled black flesh horns, in wayward directions. Ravi's heart jolts, and her eyes go wide.
Ravi
(Freaked out, hushed whispering.) An al-mi'raj?!
Nervous someone will see her, she hesitates to shoo it away, silently
panicking at how gross it looks. Like, all of it... its whole deal.
Yuck.
Ravi
(Pained with disgust.) Oh fuck, you got like... rabbit cancer. That's so nasty, I'm so sorry, little guy. I've been there, technically.
The al-mi'raj looks up at her, and paws closer.
Ravi
(Frowning viscerally.) Ew, ew, ew!! Get away, you little freak!!
Ravi kicks it away, shoving her boot into its little ribcage. It flies a few feet, lands with a soft bounce, and scampers away like it's just been called back to the mothership. Ravi covers her mouth with horror at what she's done, and checks to see if anyone's looking. Her breath is quick, and she squints hard and cringes hard. She spits at the ground in front of her, the smell of viral flesh still hanging in the air... at least, that's what she's pretty sure it is. Unfortunately, it's a familiar smell. She's not even sure where from... just that she knows it intimately, and passively.
After a minute, Ravi looks around again, and the coast is finally clear. She nonchalantly follows Allie into the alcove, where she's crying. Somehow, Coach Fadel didn't spot her... he must have been preoccupied with the dudes. Immediately, Ravi feels a damp, heavy weight on her heart, and it stops her in her tracks. Her feet won't move. Scared of being caught, Ravi awkwardly shuffle-slides her feet until she's out of sight. Allie looks up, tears in her eyes, but mystified. Ravi shrugs, and tries to laugh it off.
Ravi
My... legs weren't moving.
Allie
(Sniffling.) Oh, uh. Okay.
Ravi
I also just kicked a rabbit, which was horrible.
Allie
(Alarmed.) Why would you do that?!
Ravi
(Guilty, gently panicked again.) It
was fucked up! I think it was an al-mi'raj, like Amira said. There were
horns coming out of its mouth. Like a fucking... demon rabbit. It was
after me, alright? It wanted my fleeeeshh.
Allie laughs, but in a "I can't believe you did that" kind of way. Then, silence. Not wanting to appear clingy or malicious, Ravi slides her back down the wall slowly and sits a few feet away.
Allie
(Resigned.) I freak out at stuff too, sometimes. I just had a freak-out, actually, in class. That's why I'm out here.
Ravi
What about?
Allie
I don't even know. Just... everything.
Ravi
(Gesturing a 'go on'.) Like...?
Allie
(Sighing.) Okay,
you asked. The girls here are horrible, at least most of them. The guys
are jerks. The teachers are strict, my parents never do anything for
me, except sometimes my dad, but I can't even tell if he's 'all there'. I
never do anything right. And worst of all, it feels like I'm the only
one struggling.
Ravi
Like
everyone else wants things to be terrible, because it's easier for them
to live in Hell than on Earth, and all it takes to start a fight is to
not want to be in one?
Allie
...yes. Exactly. They all think... I'm some prissy rich girl. Who's fake, and only cares about money. But I'm not like them.
Ravi
Hey, neither am I.
Allie
Yeah, there's no way I could ever bring you home.
Ravi
Home?
Allie
My parents would eat you alive. Haha. They're total wasps.
Ravi
They wish. Wasps can be super nice. Do you wanna get into it?
Allie
Yea- ah, no... not if you, uh, don't...
Ravi
My
foster parents were the same way, sort of. It's always, "we're so nice,
look at us! Big hugs, guys!" Then when your back is turned... SHNK.
Ravi makes a stabbing motion.
Ravi
They're so scared of being shown how terrible they are, they just project onto everyone else. It's all about denial.
Allie
Well, as a show of appreciation for listening, I pre-emptively believe you, and have decided that I also hate your family.
Ravi
Aw, thank you.
They laugh. Ravi notes that she hadn't actually heard for talk for very long up to this point – she has a soft Australian accent.
Allie
You know, you talk a lot.
Ravi
Yeah, I try to keep it to paper. I've got more words in me than my lungs can push out.
Allie
You write... stories? Like Aurion?
Ravi
(Wry.) No, not like Aurion. Mostly just biographical stuff. What about you?
Allie
(She wipes her tears away.) I
uh... I wanna write. I haven't worked up the motivation, yet. Things
keep... slipping away from me. I tried to write this... long-form
fantasy series, or whatever... like a monster war, is what I was trying
to do. It was gonna have vampires and ghouls and magic and karate and
stuff!
