"Maybe... I have not been as kind as God wants me to be..." She sighs leaving her second account and texting The Trio to just leave Iara and Lily alone, she is just a girl like any other with a family that loves her, Anastacia doesn't want to be the reason she is not smiling like that in school. Tomorrow morning she is going to apologize and maybe invite them both to have lunch again, that way the no talking game is over and maybe they can have new beginnings.
The next day comes, with Iara and Anastacia anxious for two very different reasons, the former just wants to see Anastacia lose her mind when the news drops and the latter wants to find the courage to apologize. As they both sit down Iara has a big smile on her face when she waves to the cheerleader, Anastacia also smiles believing things won't have to be that hard. She tells Carol she is going to try the peaceful resolution and gets up feeling all the eyes on her like usual, this time there's more whispers, she sits down and a very cheerful Iara greets her.
"Hallo!! I don't know what is happening, but we promise to help you ok?!" Lily says trying to hide a laugh with her hands and Anastacia gets more confused by the second, she bites her bottom lip and sighs, it's hard to let go of her ego and apologize, if she's being honest she wants to punch the smug smile out of Iara's face, but trying to do what she learned in church she says.
"Thank you... I guess, but yeah I just wanna like..." Her apology is cut short before she can finish it, because Carol got up from her chair screaming.
"Caralho!! Anastacia did you see this shit?" In less than two seconds Carol is over at Iara's table showing a new post on Gossip At Saint Damian, there's a picture of Anastacia at Liam's party side by side with Iara in the same party. Anastacia looks neutral standing there without moving while Iara appears to be dancing between four people the caption reads "Iara and Anastacia were in Liam's party and Iara claims that she saw Iara buying WEED, from a drug dealer, when questioned Iara said "We should not ignore the mental and physical problems drugs can cause, we should all pray for Anastacia, she must be in a terrible place right now, sending love, Iara" we think she just wanted to have a little fun ahahahahaha"
Anastacia takes a moment to really understand what is happening, she looks from the phone to the smile on Iara's face and at moment all the doubts about the existence of god vanishes, because only Him could stop her from jumping on top of the girl in front of her, she can now hear that the whispers were not from jealousy or fear, they were worried. Her jaw tenses up and tears begin forming in her eyes, before she can think she is dragging Iara by the wrist, the smaller girl doesn't resist smiling with the anger in Anastacia's face, they get into one of the janitor's closet closing the door behind them, they are in a small space where they can't move comfortably, between cleaning supplies in shelves and a painting of Jesus Anastacia's face is burning with heat and the rage, regret and embarrassment are running wild in her veins. She lets go of Iara's hand and she tries to keep her voice down, saying.
"What is wrong with you? You got a problem with me or something?" Iara's face goes from amused to confused, she laughs, passing her hand through her hair and stepping away from Anastacia.
"Yeah I got a problem with you, I thought that I made that very clear saying I was gonna destroy you, but don't worry, I'm doing you a favor, maybe I even tell Father Michael be-" Iara can't finish her sentence because Anastacia's fist hits the wall behind her, a cleanex falling from the shelves behind her. Anastacia gets really close, holding iara's collar and bringing her closer, the cheerleader eyes are burning with even more anger than before, her lip trembling and Iara hates to admit it, but she is still gorgeous even when she is almost killing her.
"Don't even think about that. You have no idea what... look I..." She sighs leaving Iara's personal space, she closes her hands to stop them from shaking and IAra assumes she is going to get punched in the face this time but Anastacia seems to calm down a little when she keeps going. "I don't wanna fight ok, I got you, you got me, let's forget each other and keep going with our lives ok?"
The truth is that Anastacia is terrified of what could happen if her father learns of this, she wanted to stop because it didn't feel right, now it would feel awesome to crush Iara. But if she has the guts to do something like this, nothing guarantees that she is not going to tell the Pastor everything.
Iara can't hide how surprised she is, she never expected to have a peace offering so soon, her immediate reaction is to say yes, but when she opens her mouth she can't say anything. She remembers the day before where every time she would remember her parents she would just focus on new ways to piss off Anastacia and she actually had a good day, ignoring the forty minutes she spent crying in the shower. Iara bites her bottom lip just like Anastacia did and moves closer holding the chin of the cheerleader and says with a raspy voice almost whispering.
"No way... you started this, we are gonna finish it the right way, Ana." Anastacia mistakenly focused too much in the way she said it and how Iara's voice made her shiver, the cheerleader stops completely almost like her body fully froze, after a second her first reaction is to push Iara away, her back hits the wall and Anastacia points a finger in her face while backing away, she tries to keep her voice firm but it's still a little broken when she says.
"Fine, have it your way, when I'm done with you, you will be begging for my mercy like the fool you are.." She opens the door and quickly leaves the room leaving Iara very confused. She puts the cleanex in its place and mutters to herself while leaving, one hand rubbing her neck.
"Pissed her off so bad she became Daenerys..."
Iara gets to the classroom and sees the teacher already there, she knocks and after complaining a little Mrs Diaz lets her inside. All the eyes are following her, especially because Anastacia is not back, the first thing that happens is Lily almost getting up her chair so she can whisper to Iara.
"So? Did you guys fight? Should I get ready to throw hands? Did you guys kiss?" Iara slowly shakes her head no and whispers back with a soft smile on her face.
"We basically fought again, and we are never gonna kiss, she literally has The Homophobia in her blood. Let's focus on this class, I will tell you everything later."
Lily does not focus on her class, always taking her phone and checking what people are saying, checking Anastacia's twitter and Instagram and when she finds nothing it feels even worse than having an answer. Iara has fun in class trying to learn what she can, but she misses the questions Anastacia has,they would always help her understand a little bit better.
Anastacia is, for the first time in her life, skipping class. She can't go back and look at Iara again, she knows she will break down if she does. She sits under a tree hugging her knees and looking down, she feels like everything is moving too fast, last week she was happy to start a new school year and now she has to worry about some tattooed girl from hell destroying everything.
"Hey girlie, you ok?" Josh says with a worried tone sitting down by her side, he was having a meeting about the championship instead of classes so he is also probably skipping it. It doesn't take long before she is hugging him very tightly and a surprised Josh is stroking her hair trying his best to comfort her. "I assume... you're not ok right..."
"I... I think I'm gonna go to hell" She hides her face in his chest and he almost laughs at how random this news is. Josh thinks a little and says trying to maintain a gentle voice.
"You aren't, but why would you think that huh?"
Anastacia doesn't immediately say. She remembers what was happening in the janitor's closet. She remembers when she grabbed Iara's collar and for some reason she liked how close they were. Her lips seemed so inviting. But she excused that for being angry and not thinking straight. But when Iara came so close to her and touched her chin, it was like a jolt of electricity running through my body. Her heart was already running from being angry, but she couldn't even feel it.
Looking back now, she knows that if she didn't run away immediately she would have kissed Iara.
If she didn't run away, she would've done so much more than kissing.
Her voice sounds a little shaken, almost as if she is not sure of waht she is saying. "I'm gonna go to hell... because I'm gonna kill Iara Gloser."
Anastacia does not even actually care about the gossip around her, nor about how she is going to solve it, but she feels her toughts hammering all the desire she felt for Iara, the desire quickly intertwining with the guilt. She needs to destroy Iara.

Comments (0)
See all