"Aki...ara...?" Gin hesitantly says my name.

I snap out of it. I quickly grab him by the shoulders and move him away from me. We stare at each other. Gin's green eyes are wide and confused.

"Ha...haha..." I laugh. That's all I can do in this situation. "I don't mind helping you at all!! That hug was just...was just to show you how much I don't mind! Ahaha! Anyway, I'm gonna shower real quick! Bye!" I let go of Gin and escape to the bathroom.

I throw my clothes off, grab a towel, and lock myself in a stall to shower. I hang the towel over the door and turn on the water. Cold water comes out of the shower head and hits me. I stand and endure it. What the hell...did I just do...? Did my explanation even make sense...? Is Gin going to hate me now...?

I grab the shampoo, pour it on my head, and aggressively scrub my hair. I shouldn't care if he hates me now! This might actually be good!! He'll leave me alone! He'll label me as a pervert and leave me alone like I want!! Not that I want to be called a pervert though...

I rinse my hair and shake my head. Then I put my hand on the wall behind the shower head and sigh. Now I've done it... Kentaro was even relaxing on his bed and saw the whole thing... What is he going to think...? I'm done for. I wanted to seem like an alright person, that way I could contentedly get along with everyone here. But if they think I'm weird, or truly do hate me, then maybe they'll shun me. There's a difference between being shunned and everyone avoiding you. When you're shunned, there's malice in everything a person does around you or lack thereof. But if you're just being avoided, it's uncomfortable but manageable. Uncomfortable feelings can turn into indifference in the end. I much prefer the latter. But I've ruined it all now...

The worst part is, is that I'm aroused. Remembering Gin's body in my arms and his scent is making it worse. Matsu's smile after saying the frogs were a couple... The shirtless views of Kentaro every time he changes his clothes... And even Hisashi's perverted comments are getting to me now. I can't take it anymore, I'm all pent up. Will I even get to enjoy this? Or will I just feel guilty after because I ruined things with Gin and maybe even Kentaro with that sudden hug? Either way, I have to deal with the problem in front of me first...

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I finish washing myself and wrap myself in a towel. I don't want to go out and face them... But I can't stay in the bathroom forever. I also forgot a clean pair of clothes in my hurry to shower.

Gin and Kentaro both look at me like they have something to say or ask. But I grab my clothes and change in the bathroom. Then I fake a yawn and say I'm exhausted. They let me crawl up into my bed and don't bother me with what they want to say. I close my eyes and try to sleep. I don't get much sleep though.