Ravi
(Smiling.) That sounds freaking awesome.
Allie
Yeah,
it was gonna be a bizarre adventure, alright. But this other girl in
school, she said she was gonna take my idea and do it first. And then
she did it, for like... English class. She took my idea and got an A+ on
it. It was the most hacked-up, candy-assed version of it she could
possibly manage. It didn't even have any karate, they just talked at
each other about how bad they were gonna beat each other up... for like
five whole pages.
Ravi
Prophet of a generation, damn.
Allie
And
then when I tried to start on it during lunch, she came over with a
bunch of her friends and said I was 'copying her'. They dumped pop on my
notebook and laughed about it – I ended up having to throw the whole
thing out, so it didn't get sticky in my backpack.
Ravi
Who was that?
Allie
(Rolling her eyes.) Harley, the Queen Bee.
Ravi
Ah,
yeah. I know of her. You know, I've got a similar project going, only
mine's already kind of... half done, at this point, I think. If you
wanted to pool our ideas together, I'd be up for it – or I could even
just show you some tricks so you can write your own story how you want
it. I could be someone for you to bounce ideas off of.
Allie
I
never really have the energy, anyway. And my parents are always
drinking, so they don't really have time to go out and get me some extra
supplies in the city. It's too far for me to go by myself, and we don't
even have a supply store here.
Ravi
Well,
hey, alright – most of telling a story is the 'what to say, how, and
why', but the rest of it? It's economy. You gotta tell a story that's
within your means, use as little space as possible for what you really
wanna say. If you can't dedicate all your time to one massive story, you
just sort of... flit through it. Pick a moment, any moment, and just
take a few pages to describe it. Don't even worry if it's the BEST
moment – it's all about stitching moments together. If you focus on
everything that happens, your story gets bogged down anyway.
Allie
(Nodding slowly.) Uh-huh...
Ravi
So
how about some time this week, you and I sit down for your story? I'll
help you with whatever moment you pick, and we'll iron it out together.
And it'll be twice as good as Harley's – I bet she wrote the whole thing
in glitter pen.
Allie
(Grinning.) Pink pen, actually. But good guess.
Ravi
(Laughing warmly.) Haha.
They look at each other for a moment, and Allie turns red. Ravi's face drops a little, realizing she may be having an effect. Like her mom has on people. She decides to dial it down a little bit – she wouldn't want to lead someone on when they've probably got other ideas about other people. Besides, didn't Allie just break up with Thor? You can't just hound after people and their exes just because you feel alone. Ravi looks at Allie again, who seems to be recovering from the red on her face, but now Ravi's is starting up. If she does what's on her mind right now, this girl's gonna run away screaming.
Allie
So you write biographies, I guess?
Ravi
(Snapping back.) Uh, yeah!
Allie
Do you just remember conversations, or what?
Ravi
Sometimes.
Other times, I record conversations with this little gadget I got for
my last... I mean, twelfth birthday. Especially if they're telling a
story. I always get permission, though. I just don't clutter up the page
with me saying, "Can I record you?" and stuff. Then I edit some words
to protect their secrets, shape up dialogue, that kind of thing.
Allie
That's really cool. I read, a lot. I'd totally read your stories. Are you... recording right now?
Ravi
Oh, shit! Yes. It's been on since my last class. I was using it to make sure I didn't miss any notes.
Ravi fumbles in her pockets for the device, and tries to shut it off.
Allie
My parents would be so pissed to find out what I said.
Ravi
Yeah, I'm not gonna repeat that. Your secret is safe with me.
Provided they can't read. Ravi is aware, from having read stories of her ancestors past, that secrets are a matter of discretion – and sometimes, the best thing to do is to let them go. She grits her teeth, hoping she'll never have to repeat anything that was said... but for the sake of telling a story that actually helps people, by airing out their problems where they can't rot or mold, she might just have to one day. Even her own secrets, dark and twisted as they can sometimes be, will eventually have to face the sun, so they can be sanitized by ultraviolet. Even worse – she might have to let out a secret that was never stated in the first place, because it was heard without anyone having spoken at all. Much like journalism, sometimes the words everyone needs to hear are the last words anyone wants to hear out loud... or have heard. And by virtue of having heard them, the audience is just as compliant in their unwanted revelation as the person who did the revealing. The reader is just as guilty as the writer. And sometimes the genie doesn't go back in the lamp.
Allie
(Relieved.) Okay, that's good.
Ravi
(Nervous, but playing it off.) Hey, you wanna see something cool?
Allie nods.
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