(This letter was originally written in Spanish)

maybe… but im not sure i wanna write about that. I’m imagining the face I’ll make when I see this, it’ll be like damn, I don’t remember this or maybe I’ll think of how much I do remember, some days ago I read my diary from when we were little, pls read it again. I’ll probably think about how childish I was and how much I loved tildes or acentos. I like the Word acentos. Right now I’m listening to Only time by Enya and yes, I had to look up the name of the singer. I’m in the United States, btw. I’m sure that abreviation was too friki for you, Cara of the future huh. And that thing of Cara of the future too. When I read this, which I hope is a long time from now, I want you to respond to this very “childish” and “friki” questions: As you know, I still haven’t decided about the “What do you wanna be when you grow up?” (read with a granny voice), so tell me, what do you wanna be when you grow up? Have you been to university? to study what? did you end up doing scientific bachillerato? Do you think you picked right? And well, tell me eeeeverything related to this topic. what about your first job? what was it? do you still keep it? did you like the experience? I’d love to be with you right now to talk to you, but you and I know that it is impossible and that if we did we’d change the future (probably) and you wouldn’t exist so I wouldn’t be able to be talking with you in the first place, etc. I’ve been tempted to write con tigo (to gether) like 4 times already. Maybe you're tired of reading me, but if you haven’t changed, I doubt it. Well, this was meant to be a list, but I’m still at the first thing and I’ve written 274 words. I’m at my American room, it’s pretty messy, tomorrow it Will be three weeks I’ve been living in this house. I’ve been thinking if I should tell you or not,but who gives a shit, I’m talking to myself, if you judge me, you’ll be judging yourself. I’m thinking of writing a new story. By the way, did you finish any of the novels? right now i’m writing the one about the girl who’s a robot and the goy that wants to be an actor and she doesn’t know she’s a robot blah blah blah. And also the one about the girl who has that guy confess to her and then the bad boy kisses her and everyone hates her blah blah. Maybe they’re still not finished. Maybe you forgot about the mor changed them. Just do me a favor, if you continue them, make the characters not be plastic, you get me.

There’s a ton of things I wanna ask. BY the way, today I’ve been sick, I’ve been sick for three days. Are you still friends with them? you should know who I’m talking about, but just in case, Irene, Marina, Lucia, Julia and Gio, the “gnomes. Say hello to her from me, I hope you’re not ashamed to tell them is because of a letter from when you were sixteen, and that you didn’t get angry with each other, nor they are dead, nor I’m dead, nor they/I’ve been in an serious accident, OK?? And well, how are you at speaking of your love life, like always? it’s hard for me to write this, buff. By the way if you don’t hate it listen to American Beauty/American Psycho I love it. How are youtubers? Are they still something? Right now they just keep growing and growing and growing. The biggest one now is Pewdiepie 39 million Bros. WOW, maybe in your now he’s nothing, or too much, maybe youtube has died, idk. Right now I’m a big fangirl of Danisnotonfire or Dan Howell and FOB or Fall Out Boy. I’m sure not anymore, you stop fangirling very quick. I was thinking that if someone read this, I’d die. Maybe you don’t care, maybe you’re a vlogger and you share it on youtube, even though I wouldn’t like you to do that, this feels like something private. how’s the united states? god, im terrified. I don’t know how to talk to anyone. Now my only friend is Steph from Japanese class, short hair, tall, a bit of a belly, and I feel bad writing this. How was PROM!?? I’m sure you almost died when someone asked you if someone did, I hope so. By the waaay, first boyfriend, I hope you got over that idiot serrano, cause I’m still on it. Tell me, that “cool” guy from precalc, the blonde with the trumpet, is he cool, nice, geeky or an asshole. If you don’t remember him they probably changed my seats or he was too normal. And the cute guy, with the curls and glasses that plays American football, is he cold like you suspect, indifferent or nice. BY the way im curious. I know about the heterosexuality, but demisexuality?? wat? Are they still making Gravity Falls, please don’t tell me they ended it or, worse, it went to shit. And Adventure Time??? As weird as ever? Are the simpsons over?? Did you stop reading, say no pls.

Personal, first boyfriend’s name, your age, his age, motive, 1^st kiss when, losing your virginity when, and if you’re reading this, if I’m guessing right at 21, tell me you don’t have children!!, children 28 onwards, before it’s forbidden okay? don’t ruin your life having children this soon. maybe you don’t want children, even though I don’t believe you, right now I do, but everything in it’s own time. I’m curious about drugs, do you smoke? drink? take any kind of drug? that includes caffeine huh ;). I just hope you haven’t ruined your life and don’t get depressed, there’s always someone. I’m imagining that maybe you ended up with Serrano, that’s be funny, although weird. I’d love you to tell me you got over your insecurities, and don’t tell me you got surgery because I’ll kill you. Tell me you’re not as shy, that’s my true dream, being a sociable person. Did you grow? do you use makeup? tell me you finished a book, even if just for yourself. I have so many questions, but my hand it’s starting to fail me. Maybe tomorrow I’ll continue. The next one will arrive shortly, if there is one. Lots of kisses and lots of hugs, with love :*

Cara Abarca OcaÑa ;P

PS: puta vida tt, puta photo XD

PS2: if you still haven’t gotten your ear piercing, and you know what I’m talking about, leave the letter and get out of the house right now or wherever the fuck you are to get it done, it’s been 9 years since I wanted to get it done, and if you did, I am sosososo happy and I hope you like it and it’s pretty.

PS3: Start writing another letter to 26 year old cara and ask her how life is treating her.

PS4: If you haven’t come back to visit your American family, it’s about time, don’t you think? And talk with some of your friends, from the US as well as the other Spanish exchange students (Jorge, Pablo, Alvaro, Lucia y Damian (Damian grosses me out)), or Kairu, what has become of him??