Joan

Closing the door behind me and leaning against the door frame give some time to breath and think, it was like what? 2 minutes but i need them, well, (...) it's a relief now that i have been able to talk with the doctor (...) i want to see him (...) and wrap my arms around his neck, fuck Jo get a grip, really (...), i walk through the corridor and talk with the secretary about the payment and to schedule my next appointment, seeing Rique waiting for me while seemed to be reading a magazine makes my heart squeeze,

''hey, i'm ready'' i say to him as i approach

''ok, let's go i'm famished, can we go to Lou's? pleeease? wanna grab a gyro (...)'' Rique said as he stood up

''Let's go then'', i push the door open for us to go out but the closer we got to the parking lot, the more anxious I became

''Have you heard about (...) oh come on! is he a stalker now?'' Rique was pointing to the car

''What do you mea(...)'' oww he's being nice now, i run through the parking lot just to see my pretty present,

Patrick left a yellow pansy bouquet on the windshield with a note 'Thinking of you. Patrick' and left his phone number, but that was dangerous, what if someone took the note, what if (...) but smelling him in the flowers made me feel better and (...)

''Ok, time out time out, dude please don't tell me that you're falling for his displays of affection, you met this morning! i can't believe (...)''

''rude my ass! you're falling for him'' he said desperately,

''maybe? but look, you're being rude this whole time since you met him this morning and i like his romantic gestures towards me, does that make me an attention seeker? or someone naive who is dazzled by the slightest bit of loving attention?'' i'm getting angry now,

''no, hey i'm sorry (...)'' he grab me by my arm and that triggered something inside because i pushed him so hard that he fell to the ground i try to catch him but i started to cry,

''Oww man, what the fuck?!, ouch my elbow hurts like hell, i understand that you only want Mr. Shining armor to touch you but you didn't have to push me like that, if you weren't like my brother i would have hit you back'' Jesus fucking Christ ... i fucked up

''Rique, i'm sorry i didn't mean to push you like that it's just (...) i'm so sorry, *sniff* *sniff* we have to go to the clinic now, come on i take you there, i hate this day it all goes from bad to worse'' helping Rique to get up i notice the bruise on his elbow and that make me feel even worse,

''I'm sorry, let's go i drive'' we got into the car and call Asher

*tuuuut* *tuuuuuut*

''Hey you! how are my best best friends going?'' Asher sound like if he was waiting for us to call,

*tuut* *tuut* *tuut*

''Mmm let me guess, he hung up again in the middle of the conversation right?" Rique said in a mocking tone

''His parents are very controlling when it comes to Asher so they hired that manager just to screw him over''

"Ahahaha are you cursing and thanking God in the same sentence ahahah you're hilarious, come on" pushing the door to open we meet the receptionist and i told her what had happen, she told us to wait so we sit and wait

''Ahhh i'm tired, famished and sore'' Rique said leaning his head on my shoulder

''Don't be, love you but fuck you too man this hurts like hell''

"Mr. Alvarez please come in" the receptionist said

''Nope, stay here i'm fine'' he said as he enter the doctors office

Leaning my head against the wall i thought about the shitty day we had, it was awfull and tiresome at some point, it was 5:15pm by now and my mind went to Patrick and my pansy bouquet, am i really that lonely that the slightest sign of affection pleases me? *sigh* fuck, i hadn't thought of it that way before, but the attraction is mutual (...) right? now i don't know what to do (...) fuck fuck fuck

''Yes, Dr. Abbot i will take care of him'' i feel so guilty, it's my fault that Rique is here at the clinic injured

''Aye Aye Doc, thank you again" Rique said,

''Ok, see ya both of you'' Dr. Abbot said goodbye to us and entered his office,

*sigh*

Driving in silence while the following song from the playlist was playing ~ somewhere only we know by Keane, i park in front of the building and the anxiety was there but this time i have my pansys that made me calm (...) at least a little bit, Rique closed the door behind me, we take of our shoes at the entrance and went directly to our rooms we go out at the same time in our pjs, we sat in the living room, grabbed our blankets and sat in silence. 

I checked the time and it was already late it was 7pm, where's Asher? he should have arrived by now,

*ding dong*

I got up and there he was, smiling and being the happy person i know

''Of course, it gives personality to the greeting'' i love that beyond the bad boy image he's just so proper to talk, sometimes i forgot that he's a rich boy with manners, well 'was'

''Please tell me that you bring food, i can eat an entire cow right fucking now'' Rique said as he lay down across the middle of the couch

''Ahahaha of course i do, what kind of friend would I be if not sweetie, I(...)'' Asher said as he put the food on the coffee table

''Oh by the way, speaking of 'sweetie' Jo, has an admirer and he calls him 'sweetheart''' Rique was reaching into the food bag while Asher stood frozen with his mouth open and of course as the drama queen he is, he shout excitedly leaving us deaf in the meantime

''OH.MY.GOD is Rique telling the truth? are you kidding? why didn't you told earlier? what happen? when? where? who is he? OMG, i'm so excited (...)'' but sometimes he's like a soda, as fast as it goes up fast it goes down

As the night goes by and we told Asher about our crappy day, he was angry and frustrated that he couldn't help us and even ended up crying, he swear that if he could chase the bastard and kill him he would, 2 wine bottles later we end up crying and fell asleep in the living room; the next morning i didn't see anyone Rique and Asher were nowhere to be found and that made me feel anxious, searching for my pansys with cedar smell i found them on the kitchen counter, remembering that i add Patrick to my contacts yesterday because of Asher being pushy but a small part of me wanted it so i agreed (...) 

"Do it, Jo'' Asher whispered in my ear

''What the fuck!! you scared me to death, asshole'' smacking him on the shoulder, he realized that he frightened me  and apologized

''But hey text him, he's probably wondering why his fapping muse is not texting him'.'

''Ughh you're (...) you're" i'm searching the right words,

"I'm right? ahah of course i do, so do it, you don't have to seem desperate, just tell him that you like the precious bouquet he gave you and that's all ~ oh and good morning, manners matter sweetie" *wink*

''If you don't then i (...)" he didn't had the time to finish the sentence before i grab him by the collar and made an angry expression and made the statement,

''He's mine, don't you ever dare look at him or talk to him, ok (...) sweetie?'' i feel bile rising in my throat and pushing him i run to the toilet, why i feel this towards Asher? what the hell?

''Fuck you Ash'' i shout from the toilet,

I come out of the bathroom and found Asher near my phone, but he was true to his word that we would write that text together

''So (...)''

*clear my throat*

*click*

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