Doing a quick little update to let all of you know I am not dead.

My birthday is coming up and I turn 26. It's a very weird feeling to be in a place where I feel like I've done so much but don't know if what I'm doing has much impact. I know I matter to people and they respect the effort I put in but when you see the same issues crop up over and over again and aren't able to convince people to make any significant changes, it's hard to see whatever progress you supposedly made.

I'm idle but restless. But mostly befuddled in all honesty.

It's also very annoying that I'm constantly being lied to and people think that I don't notice these things. I may be relatively young to many of these people, but I'm not a goddamn idiot.

Anyways, I'm knees deep in this whatever the fuck it is, went through a couple of breakups (one was honestly confusing) and visited Montreal for a weekend last month in the meantime.

It was nice. I officially travelled more this year than I usually have in my life. I think I've been in a good chunk of Eastern Ontario as well as parts of Quebec. The most I've travelled in the past was a high school trip to Italy and having a small bus tour of Amsterdam during the 9-hour layover but it was restrictive and I don't think I enjoyed it that much since it was doing stuff with people I wasn't close to. Shouldn't be surprised since it was a Catholic school. I've also been to Thailand multiple times and been to Singapore with family when I was visiting Thailand but I feel like that shouldn't count since that's familial duties and I didn't have a choice again since I was a kid. I feel like I have more control now when it comes to travel. I can see why people do it often.

This also means I haven't written. I legit haven't written. I want to write but I haven't and I feel like there's so much going on that I can't write.

Nothing is really clear and I feel like I'm just roaming and happening to stumble into answers but also just more situations and barely scraping by with wits and willpower.

At this point, I've been deemed "the saviour", "a hero", "a legend", and "too powerful".

The fuck did I even do? It probably is obvious from the outsider's perspective but I have only my eyes that I can look out of.

Anyways, I hope everyone gets to rest this winter season and gets to spend time with their loved ones.

Till next time

-Joy