Dear Frist Love,

You haven't stopped talking to me yet. You walked me to my classes. I knew your classes were on the other side of the school, and sometimes you were late to your own classes because you were walking me to mine. I'm sorry that you got in trouble because of me. I'm sorry that you have to go through all that trouble for me.

But I can't bring myself to refuse you.

Today, in the cafeteria, when you sat next to me again, I could see your girlfriend. Or should I refer to her as your ex-girlfriend? She was crying. I feel like a terrible person. Your ex-girlfriend didn't break up with you because she didn't love you anymore. I think I know she broke up with you because you kept being around me and defending me even though I wasn't your girlfriend. That makes me feel worse.

But you just covered my eyes and turned my head to look at you. When I looked into your warm eyes, my guilt slipped away for a moment. But no, I knew it was all my fault. It would always be. No matter what you said, it would always be my fault that you are so lonely now.

After that, I avoided you for the rest of the day. I made so many excuses to avoid you, and I think you noticed. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I avoided you. But how could I dare keep sticking to your side when you were fresh from a breakup?

Sincerely,
H.