Gustave
chews thoughtfully on his lower lip. Just a few days ago, they had
talked about it again.
No night work! Firstly, no insurance will
pay for it if something happens. Secondly, it's not in the contract
and thirdly: Pojke,
sleep!
And
as he steps over the curled-up young man, Gustave thinks to himself,
At
least he's finally fallen asleep.
The table is cluttered with workpieces and wood chips. Gustave slowly
tidies up, his eyes wandering over the scattered individual parts of
an almost finished violin. He
is about to complete it,
Gustave realizes. A hint of excitement comes over him. This tingling
feeling of curiosity, the question of how the violin will sound.
Which varnish, which strings? What will it sound like when the bow
glides over the strings?
He misses this curiosity. Gustave loves
to create things, but all the knowledge he has acquired over the
years has erased something inside him. Knowledge is power. But with
all this knowledge, something is lost. Something small, but immensely
important.
The
surprise.
Humming contentedly, Gustave shuffles through the back room and
clears the floor of sawdust and wood debris.
A disheveled head
with black hair suddenly pops up. The hair sticks out in all
directions, shaking back and forth as the young man looks
around.
“Shit,” he whispers.
“You can say that, Pojke,”
Gustave replies dryly as he slowly sinks onto the stool. He watches
Erik as the punk hurriedly moves his eyes back and forth.
From the
clock to the window, then to the pile of sawdust, and finally his
eyes linger on Gustave.
“We need to talk again. This isn't going
to work,” the old violin maker begins, his voice firm. “You can't
work here and sleep. You work during the day, and you sleep at night.
In your bed.”
“Bu-”
“You take time off on Sundays, do
you understand? Erik, it's important to take breaks. Have you
forgotten about the fight with Christine?” the old man finishes
emphatically, but not without concern.
Erik remains silent. Of
course, he hasn't forgotten. How could he forget that she had cried
so terribly that it had almost broken his heart.
He thinks about
it. Every day. And at night, too. He constantly thinks about what
Gustave said. But he doesn't know how to free himself from it, from
this constant restlessness that torments him. He works until he
almost can't stand on his feet. Just to finally be able to sleep.
Just to finally find some peace.
Peace that he doesn't find
in his dreams.
“Pojke, what's wrong?” Gustave asks after a
long pause, his voice softer but also worried.
“Nothing,” Erik
whispers meekly, his shoulders slump.
Gustave waits, looks at him
silently, rubs his thick mustache thoughtfully with his thumb and
forefinger and finally groans.
“I'll lock up the workshop at
night from now on,” he says, the tone of his voice final. “And
you're having the day off.”
Erik's body jerks as if the words
are an unexpected slap in the face that suddenly hits him. The huge
man shrinks into himself. His head sinks as low as if it might break
from his shoulders.
“It's... Alright,” he mumbles, almost
tonelessly.
“You don't understand the reason, do you?” Gustave
looks at him sharply.
“No, not really.”
“Then why do you
take it?” but Erik hesitates. The silence stretches out until Erik
finally whispers, “Because... it's easier.”
“For whom?”
mumbles Gustave, more to himself, but Erik hears it anyway. Gustave
doesn't understand him, and Erik can't understand himself either.
“So,
I'm leaving now,” Erik says quietly, his steps slow and heavy as he
passes Gustave.
“I don't understand you, Pojke,” the violin
maker grumbles thoughtfully, but more to himself than to him. Erik
hears it, and it hits him harder than he wants to admit.
Erik
shuffles up the stairs with his head hanging down and a heavy step.
Christine is standing at the top of the stairs, calm, almost as if
she knew he was coming.
“Did Dad tell you off?” she asks with
a small smile on her lips.
“Hmmm,” he mumbles in
agreement.
“Let me guess. He's giving you the day off so you can
relax?”
“Hmh!” Another mumble.
“His punishments are
weird, I know,” she says with an encouraging smile that almost
brings Erik back to life. “You'll get used to it.”
And Erik
sees the smile. But deep inside him, the question echoes: Do
I really deserve the kindness?
But
then the thought flies away again. It feels different. Unlike
anything he has ever known before.
It's
different here.
“Erik?” Christine speaks to him calmly and her hand rises so
that he can see it before she gently places it on his shoulder. Her
touch is calm, without pressure, and yet he can feel a tender emotion
stirring inside him. “What do you think about us going to the park
together with Sasha? By coincidence, I'm off today too.” It is an
offer that is at once so simple and yet so difficult to accept. But
as he looks at her, he realizes for the first time that he doesn't
have to be alone.
Not anymore.
“All right,” he
finally says quietly.

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