Dear First Love,

Schedules were shifted today. We had Biology class together - you, me, and Victoria. We needed to sit with a partner and work on a project together. You approached me to be partners. I avoided your question and suggested that you and Victoria be partners instead. Victoria winced. You looked at me in the eyes and refused. You said that you had asked me to be your partner. I could tell that your words hurt Victoria.

Didn't you love her?

I lied and said I already had a partner. You asked who. I panicked and roped in a random quiet kid who didn't have a partner yet. Luckily, the quiet kid - Lucas, I think his name was - agreed and you just partnered with Victoria.

After Biology, at lunch, you approached me and asked me why I wanted you and Victoria to partner up. I couldn't tell you the truth. I'm sorry. You looked frustrated and asked if I knew Lucas. I panicked again and said yes. I lied. I'm sorry.

You seemed angry. You stormed out of the cafeteria, and I was left standing there. After that, I just had my lunch alone again. I'm sorry that I made you angry. I don't know why you're angry, but I'm sorry. I did something wrong again.

On my way to my next class, I saw you cornering Lucas. You had a scary expression on your face. It scared me. Lucas was scared too. I couldn't hear what you said to him, but Lucas nodded his head and ran away fearfully.

Were you not the nice person I thought you were? Was that just a foolish illusion I had made up in my mind?

I was having doubts. I'm sorry for doubting you.

You saw me watching. You tried to approach me, but I got scared and ran away from you. I can't face you just yet.

Sincerely,
H.