That night, as we sat at the top of that hill I saw how bright his pale blue eyes shone, reminding me of how much I loved them. That night, I felt, for the first time in my life...understood. That night...I realized my feelings for him. I know I shouldn't get too involved with him. I knew that I'd end up getting hurt in the end. I knew all these things but I couldn't help wanting him. (If I'm going to love him, I have to tell him. Tell him before it's too late) I thought, encouraging myself. With a deep breath, I awkwardly called out to him, "H-hey, listen..." (Just f****ing kill me now. "Hey listen?" Really?) I abandoned the confession out of my own stupid, cringe self, hoping to God he didn't hear me. "Hey..." As I continued to wallow in my awkwardness, Lui called out to me. Bracing for his comment on my crigey ass self, I squinted my eyes as if I'm about to receive the hardest punch in my life, but instead, something soft and cold greeted me. I was rendered speechless and helpless. It felt as if time had suddenly frozen in place. There are no words that can describe how I felt at that moment. After an eternity (or a couple of minutes) we unwillingly broke separated our faces from one another. There he sat, pale blue eyes shining. Blonde hair dancing in the cool midsummer breeze. Lui was smiling his trademark Lui smile. "You know, I really like you Ashley. Crazy right?" Still taken aback by the kiss, I couldn't process much of what he was saying, but I got the just of it. I lay on the grass staring into nothingness as I replayed the events that just happened all the while Lui sat next to me just smiling, sure that I wasn't going to turn him down. The rest of the night was spent in total silence by each other's side.