Orion struggled to remember most of his childhood. Sometimes he would remember things and other times it was a glaring black hole in his memory. It wasn't always like this, or perhaps it was. A significant portion of the time Orion did not even know he was missing anything.

Whenever something important came up requiring him to remember, Freyaa would often be the one to help him fill in the gaps. Sometimes he would have those memories when he needed it almost at random. This issue was the least of his concerns at the time.

There was never one single thing that led to his struggles, but rather thousands of little things. Freyaa too was unaware of the full scope of it, despite being twins.

Even when he was much younger, Orion was often inside of himself, ignoring the world around him in favor of the fantasies within his head.

He adopted several 'modes' of being to traverse through life. At least he referred to it in this manner at the time.

He had a work mode, in which he focused on the task at hand with a strict focus. He had a play mode, in which he let loose and enjoyed the world around him. He also had a more mischievous side where he would tease and play pranks. Much like any other kid, perhaps.

Not that he would know, at the time the only other kid on the moon he was raised on was Freyaa.

On the surface it was all normal looking. He acted more often than not like any other kid his age, aside from perhaps daydreaming a bit more than not. Perhaps it would have stayed that way had he not been subjected to so much stress.

It only got worse when he and Freyaa moved from the moon Lucid to Earth. As his brain started developing, he began expressing the symptoms that ran in the family. His Lucidian guardians didn’t know how to handle this sort of thing.

Difficulty sitting still, trouble with emotional regulation. The most important thing was his struggles with sensory stimulation, and he often acted out because of it. It was only made worse by his inability to acclimate to living on Earth.

Freyaa also struggled with those issues but to a much lesser extent for whatever reason. Perhaps it was because she was more human than he was, but it wasn’t something anyone could say with certainty.

It wasn't before long Freyaa and Orion separated for a time. Orion needed special attention after all.

Freyaa went to a typical human school. Made typical human friends. Experienced a mostly typical human life.

Orion went through dozens of therapists and psychiatrists, hospitals, and special-care facilities. Many of which were not prepared to deal with the magnitude of his specific combination of problems.

The caveat of him being not human often made things more complicated. Few humans had knowledge of non-human entities, their limited experience made treating him that much more difficult.

Some people were more forgiving than others. Some people believed Orion did these things on purpose. Unfortunately, this filled Orion with constant self-doubt.

It reached the point where he would isolate himself from others out of fear of losing his temper. During times when he wasn't self-isolating, he was always putting on a face and trying to maintain his ‘self’ in front of other people.

After some time, he started breaking down, his modes became detached. He struggled to transition from work to play or play to work, or happy to sad and angry.

This only made it harder for him to regulate his emotions. He didn't know why he threw a tantrum; he didn't know what made him sob or yell, and his shaky memory made it hard to explain himself.

Sometimes this made him an easy target. When someone riled him up on purpose, they'd often get off scot-free because Orion's tantrums would happen 'for no reason'.

Of course no one would take his side. Especially since Freyaa wasn't around, and caregivers can only help so much in situations they weren't a part of. Stressors compiled and weighed heavy on his developing mind.

It's not as if there weren't good times, but the stress of the bad times made him often forget those too. Sometimes he'd think back and think he had a decent childhood, and other times he'd think back thinking he'd went through hell.

If the circumstances changed, if he were a bit more stable, perhaps it wouldn't have gotten to the point it had.