I got back into the car, my face a few shades pinker. “Is your boyfriend, okay?” Asher asked as i buckled my seatbelt. “He’s fine.” He looked at me surprised i wasn’t mad he called Brandon my boyfriend. I smiled. “He is officially my boyfriend.” Ashers face lit up in excitement. I sat in the seat, my hands placed on my lap. “And we... kinda kissed.” Asher smiled. “Are you gonna tell him about the plan?” He asked, i shook my head. “You have to tell him. He needs to know.” Asher said as we drove back.  “I know... but, he’d hate me.” I looked down, he rolled his eyes. “How about, you tell him by the end of next month, if you don’t, I'll tell him for you.” My eyes widened. “Fine... just please don't tell him.” I replied, the rest of the car ride was silence. “We are back.” Asher said as we walked through the door. Lily was watching a movie on the tv. “How's Jay’s little boyfriend?” Lily asked, pausing the movie. “He’s fine.” I replied, hopping onto the couch beside Lily. “Sprained ankle, he says he’ll be out tomorrow.” I said as Asher got on the couch. “The twinks kissed.” Asher said, grabbing the remote out of Lily’s hand. I rolled my eyes. Asher turned on some *insert movie franchise* movie, the second one, i think. I didn’t pay much attention. I was too busy thinking about Brandon. Trying to replay the kiss. Feeling his lips on mine. I wanted more. No, not more kissing. Something more than kissing. I wasn’t gonna ask, not yet at least, we just got together. I let my imagination run wild, creating images of it. It would be my only way to feel that. Though, yes it isn’t real, but... I couldn’t have the real thing yet. I reminded myself about how hesitant he was at the park. Maybe it was just the first time. He seemed eager at the hospital. But that might have been the drugs they hooked him on. I sat there imagining, or at least trying to imagine the best i could. I imagined sitting on his bed in his room. Locking the door. Pulling off his shirt. Pulling down his pants. Kissing him, kissing his neck. Leaving hickeys on his neck and chest. Teasing him. It would be amazing. Yet its something i can’t have... something i probably won’t get the chance to do. I only had my imagination. Nothing real. Not even the size. No proof it could even happen. I still had hope. I kept imagining, keeping myself from imaging the size, just to not get my hopes up. I failed, but i imagined the most average size. I imagined sucking it. Feeling it, holding it. Turning him around, putting mine up his ass. Him riding it. I would kiss the back of his neck, hearing him moan. I would smile every time he’d moan. I think i got hard just imagining it. I felt myself return to real life. The fifth movie was playing, how long did i zone out for, Lily and Asher were asleep. I decided to try to fall asleep.