Dear First Love,

Your ex-girlfriend approached me today. I think her name is Victoria. She has a pretty name. She asked me what relationship you and I had. I didn't know what to say. I told her we were friends. I think she noticed the sad look in my eyes, because she asked me if I loved you.

I was surprised that she noticed. Surprised and afraid. Afraid that she would tell you everything and that you would avoid me too. That you would hate me. That you would glare at me like how you should have the moment you locked eyes with me.

But she just smiled at me. She told me that you had slowly fallen out of love with her. But that wasn't true. I saw how sad you were when you two broke up. Maybe Victoria misunderstood. Maybe I could fix things between you and her. Would you forgive me then? Would you forgive me for ruining everything for you if I did that?

Even thinking about it makes my heart hurt. I don't want to get you two back together. I'm so selfish and greedy that I can't let go of you. But I have to. I have to let go of my love for you. Just... not yet. 

I'll fix this. I'll fix everything I ruined. I promise.

Sincerely,
H.