Oh my god I actually invited him. That was totally impulsive. Why did I do that? I mean, not that I didn't want to, but that was just weird, and he probably thinks that I’m, I don’t know, really strange.

But he did say that he wanted to come, so that’s a good sign, right?

This way I can get to know him better. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll find out that he’s gay? 

Ugh, no. I am not crushing on the straight boy from Starbucks. I refuse to.

[one month later]

Okay, okay, I know I said that I’m absolutely NOT crushing on Liam, but…

We’ve been talking a lot recently. Like, a lot. I text him whenever I get the chance, between periods, right before I go to sleep, all the time. And he’s just… just awesome. Like, I want to spend all my time with him.

But I don’t have a crush on him. No way.

It’s been three or so weeks since we went to that movie, and Liam and my friends got along pretty well. My best friend, Magnus, caught on immediately. 

“So… straight boy crush, huh?” xe had said.

“Uh, no, of course not! We’re just friends!”

“I have no doubt about that, but you want to be more, right?” 

“No! Why would you think that?!?” I was blushing so hard, and xe saw right through me.

“Uh-huh.”

I can’t hide anything from xem. Xe knows too much. About me, about how I think.

And xe’s right. I can’t stop thinking about him.